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BT Song 946
A self-portrayal. First, I wrote this as a secular song. After writing it, I began to meditate on the song and prayed to God to help me overcome this nature in me. Then I wrote stanzas 10 and 11 as my prayers and read the poem as my prayer. After praying, I thought about it and wrote another two stanzas (12 and 13) and bracketed 10 and 11 so I could easily switch between two worlds. However, I finally decided to keep it under Bhakti Theology Songs and retained stanzas 10 and 11.
BT Song 946: I Ignore Others
I often ignore
Those around,
Then feel regret
In my heart, profound. (1)
I chose to distance
From their space,
But only to find
Self-deceit in place. (2)
I quickly declare,
“No more, no more.”
Yet when they speak,
I shut the door. (3)
In pondering why
This came to be,
Peace eludes,
I’m filled with agony. (4)
I let dark thoughts
Take root and grow,
Their shadow spreads,
Eclipsing all I know. (5)
Imagining woes
Without cause or end,
Fury flames within,
From which I can’t defend. (6)
Fueling the fire
With every thought,
‘Til the blaze consumes
All I’ve got. (7)
At last, I am
By flames undone,
My strength consumed,
No battles won. (8)
Yet in mercy,
Seeing my plight,
You redeemed me,
Bringing back the light. (9)
Grace restored
My will to live,
From death’s grasp,
A life to give. (10)
Still, victory
Is not complete,
For my nature’s war
Is hard to beat. (11)
Thus, I must
This nature bear,
No escape,
Just constant care. (12)
Mathigiri, 21-8-2018, 11.55 p.m.
BT Song 947
See: Moral High Ground
BT Song 947: Human Religions
So easily they fashioned,
Faiths to bind,
With boundaries set,
To divide mankind.
At birth, upon us
Creeds were pressed,
Shaping souls
By doctrines dressed.
Young minds taught
What they could not grasp,
Led to live
In a belief’s clasp.
We grew up
Without much thought,
Certain our faith
Was true and wrought.
In this zeal,
We scorned the rest,
Claiming our path
To be the best.
This madness bred
A vile terror,
Humanity’s cost,
A grievous error.
Faith that should unite,
Turns to divide,
Human nature lost,
On this earthly ride.
Mathigiri, 22-8-2018, 2.30 p.m.
BT Song 948
As I was posting my Bhakti Songs (Bhakti Theology Songs) on my blog with comments and reading a Commentary on Psalms, confusion arose in my mind about my conversations with the Lord. Are they really true, or are they only a projection of my brain? Am I imposing my own imagination in the name of God talking to me and giving answers to my questions? Several times such questions arose as my rationality refused to accept my own songs and statements in such a way. That night, as I was doing my night walk (10:30 to 11:00), I began to think about it again and started talking to the Lord about it.
After my regular reading, as I sat for my meditation and prayer, the same thought came to me, and I began to think about it deeply. Then I wrote this song. After completing the 10th stanza, I closed the poem and read it as my prayer. Tears began to flow, and I was overwhelmed by some experience. Then I wrote stanzas 11 and 12. I read the whole poem again as my prayer. After closing the notebook, as the inspiration came again, I wrote stanza 13 and read the entire poem once more. Closing my eyes, I silently prayed. A sense of calmness came over me. I won’t say that God really spoke to me, but I realized that even this inspiration is from God and is His response to my question. Finally, I wrote two stanzas (14 and 15) and closed my prayer.
BT Song 948: Is It True?
To you I come,
Without delay,
My needs and woes,
To you I convey. (1)
Now, as before,
I plead and pray,
For you to join,
To light my way. (2)
In fellowship,
My heart to share,
Questions abound,
In my silent prayer. (3)
Is this bond
A truth divine,
Or but a figment
Of my mind? (4)
Such doubts arise,
Answers I seek,
Is this your voice,
Or my own speak? (5)
Can my discourse
Be yours indeed,
Or is it self
I hearken and heed? (6)
Whatever answer
You may give,
I’ll take it, Lord,
By your will I live. (7)
With tearful eyes
And folded hand,
Your answers, Lord,
I understand. (8)
Words fail to grasp
The depth you share,
Through your Spirit’s
Tender care. (9)
To others, I speak
Of this divine,
But all are echoes
Of your line. (10)
In this clarity,
Doubt departs,
I bow, my Lord,
With grateful heart. (11)
Mathigiri, 23-8-2018, 11.30 p.m.
BT Song 949
As I got up very early, after a cup of tea, I began to work on the computer. When the day dawned, the birds began to sing with their beautiful voices. At first, I didn’t pay much attention as I was busy with my computer work. But as another bird joined in and responded to the first, I couldn’t continue my work. Stopping my work, I sat silently, enjoying the singing of the birds and the coolness and calmness of the early morning. Then, as inspiration came, I wrote this song to worship the Lord, closing my computer work. No doubt, God first created nature and then human beings not only to inspire His spirit but also to remind them of their purpose.
BT Song 949: Call of Nature
The coals cry out
In cuckoo’s song,
Cool breezes join,
Their notes prolong.
The peacock dances,
Feathers wide,
My heart in worship,
By their side.
Can we resist
Nature’s call,
Though duties beckon,
One and all?
For hearts in longing,
Join the praise,
Of God in nature’s
Wondrous ways.
For this, we’re made,
To praise and sing,
With nature’s chorus,
Heavenward ring.
In grace’s rain,
We wet our soul,
With music sweet,
And praises whole.
Accept this call,
To worship true,
In heart and spirit,
Sing anew.
In praise, no time
Can hinder be,
For obstacles fall
In this jubilee.
Nature’s praise,
Without delay,
Invites us all
To join and stay.
Mathigiri, 25-8-2018, 5.50 a.m.
BT Song 950
Every religious doctrine stands or falls based on personal faith, not on reason. Atonement is one such doctrine. The same is true for the karma theory. At least the karma theory says that one has to work out their own salvation, as another person cannot contribute much. At the same time, the karma theory also says that one’s karma can be transferred to another person through proper ritual. In fact, another person’s karma can also affect one’s course of life. For example, if a person incurs some loss in business, it is not due to their own karma, but also because of their spouse or (newborn) children or the influence of planets in their life. But a normal Hindu never thinks about these seeming contradictions. They live by using the theory (or ritual) according to the need of that particular time. In a sense, a Hindu can live happily and freely without carrying the burden of any doctrine. Whereas a professing bhakta of the Lord, whether they like it or not, their bhakti is often dictated by the demands of the doctrine, preventing them from living a normal bhakti life enjoying their relationship with the Lord.
So, when I was seriously thinking about understanding the doctrine of atonement, which once and for all removed the burden of sin, yet the reality of the power of sin which dominates my life, after thinking seriously (and recording a lot about this conflict in a brainstorm), I wrote this song.
BT Song 950: Have No Authority
No time for regrets,
Nor sorrow’s weight,
For in redemption,
There’s no such fate.
Sin’s power broken,
Death’s sting undone,
No fear remains,
The battle’s won.
Though mistakes may come,
Punishment is sure,
Yet none are flawless,
Of this be sure.
Your purpose clear,
To redeem and save,
To give us strength,
In trials we brave.
Defeated by sin,
Yet fear not we,
For your Spirit revives,
And sets us free.
Once penance made,
Sin has no claim,
Weakness may come,
But not remain.
Mathigiri, 27-8-2018, 10.30 p.m.
My translation in Tanglish edited by Chatgpt
BT Song 946: I Ignore Others
I easily ignore
Others
Then become
Upset with myself. (1)
I decided to
Keep them away
But I remain away
And deceive myself. (2)
I tell immediately
That it is
Not possible
Anymore. (3)
However, others
Try to talk
I refuse
To listen to them. (4)
However, thinking
What has happened?
I lost my peace
As I become upset. (5)
I allow
Negative thoughts
To grow in me and
Let them take over. (6)
Imagining several
Things unnecessarily
And growing
Anger within me. (7)
Pouring more
Oil on the fire
And increasing
The flames more and more. (8)
Finally allowing
It to annihilate me,
I am
Finished in the end. (9)
{Knowing this,
My condition,
Taking pity
In order to redeem me. (10)
You redeemed me
Because of your grace,
Reviving me again to live,
Who was dead.} (11)
But there is
No final victory
So far
Over this nature. (12)
Till the end,
I have to live with this nature,
There is no
Alternative to this. (13)
Mathigiri, 21-8-2018, 11.55 p.m.
BT Song 947: Human Religions
How easily
They arranged religions,
How easily they
Set boundaries to them.
They separated humans
Based on them,
They created so many
Blind doctrines.
When we were formed
And came out of the womb,
Imposing a
Religion on the child,
Creating several
Identities for that
And shaping it
Accordingly.
At an age
When it cannot understand,
Teaching those doctrines
Which they never understood,
Unable to think
On its own when
That child grows,
They made it to live.
As we too
Grew like this,
We too never thought
Which one is correct?
Thinking that
Only our religion is the best,
We thrashed
Other religions under our feet.
As that madness
Went to our head,
We allowed
(Religious) terrorism to grow,
Paying a cost
For that,
We annihilate
Humanity slowly.
Growing religion
Which needs to perish,
In that name,
Annihilating ourselves,
Losing humanity
Completely,
Living on this earth,
We lost human nature.
Mathigiri, 22-8-2018, 2.30 p.m.
BT Song 948: Is It True?
I will always come to you
Without failing.
I will tell you about
All my needs. (1)
Now also I am
Doing the same
And request you to
Come and join me! (2)
When I talk and
Have fellowship with you,
I will share
What I feel. (3)
As so many questions
Are coming to my mind,
I will seek answers to them
In you. (4)
Is this fellowship with you
Really true,
Or only my own
Imagination? (5)
As similar
Questions are coming,
What kind of
Answer should I give? (6)
Can I impose
My own talk with myself
As your response
To me? (7)
Whatever answer
You might give,
Can I take it
As my own response? (8)
When I struggle like this
Without understanding,
You should not
Remain as a riddle to me. (9)
That is why
I am calling you.
Knowing this,
You give me the response! (10)
Whatever it might be,
I will accept it.
However you say,
I will listen. (11)
With tears in my eyes,
By folding my hands,
I thank you
For the answer you gave. (12)
I know that
I don’t have words to communicate
What you share
By dwelling within me. (13)
All that I share
Outwardly with others
Are nothing but your words,
Given by your Spirit. (14)
Thereby as my
Doubts are removed,
Oh my Lord,
I again bow at your feet! (15)
Mathigiri, 23-8-2018, 11.30 p.m.
BT Song 949: Call of Nature
The coals called with their cuckoo sound,
The cool breeze joined them.
The peacock danced, spreading its feathers,
Heart began to worship, joining them.
Can we deny this call of nature
Though we might have so many tasks?
As our hearts long to join them,
Can we remain not worshiping God?
God created us for this purpose,
He kept nature as our companion for this.
He came and dwelt in our hearts,
He will bestow grace enchanted by such music.
Let us get wet in that rain of grace,
Let us praise him with sweet music.
Accepting the call of nature,
Let us worship him wholeheartedly.
When we begin to praise him,
Time never brings any hurdles to it.
Even if some hurdles come,
Once we begin to praise God, they won’t withstand.
Nature, which praises God without any hurdle,
Will give such opportunities to us.
Realizing this, let us also join in
And worship God with melted hearts.
Mathigiri, 25-8-2018, 5.50 a.m.
BT Song 950: Have No Authority
There is no time to regret,
There is no need to carry the burden of sorrow.
Once you came and redeemed me,
There is no more opportunity for this.
You removed the strength of sin,
You broke the sting of death.
Therefore, they don’t have strength anymore,
I need not fear them.
Punishment will come
When I make mistakes.
There is no one who has never done them,
But I need not give up because of that.
The reason for your coming is to redeem us
And to give us victory over them.
But when we are defeated by them,
We need not be afraid of them.
The Spirit you gave within us
Will revive us and lead us.
When we make mistakes,
He will warn us without fail.
Once you have done penance for sin,
Sin has no authority over me.
But when weakness attacks me,
It does not have victory over me.
Mathigiri, 27-8-2018, 10.30 p.m.
BT Song 946 அலட்சியம் செய்கிறேன்
அலட்சியம் செய்கிறேன்
பிறரை எளிதில்
ஆத்திரம் கொள்கிறேன்
உடனே மனதில். (1)
ஒதுக்கி வைக்க
உள்ளத்தில் நினைக்கிறேன்
ஒதுங்கி நின்று
என்னையே ஏய்க்கிறேன். (2)
ஒத்து வராது
இனிமேல் என்று
உடனே நானும்
சொல்லி விடுகிறேன். (3)
எப்படி எடுத்துப்
பிறர் சொன்னாலும்
கேட்க மட்டும்
நானும் மறுக்கிறேன். (4)
ஆயினும் மனதில்
நடந்ததை எண்ணி
ஆத்திரம் கொண்டு
அமைதியை இழக்கிறேன். (5)
எதிர்மறை எண்ணம்
என்னிலே வளர்ந்து
என்னையே ஆள
இடமும் தருகிறேன். (6)
வீணாய்க் கற்பனை
பலவும் செய்து
கோபம் கொண்டு
அதனை வளர்த்து. (7)
எரியும் தீயில்
எண்ணை ஊற்றி
மேலும் மேலும்
நெருப்பை வளர்த்து. (8)
இறுதியில் அதுவும்
என்னை அழிக்க
இடமும் தந்து
முடிந்து போகிறேன். (9)
{இந்த எனது
நிலையை அறிந்து
என்னை மீட்க
இரக்கம் கொண்டு. (10)
முடிந்த என்னை
மீண்டும் உயிர்த்து
உனது அருளால்
மீட்டுக் கொண்டாய்.} (11)
ஆயினும் இந்தக்
குணத்தின் மீது
இறுதி வெற்றி
இன்னும் இல்லை. (12)
இறுதி வரையில்
இதனுடனே
வாழ வேண்டும்
வழியும் இல்லை. (13)
மத்திகிரி, 21-8-2018, இரவு, 11.55
BT Song 947 மனித மதம்
எத்தனை எளிதாக
மதங்களை தொகுத்தார்
எத்தனை எளிதாக
எல்லைகள் வகுத்தார்
முற்றிலும் அவைமூலம்
மனிதரைப் பிரித்தார்
மூடத்தனமான
கருத்தினை வைத்தார்.
கருவினில் உருவாக்கி
வெளிவந்த போது
மதமொன்றை
சிசுமீது திணித்து
அடையாளம் சிலவற்றை
அதற்காகத் தொகுத்து
அதற்கேற்ப அதனை
உருவேற்றி வைத்து.
புரியாத வயதில்
தாம்கொண்ட கருத்தை
புரியாமல் அதற்கும்
சொல்லியே கொடுத்து
வளர்ந்த பின்னாலே
சுயமாய்ச் சிந்திக்க
வழியேதும் இல்லாமல்
வாழவும் வைத்தார்.
இதுபோல் நாமும்
வளர்ந்ததினாலே
எதுசரி தவறென
எண்ணவும் மறந்தோம்
நம் மதம் ஒன்றே
சிறந்தது என்று
பிறரது மதத்தைக்
காலால் மிதித்தோம்.
அந்த வெறியும்
தலைக்கு ஏற
அதனால் தீவிர
வாதத்தை வளர்த்தோம்
அதற்கு விலையை
நாமும் கொடுத்து
மனித குலத்தை
மெல்ல அழித்தோம்.
அழிய வேண்டிய
மதத்தை வளர்த்து
அதன்பேரால் நாம்
நம்மையே அழித்து
மானுடப் பண்பை
முற்றாய் இழந்து
மண்ணில் வாழ்ந்து
மனிதம் இழந்தோம்.
மத்திகிரி, 22-8-2018, மதியம் 2.30
BT Song 948 உண்மையா
எப்போதும் உன்னிடம்
தப்பாது வருவேன்
என் தேவைகள் அனைத்தும்
உன்னிடம் சொல்வேன். (1)
இப்போதும் அதையே
நானுமே செய்கிறேன்
தப்பாது நீ வந்து
இணைந்திடச் சொல்கிறேன். (2)
உன்னோடு பேசி
உறவாடும் போதிலே
உள்ளத்தில் உள்ளதை
உன்னிடம் சொல்லுவேன். (3)
எண்ணிலாக் கேள்விகள்
என்முன் தோன்ற
உன்னில் அதற்கு
விடையைத் தேடுவேன். (4)
உன்னுடன் உறவும்
உண்மையில் உள்ளதா
வீணான என்மனக்
கற்பனை என்பதா. (5)
இதுபோன்ற கேள்விகள்
பலவும் வந்திட
எவ்விதப் பதிலை
நானும் தந்திட. (6)
எனக்குள் நானும்
என்னுடன் பேசிடும்
இவையாவும் உன்
உரையாடல் என்பதா? (7)
எவ்வித பதிலை நீ
தருகின்ற போதிலும்
அவையாவும் என்
பதிலெனக் கொள்வதா? (8)
புரியாது இதுபோலே
தவித்திடும் போதிலே
புதிராக நீயும்
இருந்திடக் கூடாது. (9)
அதற்காகத்தான்
நானும் அழைக்கிறேன்
அறிந்த நீ வந்துமே
பதிலையும் தந்திடு. (10)
எதுவான போதிலும்
ஏற்றுக் கொள்கிறேன்
எவ்விதம் சொன்னாலும்
கேட்டுக் கொள்ளுவேன். (11)
கண்களும் கசிந்திடக்
கரம் கூப்பி வருகிறேன்
நீ தந்த பதிலுக்கு
நன்றியும் சொல்கிறேன். (12)
உள்ளாக நீ நின்று
உரைத்திடும் வார்த்தையை
உரைத்திட வழியில்லை
என்பதை அறிகிறேன். (13)
வெளியாக நான்கூறும்
வார்த்தைகள் யாவுமே
உள்ளாக உன்னாவி
தந்ததை உணர்கிறேன். (14)
அதனால் நான்கொண்ட
ஐயமும் நீங்கிட
ஐயனே மீண்டும்
உன் பாதம் பணிகிறேன். (15)
மத்திகிரி, 23-8-2018, இரவு, 11.30
BT Song 949 இயற்கையின் அழைப்பு
கூக்ககூவெனக் குயில்களும் கூவின
குளிர்ந்த காற்றும் அதனுடன் சேர்ந்தது
மயில்களும் தோகையை விரித்தே ஆடின
மனதும் அவற்றுடன் சேர்ந்தே பணிந்தது.
எத்தனையோ பணிகள் இருந்த போதும்
இயற்கையும் அழைக்க மறுக்க முடியுமா?
இதயமும் ஏங்கி அவற்றுடன் தவிக்கையில்
இறைவனைப் பணியாமல் இருக்க முடியுமா?
இதற்கெனவே நம்மை இகத்தில் படைத்தான்
இயற்கையை அதற்குத் துணையாய் வைத்தான்
இதயத்தில் வந்து குடி புகுந்தான்
இசையினில் மயங்கி அருளும் பொழிவான்.
அந்த அருளின் மழையில் நனைவோம்
இன்ப இசையால் அனைத் துதிப்போம்
இயற்கை அழைக்கும் அழைப்பை ஏற்று
இதயம் நிறைந்து அவனைப் பணிவோம்.
துதிக்கும் போது கால நேரம்
தடைகள் எதுவும் தருவது இல்லை
தடைகள் எதுவும் இடையில் வரினும்
துதித்துப் பாட நிலைப்பதும் இல்லை.
தடைகள் இன்றித் துதிக்கும் இயற்கை
தந்திடும் நமக்கு அறிய வாய்ப்பை
உணர்ந்து நாமும் இணைந்து கொள்வோம்
உருகிப் பாடிப் பணிந்து சொல்வோம்.
மத்திகிரி, 25-8-2018, காலை, 5.50 a.m.
BT Song 950 அதிகாரமில்லை
துக்கத்தைக் கொண்டாட நேரமில்லை
துன்பத்தைச் சுமந்திடத் தேவையில்லை
நீ வந்து என்னையும் மீட்டபின்னே
இதற்கெல்லாம் இப்போது வாய்ப்புமில்லை.
பாவத்தின் வலிமையை நீ போக்கினாய்
மரணத்தின் கூரையும் நீ உடைத்தாய்
அதனால் அவற்றுக்குப் பெலனில்லை
அவற்றை எண்ணிப் பயந்திடத் தேவையில்லை.
தப்புகள், தவறுகள் செய்யும்போது
அதற்கேற்ப தண்டனை வருவதுண்டு
அவை செய்யா மனிதனும் எவனுமில்லை
அதனால் மனமொடியத் தேவையில்லை.
நீ வந்து எமக்காகச் செய்ததுமே
இவை மீது வெற்றியைத் தரவேண்டித்தான்
ஆயினும் அவற்றாலே தோற்கும்போது
அதையெண்ணி அஞ்சிடத் தேவையில்லை.
உள்ளாக நீதந்த உன்னாவியும்
உயிர்த்தி எம்மையும் வழிநடத்தும்
தப்புத் தவறுகள் செய்யும்போது
தவறாமல் எம்மையும் எச்சரிக்கும்.
பாவப் பரிகாரம் நீ செய்த பின்னே
பாவத்திற்காதிகாரம் என்னில் இல்லை
ஆயினும் பலவீனம் தாக்கும்போது
அதற்கு என்மேல் வெற்றியில்லை.
மத்திகிரி, 27-8-2018, இரவு, 10.30
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