BT Song 1081
Though God can listen to complaints and lamentations, He cannot unload the burden which I carry unnecessarily due to my imagination, nor remove those shortcomings in life that aren’t even there. This kind of lamentation about imagined burdens is nothing but a kind of sickness. I know that clearly, and only God alone can cure it.
BT Song 1081 It is a Sickness
1
How shall I express
These grudges inside?
What words to choose,
Which feelings to hide?
It’s a burden I carry,
Too hard to explain.
How do I speak,
And who’ll ease my pain?
2
None but you
Will lend me an ear,
Though others might listen,
They can’t come near.
I lack the words
To share what’s within,
So there’s no one
Who truly understands my sin.
3
There’s nothing new
For me to reveal,
Though many times
My sorrow I’d kneel.
You weren’t listening,
I know the cause,
Yet in my heart,
There’s no change, no pause.
4
Complaints I bring
Of faults not there,
Bearing weights
That lead nowhere.
When I come to you
With my lament,
How can you lift
This burden I’ve sent?
5
I must change this heart
That cries in vain,
I must see
It brings me pain.
First, I must know
This is a sickness,
And you must give
A cure for this weakness.
Mathigiri, 6-04-2019, 11.10
BT Song 1081 It is a Sickness
1
How to speak about
My inner grudges
What to say
Which one is it?
As it becomes a burden
Which I cannot understand
How to speak about it
And to whom shall I share?
2
There is none
Other than you to listen
Even if others listen
They cannot understand it
I don’t have the language
To share about it
Therefore there is
None to understand it
3
There is nothing to say
Anything new
Though I have lamented about it many times
You were not listening to me
Though I know the
Reason for it
There is no change
Within me
4
Telling many complaints
About shortcomings which are not there
Carrying unnecessary burdens
In vain
When I come and
Lament to you
Where is the means for you
To unload that burden?
5
I should change this heart
Which laments unnecessarily
I should realize that
It is not good for me
First I should understand that
This is a sickness
You should give medicine
To this sickness
Mathigiri, 6-04-2019, 11.10
BT Song 1082
For the past week, I haven’t been able to sleep properly. Almost every night, I wake up around 2:00 AM, even though I go to bed around 11:50 PM. There’s also no proper rest during the day. So I become very physically tired, and my mind refuses to concentrate on anything. Last night, after reading Muktiveda, unable to read my books, I sat quietly without even meditating. After a few minutes, as inspiration came, I wrote this song.
BT Song 1082 Inner Communication
1
Though my body tires,
And my mind grows weak,
My spirit finds strength
In the bond we seek.
2
Though the world wears me down
With its endless strife,
With your help, my Lord,
I can conquer life.
3
No matter the weakness
That enters my days,
With the strength you give,
I’ll find my ways.
4
Despite my flaws,
And all my wrongs,
Your completeness, Lord,
Makes me strong.
5
However life unfolds,
Day by day,
In every moment,
I’ll see your grace, I pray.
6
You who reign over me,
Guide my steps true,
Oh my Lord, forever,
I’ll follow you.
7
In this life you gave,
So full of beauty,
With devotion deep,
I’ll keep your feet close to me.
8
Praising you, calling,
Oh Father, Oh Mother dear,
Singing songs of joy,
With you ever near.
9
Thankful for the life
You’ve given me,
In thought and heart,
In fellowship with thee.
10
Blessed to live,
Forever in your light,
I’ll celebrate you,
Every day and night.
Mathigiri, 8-4-2019, 10.30 p.m.
BT Song 1082 Inner Communication
1
Though I become tired
Both in body and mind
My spirit will have
Communication with you
2
Though I become tired
By struggling with the world
I can overcome it
With your help
3
Whatever kind of weakness
Might come in my life
I should live with the
Strength given by you
4
Though I have
Many shortcomings
I should be emancipated
By your completeness
5
However everyday
Life moves
I should see your grace
In it
6
You who over lorded me
Lead me in it
Oh my Lord, I should
Follow you
7
In this beautiful life
Which you bestowed
Filled with bhakti
Taking your feet on my head
8
Praising you, calling
Oh my Father, Oh my Mother
Singing songs
Overcome by joy
9
Thanking for the life
Which you gave to me
Both in thought and heart
Having fellowship with you
10
Blessing you to live
Forever and ever
I should celebrate
You every day
Mathigiri, 8-4-2019, 10.30 p.m.
BT Song 1083
For me and my mother, life follows a routine. There is no change except for advancing age and the problems related to old age. Interestingly, what she faces in her advanced age, I am facing now in mine. But both of us are lucky to have a better life compared to many other elderly people. We eat the same food, read books, do cross-stitch work—she watches serials, and I watch the news. And the grace of God remains unchanging. As I contemplated this, I told the Lord that His unchanging grace is sufficient, whatever changes may come in life.
BT Song 1083 Unchanging Grace
1
There is no change
In this life I lead,
And there is no need
For changes indeed.
2
It is enough
For life to flow this way,
For this, my Lord,
I need your grace each day.
3
Many changes
In this world appear,
As many needs
In life draw near.
4
Though we’ve adjusted
And changed our course,
In the end,
They bring no real force.
5
We alter our food,
From fancy to plain,
In the end, simple meals
Ease our hunger’s pain.
6
Though news swirls around,
In endless flight,
Proper thinking
Is wisdom’s light.
7
Similarly, what
The soul seeks out,
Oh my Lord,
Is your grace, no doubt.
8
When I receive
Only that, my Lord,
I find no change,
In your steadfast word.
9
Though many changes
Sweep through this world’s face,
I hold onto
Your unchanging grace.
10
Though life may shift
In countless ways,
I’ll live in you,
Unchanged, all my days.
Mathigiri, 10-04-2019, 10.55 p.m.
BT Song 1083 Unchanging Grace
1
There is no change
In this life
There is no need
For any change in life
2
It is enough
If the life goes like this
For this
I need your grace
3
Several changes
Have come in this world
As many needs
Came in life
4
Though we also
Changed accordingly
There is no use
In them
5
Though we might bring
Many changes in food
Finally, simple food
Is enough for hunger
6
Though many news
Are going around
Proper thinking is
The requirement of buddhi
7
Similarly what
The atman searches for
Oh my Lord
Is only your grace
8
When I
Receive only that
Oh my Lord
I find no change in it
9
How many changes
Might come in this world
Receiving your
Unchanging grace
10
Though many
Changes might come in my life
I should live in you
Without any change
Mathigiri, 10-04-2019, 10.55 p.m.
BT Song 1084
After reading my regular portions from Muktiveda, when I closed it, I said to the Lord the first line of this song in Tamil. I didn’t pray but just spoke those words to Him. This kind of small conversation I often have with Him. Then continuing, I said, “Next, I know only emptiness.” As inspiration came, I wrote this song, seeing these as simple means to receive the grace of God.
BT Song 1084 The Way to Receive Grace
1
What seems impossible
Becomes possible for me,
In my emptiness,
Your grace I see.
2
For I know only
Your boundless grace,
And I’ve found the path
To seek your embrace.
3
I come to your feet
With humility deep,
Taking refuge,
In your love I keep.
4
I live by doing
All that you ask,
In every task,
Your grace is my task.
5
Understanding now
My own emptiness,
I see my need,
For your endlessness.
6
With humility profound,
In my heart’s embrace,
I receive your grace,
And find my place.
7
To come empty before you,
Is a gift I cherish true,
Living with innocence,
Brings me closer to you.
8
For your grace to fill me whole,
Emptiness within my soul,
In innocence I find,
Your grace so kind.
9
No better, simpler way,
To receive your grace each day,
Than to humbly live,
In your love I give.
10
Realizing this truth,
Living in faith’s proof,
I receive your grace,
At your feet, my place.
Mathigiri, 13-4-2019, 10.30 p.m.
BT Song 1084 The Way to Receive Grace
1
Impossible is
Only possible for me
I know only
Emptiness in me
2
But I know
Only your grace
I know the way
To receive it
3
Coming to your feet
With much humility and worshiping you
Taking refuge
At your feet
4
Living by
Doing all the errands you give
I will receive grace
Thinking only of you
5
Realizing both
Impossibility and emptiness
Then understanding my
Condition well
6
Having much
Humility in my heart
I will receive grace
By giving me
7
It is good to come
Empty before you
It is better to live
With much innocence
8
For your grace to fill full measure
Emptiness is essential within me
For that I should
Be very innocent
9
There is no
Better and simpler way
Than this to
Receive the unparalleled grace
10
Realizing this
And living accordingly
I will receive grace
By worshiping your feet
Mathigiri, 13-4-2019, 10.30 p.m.
BT Song 1085
This evening, during my walk, I called one Youth in our neighborhood and asked him to help a boy in our neighborhood who will complete his studies this month. I asked the Youth to give him his extra two-wheeler and also teach him driving a car. I also requested him to assist the boy in finding a job in his company. After explaining all this, I told him in Tamil that we should always extend a helping hand to others when such opportunities arise in our lives. We must seek out and help others. If it’s not possible, whenever God sends an opportunity our way, we should never miss it. Later that night, as I reflected on my conversation with him, I told the Lord the first line of this song in Tamil. Indeed, He stretched out His hand to uplift me when I was at the lowest point in my life. It was like rescuing someone from a deep pit with sinking mud. As I continued to contemplate the ways the Lord had come to rescue me, recalling several such incidents in my life, I wrote this song as my prayer for today.
BT Song 1085 You Uplifted Me
1
You reached out your hand,
Lifting me up high,
Guiding me along,
On your path, I rely.
With your watchful gaze,
You’ve shielded me from harm,
You remain my steadfast guide,
Through life’s every storm.
2
Once crippled, I stumbled,
Lost and alone I roamed,
Searching for a way,
Tired, no path I owned.
No cure in sight,
No strength left to walk,
No guide to lead me,
Lost in life’s dark talk.
3
Thinking none could save me,
Unaware of my need,
Living as I pleased,
Wandering in my heed.
Following my mind’s call,
Wandering without aim,
Lost in life’s thrall,
Questioning my very claim.
4
Like a lifeless wanderer,
Burdened by my frame,
Without purpose,
Life seemed so tame.
Why was I born,
In this futile strife?
When would I depart,
From this fleeting life?
5
You sought after me,
Held my hand so tight,
Said, “Follow me,”
In your guiding light.
Unable to let go,
Weakness pulled me down,
You lifted me up,
With love that knows no frown.
6
Then I saw the truth,
Hidden from my view,
Found my purpose,
In serving you anew.
Now I am your servant,
Devoted every day,
Living for your will,
In every possible way.
Mathigiri, 13-4-2019, 11.45 p.m.
BT Song 1085 You Uplifted Me
1
By stretching your hand
You uplifted me
By holding my hand
You led me on your path
Keeping your eyes on me
You protected me so far
You remain a companion
For me all through my life
2
I remained crippled
I walked stumbling
I roamed searching for the way
I became tired without any companion
Without any means to be cured
Without strength to walk
Without anyone to guide me
I got lost in life
3
Thinking that
There is none to redeem me
Without any need
To be redeemed
I lived
As per my wish
I wandered
As my buddhi guided me
4
Like a dead man walking
Body becoming a burden
Without having
Any aim in life
I lived
With this thought:
Why was I born unnecessarily?
When will I go from here?
5
Coming seeking after me
You held my hand
Firmly by saying
‘Follow me’
Unable to forsake your hands
Unable to follow you
When I fell down with weakness
You carried me on your shoulders
6
Then I understood the
Truth which remained hidden
Therefore I attained
The purpose of my birth
Then I became
Your slave
Therefore I live
For you each day
Mathigiri, 13-4-2019, 11.45 p.m.
The follBT Song 1081 புலம்பல்
1
என் மனக் குமுறலை
எவ்விதம் சொல்ல?
என் மனக் குமுறலை
எதுவெனச் சொல்ல?
எனக்கே புரியாத
பாரமாய் அதுமாற
எவரிடம் சென்று
எப்படிச் சொல்ல?
2
கேட்க நீயன்றி
வேறாரும் இல்லை
கேட்டாலும் பிறருக்கு
புரிய வழியில்லை
சொல்ல என்னிடம்
மொழியும் இல்லை
ஆகவே புரிய
வேறாரும் இல்லை
3
புதிதாகச் சொல்ல
ஏதுமே இல்லை
பலமுறை புலம்பியும்
நீ கேட்க வில்லை
ஏனென எனக்கு
நன்றாகத் தெரிந்தும்
என்னிடம் எவ்வித
மாற்றமும் இல்லை
4
இல்லாத குறைகளை
வீணாகக் கூறி
வேண்டாத பாரத்தை
வீணாகச் சுமந்து
உன்னிடம் வந்து
புலம்பும் போது
இறக்க உனக்கும்
வழியேதும் இல்லை
5
புலம்பும் மனதை
மாற்ற வேண்டும்
புலம்புதல் சரியில்லை
என்பதை உணரணும்
நோயிது என்பதை
முதலிலே அறியணும்
நோய்க்கு மருந்து
நீயுமே அருளணும்
மத்திகிரி, 6-04-2019, இரவு, 11.10
BT Song 1082 உள்ளான உறவு
1
உடலாலும் மனதாலும்
சோர்ந்து போனாலும்
உள்ளாக என்னாவி
உன்னோடு உரையாடும்
2
உலகோடு போராடி
நானோய்ந்து போனாலும்
உன்னாலே நானதை
வென்றிடக் கூடும்
3
எத்தகைய பலவீனம்
என்வாழ்வில் வந்தாலும்
நீ தரும் பெலத்தாலே
நான் வாழவேண்டும்
4
எவ்வளவு குறைகள்
என்னிடம் இருந்தாலும்
நீ தரும் நிறைவாலே
நான் உய்ய வேண்டும்
5
அனுதின வாழ்வும்
எவ்விதம் நகர்ந்தாலும்
அதனுள்ளே நானுன்
அருள்காண வேண்டும்
6
ஆட்கொண்ட நீயும்
அதனுள் வழிகாட்ட
ஐயனே உன்னை நான்
பின்தொடர வேண்டும்
7
நித்தமும் நீ தரும்
உத்தம வாழ்வில்
பக்தியில் நிறைந்து
பதமலர்ச் சூடி
8
அப்பனே அம்மையே
என்று போற்றி
ஆனந்தம் மேலிட
பாடலால் பாடி
9
நீ தந்த வாழ்வுக்கு
நன்றியும் சொல்லி
நினைவாலும் மனதாலும்
உன்னோடு உறவாடி
10
நீடூழி வாழ்க என
என்று வாழ்த்தி
நாள்தோறும் நானுன்னைக்
கொண்டாட வேண்டும்
மத்திகிரி, 8-4-2019, இரவு, 10.30
BT Song 1083 மாறாத அருள்
1
மாற்றம் ஏதும்
வாழ்க்கையில் இல்லை
மாற்றம் ஏதும்
தேவையும் இல்லை
2
இதுபோல் வாழ்வு
ஓடினால் போதும்
அதற்கு உனது
அருளுமே வேண்டும்
3
பலவித மாற்றம்
வந்தது உலகில்
தேவைகள் பலவும்
வந்த தினாலே
4
அதற்கு ஏற்ப
மாறிய போதும்
அதிலே எவ்வித
பயனும் காணோம்
5
என்னதான் மாற்றம்
செய்த போதும்
இறுதியில் பசிக்கு
உணவுவே போதும்
6
ஆயிரம் செய்திகள்
வலம்வந்த போதும்
அறிவுக்கு தேவை
சிந்தனை மட்டும்
7
அதுபோல் ஆன்மா
தேடுவதெல்லாம்
ஐயனே உனது
அருளை மட்டும்
8
அதையே நானும்
பெற்றிடும் போது
ஐயனே அதிலொரு
மாற்றமும் காணோம்
9
மாற்றம் எத்தனை
உலகில் வந்தும்
மாறா உனது
அருளைப் பெற்று
10
எவ்வித மாற்றம்
வந்த போதும்
மாற்றம் இன்றி
உன்னிலே வாழணும்
மத்திக்கிரி, 10-04-2019, இரவு, 10.55
BT Song 1084 அருள் பெறும் வழி
1
இயலாமை ஒன்றே
எனக்கு இயலும்
இல்லாமை ஒன்றே
எனக்குத் தெரியும்
2
ஆயினும் உன்னருள்
அதுமட்டும் புரியும்
அதையே பெறுகின்ற
வழியும் தெரியும்
3
தாழ்ந்து வந்துன்
தாளினைப் பணிந்து
தஞ்சமென உன்
அடியினில் கிடந்து
4
நீ தரும் ஏவலை
செய்து வாழ்ந்து
நினருள் பெறுவேன்
உன்னையே நினைந்து
5
இயலாமை இல்லாமை
இரண்டையும் உணர்ந்து
அதன்பின் என்னிலை
நன்கு புரிந்து
6
மனத்துள் தாழ்மை
மிகவுமே நிறைந்து
அருளைப் பெறுவேன்
என்னையே தந்து
7
வெறுமையாய் உன்முன்
வருவது நல்லது
வெகுளியாய் வாழ்வது
அதனினும் சிறந்தது
8
உன்னருள் நிறைய
வெறுமை அவசியம்
அதற்கென நானும்
வெகுளியாய் இருக்கணும்
9
ஈடில்லா அருளை
எளிதாகப் பெற்றிட
இதனினும் எளிய
வழியுமே இல்லை
10
இதனை உணர்ந்து
அதன்படி வாழ்ந்து
அருளைப் பெறுவேன்
தாளினைப் பணிந்து
மத்திகிரி, 13-4-2019, இரவு, 10.30
BT Song 1085 தூக்கி விட்டாய்
1
கைநீட்டி என்னை
தூக்கி நிறுத்தினாய்
கரம்பற்றி என்னை
வழியும் நடத்தினாய்
என்மீது கண்வைத்து
காத்துக் கொண்டாய்
காலமெல்லாம் என்
துணையாகி நின்றாய்
2
முடமாகிக் கிடந்தேன்
தடுமாறி நடந்தேன்
வழிதேடி அலைந்தேன்
துணையின்றி சோர்ந்தேன்
பிணிநீங்க வழியின்றி
நடமாட தெம்பின்றி
வழிகாட்டும் துணையின்றி
தொலைந்துமே போனேன்
3
மீட்க எவருமே
இல்லையென்றெண்ணி
மீண்டிடத் தேவை
ஏதுமே இன்றி
மனம்போன போக்கில்
வாழ்ந்து இருந்தேன்
மதிசொன்ன வழியில்
அலைந்து திரிந்தேன்
4
நடமாடும் பிணமாய்
உடலொரு பாரமாய்
எவ்வித நோக்கமும்
வாழ்க்கையில் இன்றி
ஏனிங்கு பிறந்தோம்
என்றினிப் போவோம்
என்கின்ற எண்ணம்
கொண்டு வாழ்ந்தேன்
5
எனைத் தேடி வந்து
பின்பற்று என்று
உறுதியாய் என்கரம்
பற்றிக் கொண்டாய்
விடுபட முடியாது
பின்பற்ற இயலாது
துவண்டு வீழ்கையில்
தூக்கியே கொண்டாய்
6
அதன்பின் அறிந்தேன்
அறியாத உண்மை
அதனால் அடைந்தேன்
பிறந்ததின் பயனை
அதன்பின் ஆனேன்
அடிமை உனக்கு
அதனால் வாழ்கிறேன்
அனுதினம் உனக்கு
மத்திகிரி, 13-4-2019, இரவு, 11.45
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