BT Song 1511
Transcending all the senses and tuning inward, we can hear the gentle voice of Him, who comes into our lives in the way we desire. For me, He comes as a guru. To achieve this, we need to delve deep within ourselves and even transcend our own limitations to be with Him.
BT Song 1511 I Heard Your Voice
Simple English
Crossing all boundaries,
Crossing even myself,
How did you
Come into me? 1
Without sensing you
Within me,
I searched everywhere
Wandering day by day. 2
To know you, who were hidden,
I sought the help of
Secrets and mysteries,
I also tried. 3
Along with that,
I also listened to
The teachings of wise and
Elderly scholars. 4
Even this was not enough,
Thinking it would never be,
I ran to temples,
Searching in many ways. 5
Even if it was fasting or rituals,
Whatever was said,
I did it willingly
With devotion. 6
Yet, none of these
Methods or reasons
Could reach you
When I was bewildered. 7
A subtle sound
Resonated from within,
Calling me
In silence. 8
Not knowing whose voice it was,
I stopped my senses and mind
When I realized
It was calling me. 9
Realizing it was you calling,
In my soul,
I stood still
Like a statue. 10
Sensory perceptions
Hide within the mind,
Both mind and faith
Approach the soul. 11
There, I heard
Your voice
And then I stopped
My search. 12
Within me,
Searching for you,
Crossing all boundaries,
I ran and found you. 13
After realizing,
The boundaries vanished,
I reached you,
Surpassing even myself. 14
Thiruppoonduruthi, 19-8-23, Morning, 9.30
BT Song 1511 I Heard Thy Voice
Classical English
Transcending all limits,
And surpassing even my own self,
How didst thou
Come within me? 1
Without perceiving thee
Within myself,
I searched in various places
Wandering daily. 2
To understand thee, who was concealed,
I sought the aid of
Mysteries and their secrets,
And endeavored likewise. 3
Moreover,
I heeded the wise and
Esteemed scholars’
Teachings and precepts. 4
Yet this was insufficient,
Thinking it would forever be so,
I traversed to temples,
In various searches. 5
Be it fasting or rituals,
Whatever was prescribed,
I performed it with devotion
And earnestness. 6
Nevertheless, none of these
Methods or reasons
Could lead me to thee
In my state of confusion. 7
A faint sound
Echoed from within,
Calling me
In silence. 8
Uncertain of the source of this call,
I ceased my senses and intellect
Upon realizing
It was thee who called. 9
Recognizing that it was thou
Calling from my soul,
I remained motionless
As a statue. 10
Senses and perceptions
Retreat within the mind,
Both mind and faith
Approach the soul. 11
Therein, I discerned
Thy voice,
And thereafter ceased
My quest. 12
Searching for thee within myself,
Transcending all boundaries,
I found thee
By surpassing even my own self. 13
Upon realization,
The boundaries vanished,
I reached thee,
Surpassing my own limitations. 14
Thiruppoonduruthi, 19-8-23, Morning, 9:30
BT Song 1512
Upon reading the following words by Fr. Bede Griffiths, I paused and reflected on my own situation, which is quite similar to what he described. This inspired me to write this song:
“I am certainly going through very deep psychological experiences and I am often bewildered by them, but one cannot put them on paper.”—11-2-1962. Adrian B. Rance: Falling in Love with India: From the Letters of Bede Griffiths, Thannipalli, Saccidananda Ashram, year not mentioned, p. 386
BT Song 1512 Why Did You Change?
Simple English
Why did you come to me
Saying one thing,
And now behave
In this manner? 1
Saying one thing
And doing another—
Is this what
Makes you beautiful? 2
What you said
I can recount,
But now, I only
Understand what you do. 3
If you say
I am the reason for this,
How will I
Also accept it? 4
Why do you
Wear a guise
Fit for others
For my sake? 5
If you must
Change often
And always
Don a different mask, 6
Each moment
The mind changes,
And always,
The faith remains unstable. 7
Always shifting
And frequently changing
The state of things
Leaves me confused. 8
If you too
Change according to this,
What will happen
To my situation? 9
If you, who are unchanging,
Change and come,
What will be
The use of changing for me? 10
Whatever happens,
Let it happen,
Thinking so,
I have stood still. 11
Realizing that you
Change for me
And also change
Me in the process, 12
Therefore, from now on,
Whatever you do,
I will not
Question why. 13
One day,
I trusted that
You would do
What you said. 14
Thiruppoonduruthi, 19-8-23, Night, 11:00
BT Song 1512 Why Hast Thou Changed?
Classical English
Why didst thou come to me
Proclaiming one thing,
And now dost thou
Act in this manner? 1
To speak one thing
And to perform another—
Is this what
Endows thee with grace? 2
What thou didst say
I can recount,
But now, I perceive
Only what thou dost do. 3
If I were to declare
The cause of this,
How shall I
Also accept it? 4
Why dost thou
Assume a guise
Fit for others
For my sake? 5
If thou must
Change frequently
And perpetually
Wear a different mask, 6
Each moment
The mind doth alter,
And evermore,
Faith remains unstable. 7
Ever shifting
And frequently changing,
The state of affairs
Leaves me in perplexity. 8
Shouldst thou also
Change accordingly,
What will become
Of my own condition? 9
If thou, who art unchanging,
Shouldst come altered,
What shall be
The benefit of my own change? 10
Let whatever will occur,
Occur as it may,
Thinking thus,
I have remained steadfast. 11
Understanding that thou
Alterest for me
And in turn,
Change me as well, 12
Henceforth, whatever thou
Dost undertake,
I shall not
Ask why. 13
Believing that one day
Thou wouldst fulfill
What thou hadst spoken,
I entrusted myself to thee. 14
Thiruppoonduruthi, 19-8-23, Night, 11:00
BT Song 1513
…Now my mind seems to be expanding and I feel that the repression is being dispelled. I find that I must do without any images – the image of Christ is a great obstacle. The only way I can find out is to consider that on the cross Christ died to this world and disappeared. After the resurrection, he no longer belongs to this world. We have to pass out with him to the Father, to lose ourselves completely. I can only think of God as Nothing and myself as nothing. Do you remember that Augustine Baker described the mystical union as the union ‘of the nothing with the nothing’? This seems to be exactly true. (p. 418) -7-11-1966. Adrian B. Rance: Falling in Love with India: From the Letters of Bede Griffiths, Thannipalli, Saccidananda Ashram, year not mentioned. Pp. 417-18
This is the closing theological remark of Fr. Griffith in his long correspondence with Mrs. Micheline Rance. After reading this, I wrote at the end of these words, ‘Yes. I agree with this.’
This may come as a surprise to many with the question, ‘Then do you not believe in God?’
The question about God always remains a mystery for me, even before I became a bhakta of the Lord. Coming from the advaitic tradition, my understanding of God somehow remained close to that tradition, though in my normal life I try to live as a normal bhakta of gods. However, deep within me, when I began to ask questions about my imperfection, I realized that I cannot get the answer by starting with God but with myself: ‘Why do I need a God; if at all there is any G O D (English word)?’
Then I realized that what I needed was a guru, and I happily found him in Mukti Nath. He became everything in my life—even as a God, though I prefer Him to remain a guru to me all the time. All the concepts of God, something or someone beyond us, never appealed to me. Of course, I strongly believe in a supernatural energy that sustains this universe. We can call it COSMIC ENERGY. But as human beings, we cannot relate to that Cosmic Energy as mere Shakti outside us or within us, but only as a Person. Then the concept of a Personal God could have developed.
But when I found my guru, I was happy to relate to Him not as a God either beyond me or within me, but living along with me. Not leading me from behind or showing the way by going in front or standing in one place like a signpost, showing the way for me to walk, but coming along with me in every form according to my need: as a Mother, Father, brother, friend, companion, and even as a servant.
So though I won’t use the exact words of Fr. Griffith, I am still happy with my guru who helped me to experience life while living in this mortal body without worrying much about the life beyond. As I often insist, for me, mukti is not going to some heaven after death but experiencing it while living in this very body on this earth. As I meditated on this line, I wrote this song expressing my thoughts in a limited way, paving the way for many questions that need to be addressed in a separate article.
After this, when I further meditated on this, I wrote the following words:
If there is any God; let Him be like my guru
If I need any God; let Him decide that too
At present my guru is enough for me
As He walks along with me in my journey.
BT Song 1513 Why Search?
Simple English
You appeared and vanished,
Went far away,
I too
Thought so. 1
What need do you have
To appear?
If it were to be
Within before. 2
No chance of going far,
When boundaries
Are not present for you. 3
How can something
That does not vanish
Appear?
Why search for what does not fade? 4
Nevertheless, the mysteries
Speak thus,
Therefore, people
Also believe in it. 5
Transcending mysteries,
Transcending religions,
Transcending the mind,
I went beyond. 6
In you, I found
Myself,
In myself, I found
You, without separation. 7
Without me, you have
No place,
Without you, I have
No refuge. 8
Nevertheless,
There is no chance
To speak of it,
Not even a language for it. 9
In the life of the body,
I knew you,
In the life of the soul,
I realized that too. 10
The body will end,
The soul will vanish,
What remains
After that, who knows? 11
In the known life,
Blending with you,
In continuous life,
I will think of you with devotion. 12
Appearance, disappearance,
Near and far,
Such distinctions,
I will live today. 13
Thiruppoonduruthi, 20-8-23, Evening, 3:50
BT Song 1513 Why Must One Search?
Classical English
Thou didst appear and then
Vanish, journeying afar;
Thus did I also
Reflect in my thoughts. 1
What need have thee
To manifest?
If it were to be
Existing within beforehand. 2
There is no chance of going
Far away,
When boundaries
Are absent for thee. 3
How can that which
Is imperishable
Ever appear?
Why seek what cannot be lost? 4
Yet, the mysteries
Speak thus,
And so, humanity
Also places its faith therein. 5
Transcending mysteries,
Transcending religions,
Transcending the mind,
I journeyed beyond. 6
Within thee, I discovered
My own self;
Within myself, I found
Thou, in a state of unity. 7
Without me, thou hast
No abode;
Without thee, I have
No refuge. 8
Nevertheless,
There is no opportunity
To speak of it;
No language for its expression. 9
In the life of the body,
I came to know thee;
In the life of the soul,
I apprehended that as well. 10
The body will come to an end,
The soul will fade away;
What remains thereafter,
Who can know? 11
In the realm of the known,
Blending with thee,
In the course of existence,
I shall remember thee with devotion. 12
Appearance and disappearance,
Near and far,
Such distinctions,
I shall live today. 13
Thiruppoonduruthi, 20-8-23, Evening, 3:50
BT Song 1514
After finishing all my reading and other activities, I sat quietly, unsure of what to do or think. I began to speak to the Lord, asking for one thing: that He fulfill the needs of my heart and mind, which I struggle to satisfy. As I continued this conversation with Him, I wrote this song as my prayer.
BT Song 1514 It Is Good to Give
Simple English
I came seeking,
I asked willingly,
For something else
I did not desire. 1
There are many needs,
Plenty of them,
I also have needs
To ask for. 2
For each one,
I have expressed,
Even if it is given, a small part
Cannot be fulfilled. 3
Physical needs
Are somewhat limited,
I can seek and
Fulfill them myself. 4
However, when it comes to mental needs,
The quantity is not sufficient,
And this is indeed true. 5
Unlike physical needs,
Mental needs are boundless;
To fulfill them,
No one else can. 6
I do not understand
The reason for this;
Do you understand
The cause of the mind’s craving? 7
Do not tell me
About it,
For I do not
Comprehend it. 8
Yet, because my mind
Is with me,
It is not easy to
Escape it. 9
Everything cannot be
Fulfilled for this,
Hence, the struggle
Continues with it. 10
Clinging to duality,
Suffering like an ant,
I cannot find liberation
From you. 11
If something is done,
And taken further,
I too desire liberation
From you. 12
If you fill
My heart completely,
I will find
Refuge only in you. 13
Without any other needs,
There will be no more
Desires or requirements
In the future. 14
This is what I sought
And have come now;
I do not wish
To ask for anything else. 15
It is good to give;
Please help me,
If you refuse,
Where else can I go? 16
Thiruppoonduruthi, 20-8-23, Night, 11:15 pm
BT Song 1514 It Is Good to Give
Classical English
I have come seeking,
And asked with earnest desire,
For something other
I did not require. 1
There are numerous needs,
Abundant indeed,
And I too possess
Needs to request. 2
For each and every one,
I have expressed,
Even if granted, a small portion
Cannot be fulfilled. 3
The needs of the body
Are somewhat limited;
I can seek and
Fulfill them myself. 4
However, when it comes to the needs of the mind,
The quantity is never sufficient;
This too is a truth
That must be acknowledged. 5
Unlike bodily needs,
The needs of the mind are boundless;
To satisfy them,
None else can do so. 6
I cannot comprehend
The reason for this;
Do you understand
The cause of the mind’s yearning? 7
Do not speak to me
Of this matter,
For I cannot
Grasp its meaning. 8
Nevertheless, as my mind
Is within me,
It is not so easy
To escape from it. 9
It is not possible
To fulfill everything
For this reason;
Thus, the struggle continues. 10
Clinging to duality,
Suffering like an ant,
I cannot find liberation
Through thee alone. 11
If something is done,
And elevated,
I too seek liberation
From thee. 12
If thou fillest
My heart completely,
I shall find
Refuge solely in thee. 13
Without any other needs,
No further desires
Shall remain
In the future. 14
This is what I sought
And have come now;
I wish not
To ask for anything else. 15
It is good to give;
Kindly assist me,
If thou refusest,
Where shall I go? 16
Thiruppoonduruthi, 20-8-23, Night, 11:15 pm
BT Song 1515
…We did not belong anywhere. That was part of our misery, whether we liked it or not, we were uprooted like the rest of the world, and wherever we went we could not escape ourselves.—Bede Griffiths, The Golden String, Thannirpalli, Saccidananda Ashram, (1976)
When I first read this, I wrote, “True,” and wrote this song echoing the same sentiment. But I was not happy with what I wrote. So when I went for my evening walk, as I continued to meditate on this subject, I realized that I live by my principle: One day at a time. So wherever I go, though initially I struggle a bit, I easily integrate into the environment and with people without much hesitation. So I never felt that I never belonged anywhere. Of course, several times the sense came that I am not happy with life on this earth. At the same time, I accept it as a gift and try my best to enjoy each moment of life. Then the last two stanzas came as inspiration, and when I returned to my room, I wrote them with much satisfaction, echoing the lines of an ancient Tamil Sangam poem: Puranaanuru (192) Yadum Vure; yaavarum kelir (Every city is your city. Everyone is your kin.).
I heard that even this line was engraved in front of the United Nations building. But I don’t agree with the present interpretation on these lines in Sangam Tamil poem. See: https://dayanandbharati.in/universalhood-and-tamilians/
BT Song 1515 Everyone is mine
Simple English Translation:
Wherever I go
This is my place
The thought that
Rises within me 1
Whether the place
Is a home or a residence
The thought of
Not being mine comes 2
Searching for something
I wander every day
Not knowing what it is
Or how to explain it 3
Like a child lost
In a crowd
I search
Standing alone 4
Have I gone missing
Or has someone else lost me?
I don’t understand
When I am confused 5
Some people came
And said I was theirs
But after getting close
They said I was not theirs 6
Did someone
Intentionally make me lost
Leaving me in the crowd
And then going away? 7
In the crowd
My hand slipped away
Did I get separated
And come away alone? 8
Even that
I don’t understand
As a child
In a state of confusion 9
Until the time
When others join me
I too will remain
Alone till then 10
Even so, I don’t know
What it is
How to understand
Or even recognize it 11
Unable to search
Without anyone’s help
I lost myself
From myself 12
After I lost myself
All life
I came to understand
Even then 13
Wherever and however
I live with others
Every place
I felt it was mine 14
21-8-23, Thiruppoonduruthi, 5:30 PM
BT Song 1515 All are mine
Classical English
Wherever I may journey
This place is indeed my abode
The very thought of it
Rises within my soul 1
Whether it be a dwelling
Or merely a residence
The notion that
It is not mine returns 2
In my ceaseless quest
I wander every day
Uncertain of what it is
Or how to articulate it 3
Like a child lost
In a multitude
I search
Standing in solitude 4
Have I been lost
Or have others misplaced me?
Such is the confusion
When I am in distress 5
Some came to me
Claiming me as their own
But after drawing near
They declared I was not theirs 6
Did someone, indeed
Deliberately make me lost
By abandoning me in the throng
And departing thereafter? 7
In the throng
My hand itself slipped away
Did I separate
And come away alone? 8
Even this
Remains beyond comprehension
As a child
In a state of confusion 9
Until the time
When others join me
I shall remain
Alone until then 10
Even so, I am unsure
Of what it is
How to discern it
Or comprehend its nature 11
Unable to seek
Without the aid of others
I lost myself
From my own self 12
After losing myself
I perceived all life
Even in its essence
Though I understood it not 13
Wherever and however
I may dwell with others
Every place
Felt as my own 14
21-8-23, Thiruppoonduruthi, 5:30 PM
BT Song 1515 யாவரும் கேளிர்
எங்கு சென்றாலும்
இதுவே என தில்லை
என்கிற எண்ணமே
என்னிலே ஓங்குது 1
இடம் ஆனாலும்
உற வானாலும்
எனதில்லை என்ற
எண்ணமே வருகுது 2
எதையோத் தேடி
அலைகிறேன் நாளும்
என்ன அதுவென்று
சொல்லவும் தெரியாமல் 3
கும்பலில் தொலைந்த
குழந்தையைப் போல
தேடுகிறேன் நான்
தனிமையில் நின்று 4
நான் தொலைந்தேனா
பிறர் தொலைத்தாரா
என்பது புரியாது
திகைத்த போது 5
சிலர்வந்து என்னை
தனதென்று சொன்னார்
அருகினில் சென்றபின்
எனதில்லை என்றார் 6
தொலைக்க வேண்டியே
யாரோ ஒருவர்
கும்பலில் விட்டு
சென்று விட்டாரா 7
கூட்ட நெரிசலில்
கையுமே நழுவ
நானே பிரிந்து
வந்து விட்டேனா 8
அதுவும் கூட
புரியவே இல்லை
அறியாக் குழந்தையாய்
இருபதினாலே 9
இனத்தோடு சேரும்
நால்வரும் வரையில்
என்வரை நானும்
தனித்தே இருப்பேன் 10
எனினும் எதுவென
எனக்கும் தெரியாது
எவ்விதம் அறிவது
என்பதும் புரியாது 11
தேடவும் இயலாமல்
பிறர்நாடி வாராமல்
என்னையும் தொலைத்தேன்
என்னிடமிருந்து 12
என்னை நானே
தொலைத்த பின்னாலே
எல்லா உயிரும்
என் இனம் அறிந்தேன் 13
எங்கு எப்படி
எவருடன் வாழினும்
எல்லா இடமும்
எனதென உணர்ந்தேன் 14
21-8-23, திருப்பூந்துருத்தி, 5.30, மாலை
1511 உன்குரல் கேட்டேன்
எல்லைகள் கடந்து
என்னையும் கடந்து
என்னுள் எப்படி
வந்தாய் நீயும்
உள்ளிருந்த உன்னை
உணராமல் நானும்
தேடினேன் எங்கெங்கோ
அலைந்தே நாளும்
மறைவாக இருந்த
உன்னை அறிய
மறைகளின் உதவியை
நாடினேன் நானும்
அத்துடன் ஆன்றோர்
சான்றோர் கூறும்
அறிவுரைகள நான்
கேட்டேன் மேலும்
இவையும் போதாது
என்றுமே எண்ணி
ஓடினேன் கோவில்கள்
தேடியே பலவிதம்
விரதம் சடங்கு
வேறெத்தைச் சொன்னாலும்
விரும்பியே செய்தேன்
பணிவோடு நானும்
ஆயினும் அவற்றின்
ஒன்றின் மூல ம்
அடையாது உன்னை
திகைத்த போது
மெல்லிய சப்தம்
உள்ளிருந்து ஒலித்து
மெளனமாய் என்னை
அழைத்த போது
யார்குரல் இதுவென
புரியாமல் நானும்
புலன்களை புத்தியை
நிறுத்திய போது
அழைப்பது நீயென
ஆன்மாவில் உணர்ந்து
அசையாமல் நின்றேன்
சிலையைப் போல
பொறிகள் புலன்கள்
மனதுள் ஒடுங்க
மனதும் மதியும்
ஆன்மாவை நெருங்க
அங்கே கேட்டேன்
உனது குரலை
அதன்பின் நிறுத்தினேன்
எனது தேடலை
என்னுள்ளே இருந்த
உன்னையும் தேடி
எல்லைகள் கடந்து
ஓடினேன் நானென
உணர்ந்த பின்னாலே
எல்லைகள் மறைய
உன்னையே அடைந்தேன்
என்னையும் கடந்து
திருப்பூந்துருத்தி, 19-8-23, காலை, 9.30
1512 ஏன் மாறினாய்
என்ன சொல்லி
என்னிடம் வந்தாய்
இப்போ நீயேன்
இப்படிச் செய்கிறாய்
சொல்வது ஒன்று
செய்வது ஒன்று
என்பது ஆகுமோ
உனக்கு அழகு
என்ன சொன்னாய்
என்பதைச் சொல்லேன்
இப்போ செய்வதை
மட்டுமே அறிவேன்
இதற்குக் காரணம்
நானெனச் சொன்னால்
எப்படி அதனை
நானும் ஏற்பேன்
ஆளுக்குத் தகுந்த
வேடத்தை நீயும்
எனக்காய் ஏனோ
போடு கிறாயோ
அப்படி ஆனால்
அடிக்கடி நீயும்
மாறி மாறியே
போடணும் வேடம்
நிமிடம் தோறும்
மாறிடும் மனதும்
அத்துடன் ஒருபோதும்
நிலையிலா மதியும்
ஒருமித்து சேர்ந்து
அடிக்கடி மாற்ற
என்னிலை எனக்கே
புரியாமல் இருக்கேன்
அதற்கு ஏற்ப
நீயும் மாறினால்
அடியேன் நிலைமை
என்னாகும் சொல்லு
மாறாத நீயும்
மாறியே வந்தால்
மாறிடும் எனக்குப்
போக்கிடம் ஏது
எதுவானாலும்
நடப்பது நடக்கட்டும்
என்றுமே எண்ணி
நானுமே நின்றேன்
எனக்காக மாறி
என்னையும் மாற்ற
முயற்சிநீ செய்வதை
உணர்ந்து கொண்டேன்
ஆகவே இனிநீ
என்ன செய்தாலும்
ஏனென கேள்வி
கேட்கவே மாட்டேன்
என்றோ ஒருநாள்
சொன்னதைச் செய்வாய்
என்று நம்பி
என்னையும் தந்தேன்
திருப்பூந்துருத்தி, 19-8-23, இரவு 11.00
1513 ஏன்தேட வேண்டும்
தோன்றியே மறைந்தாய்
தூரமே போனாய்
என்றுதான் நானும்
எண்ணியே இருந்தேன்
தோன்றிடத் தேவை
உனக்குமே ஏது
உள்ளாக முன்பே
இருந்திடும் போது
தூரமே போகும்
வாய்ப்புமே இல்லை
எல்லைகள் உனக்கு
இல்லாத போது
மறையாத ஒன்று
எப்படித் தோன்றும்
இழக்காத ஒன்றை
ஏன்தேட வேண்டும்
ஆயினும் மறைகள்
அதைத்தான் சொல்லின
ஆகவே மாந்தரும்
அதையே நம்பினர்
மறைகளைத் தாண்டி
மதங்களைத் தாண்டி
மனதையும் தாண்டி
நான்சென்ற போது
உன்னிலே என்னையும்
என்னிலே உன்னையும்
பிரியாத நிலையிலே
என்னிலே கண்டேன்
நானின்றி உனக்கு
இருப்பிடம் இல்லை
நீயின்றி எனக்கு
புகலிடம் இல்லை
ஆயினும் அதைக்கூற
வாய்ப்புமே இல்லை
அதற்கான மொழிகூட
தோன்றவே இல்லை
மேனியின் வாழ்க்கையில்
உன்னையும் அறிந்தேன்
மேதினி வாழ்விலே
அதனையும் உணர்ந்தேன்
மேனியும் முடிய
மேதினி மறையும்
அதன்பின் உள்ளது
யாருக்குத் தெரியும்
தெரிந்த வாழ்விலே
உன்னிலே கலந்து
தொடர்ந்து வாழ்க்கையில்
உன்னருள் நினைந்து
தோற்றம் மறைவு
துரம் அருகில்
போன்ற பேதங்கள்
இன்றியே வாழ்வேன்
திருபூந்துருத்தி, 20-8-23, மாலை, 3.50
1514 தருவது நல்லது
வேண்டியே வந்தேன்
விரும்பியே கேட்டேன்
வேறொன்றை நானும்
வேண்டாத வாறு
வேண்டிய தேவைகள்
ஏராளம் உண்டு
வேண்டிடத் தேவையும்
எனக்குமே உண்டு
ஒவோன்றாய் நானும்
எடுத்ததுமே சொல்ல
விடிந்தாலும் சிறுபங்கு
அதில் முடியாது
தேகத்தின் தேவைகள்
என்னவோ கொஞ்சம்தான்
நானாகத் தேடி
நிறைவேற்றிக் கொள்ளலாம்
ஆனால் மனத்தேவை
என்று வரும்போது
எண்ணிக்கை போதாது
என்பதும் உண்மைதான்
உடல்தேவை போல
மனத்தேவை இல்லை
அதனை நிறைவேற்ற
வேறாரும் இல்லை
எனக்கும் புரியாது
அதற்கான காரணம்
உனக்கு புரியுதா
மனம்கூறும் காரணம்
அதனை எனக்கு
நீசொல்ல வேண்டாம்
ஏனெனில் எனக்கு
அது விளங்காது
ஆயினும் என்மனம்
என்னிடம் இருப்பதால்
அத்தனை எளிதாக
தப்பிக்க இயலாது
அதற்காக அனைத்தையும்
நிறைவேற்ற முடியாது
ஆகவே அதனோடு
போராட்டம் தொடருது
இருதலைக் கொள்ளி
எறும்பாக தவிக்க
எனக்கு விடுதலை
உனைவிடால் கிடையாது
ஏதேனும் செய்து
அதைமேற் கொண்டு
நான்நாடும் விடுதலை
நீதர வேண்டும்
நெஞ்சம் முழுதும்
நீயே நிறைந்து
தஞ்சம் எனக்கு
நீமட்டும் தந்தால்
வேறெதும் வேண்டிடத்
தேவையே இன்றி
வேண்டிடும் தேவை
இனி இருக்காது
இதைத்தான் வேண்டி
இப்போது வந்தேன்
வேறேது ஒன்றும்
விரும்பி கேட்கேன்
தருவது நல்லது
தயவாய் உதவிடு
மறுத்தால் நான் இனி
வேறெங்கு போவது
திருப்பூந்துருத்தி, 20-8-23, இரவு,11.15 pm.
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