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BT Song 941
Man is a social being and needs other human beings not only for fellowship but even to survive as a human. No man is an island, and our very identity depends on our interaction with others. I strongly believe in this. At the same time, the desire to live a reclusive life with minimal contact with the outside world has been present in me since my teenage years. I can live, and have lived, for several months with minimal contact with the outside world. Modern electronic gadgets now provide contact with the outside world (and also disturb us). But even when these facilities were not available, I lived a reclusive life for several months. I know that this too is a gift from God, and many cannot live like this. Of course, when we (or I) have all that we need to live a comfortable life, I can talk about such a life very easily and even take it for granted. But this longing and the life I prefer never brings me any depression. On the contrary, I always enjoy it very much. However, to have such a life, we need some disciplines that we must cultivate regularly. In the end, I still cannot understand or communicate why this desire is there. The only response I can give is silence.
BT Song 941: Language of Silence
You beckoned me to dwell in silence’s embrace,
Granting solitude as my dwelling place.
With grace, you adorned this silent expanse,
Prompting praise through contemplative trance.
Your will, a mystery beyond the grasp,
Worldly minds falter, understanding laps.
Yet, at your feet, in humble surrender,
Your essence whispers, silent and tender.
Let tumult cease, ego’s fervor wane,
Even intellect bows, your grace to gain.
Until your voice breaks silence’s serene,
Peace reigns within, a tranquil scene.
In moments severed from the worldly tide,
Inward, with you, my senses coincide.
Through silence, my heart finds its refrain,
In your peace, I find my domain.
Yet, submerged in tranquil depths profound,
Mind and heart in stillness bound.
Emerging, speech falters, words evade,
Silence alone conveys the peace portrayed.
Mathigiri, 14-8-2018, 11:30 PM
BT Song 942
Reading the Word of God regularly, spending some time alone with Him, and singing His praises (which I do by writing poems) are a few practices in this life where one can experience the very presence of God. It is not the quantity of the time but the quality that brings such bliss.
942 – “Try to Think”
Oh my heart
Try to think
All the blessings
That the Lord has done for you
You praise
Him for some time
Then you will understand
The sweetness in it
Read his Veda
You will get
Guidance
To live a noble life
Worship him
Each day
You will receive
His abode at his feet
Tell his
Name each day
When see that
Your body and mind will melt
You call him
Each day
Then you will realize
His compassion
You sing him
With bhakti
Immediately you will
Receive mukti.
Mathigiri, 15-8-2018, 11:45 PM
BT Song 943
Another song of praising the Lord as my past, present, and future are in Him.
943 – “I Want to Praise You”
A kind of fullness in my heart
Is calling me to sing your praises
Seeing the greatness of your nobleness
It makes me cling to your feet
You are leading everyday life beautifully
You show your grace in it
Thinking the needs of both the body and mind
You provide everything not missing anyone
Though many troubles come in between
And my heart is stumbled in them
Knowing what is my requirement
You fulfill them in proper means
Though the everyday life goes in one way
And the next day worries come on their own
Though I was anxious about the future too
You show that all of them are in you
Like this, I clearly see that
The limits of all my life are within you
I long only to sing your praises
Only thinking about it
Mathigiri, 17-8-2018, 11:00 PM
BT Song 944
See article: Local versus Universal.
944 – “No Religion”
You came seeking me
And redeemed me knowing me
You became god
In my unclear mind
I never came with clear understanding
I never worshiped you after understanding
You became my guru whom I was seeking
Therefore I walked after you
As I came like a
Crawling baby
You brought me
Like a mother with care
As I came begging
Longing to learn
Becoming my teacher
You taught me with compassion
Becoming my guru
You brought me like a mother
Becoming my teacher
You taught me everything
You never had
Any expectation from me
You never asked any
Honorarium from me
Therefore I never
Left your feet
I become a slave
And never went elsewhere
Doing small errands
By living at the
Shadow of your feet
I will reach you
You never came
Within the boundary of religion
You never forsook the
Temple of the heart
As you live
In the temple of my heart
There is no place for
Religious ritual there
Mathigiri, 18-08-2018, 2:50 PM
BT Song 945
As I was reading a commentary on Psalms 51, so many points in the commentary of this Psalm impressed me, and particularly when I read, “True repentance is not a dead knowledge of sin committed, but a living, never-at-rest, painful consciousness of it” (Isa. 59:12, see also Pss. 32:4; 40:12) (Bruce K. Waltke and James M. Houston with Erika Moore, The Psalms as Christian Worship: A Historical Commentary, Cambridge, U.K.: William B
Inspired me very much after completing the reading as I began to reflect so many points about penitential devotion, I wrote this song.
Some more points worth reading from this Psalm:
… “compunction” or compunctio cordis (“uneasiness of guilt or remorse of the heart”) …leads to the healing and bright sorrow of one’s inner, personal sinful status, without which Christianity is merely a formal religion. Originally a medical term for the wound caused by the prick of a thorn or other sharp object, it is expressed metaphorically in Acts 2:37. Luke recounts that when the Jews responded to Peter’s charge that as “fellow Israelites” they had crucified “this Jesus whom God has made both Lord and Messiah” (v. 36), “they were pricked [Greek lexeme, katanussomai] to the heart.”….—ibid, p. 450
John Climacus (c. 579-649) treats repentance (metanoia) and compunction {“uneasiness of guilt or remorse of the heart”} separately, in two different chapters. {John Climacus, The Ladder to Divine Ascent, trans. Colm Luibheid and Norman Russel (New York: Paulist Press, 1982)}. Compunction has become equivalent to the permanent attitude of “the fear of the Lord” – so the godly Israelite would express it – while repentance in association with baptism may be interpreted as a once-for-all event….—ibid. p. 451
… “Transgression” (pesa‘), “a willful, knowledgeable violation of a norm or standard” (ABD 6:32), is a willful breach of trust; “the disruption of an alliance through violation of covenant.” {Eugene Carpenter and Michael A. Grisanti, NIDOTTE, 3:707, s.v. pesa‘.} Picture it as a raised fist against God’s standard. Iniquity” (‘awon), the most holistic term, encompasses both religious and/or ethical crimes and the resulting guilt. Picture it as twisting or bending something straight, or of diverging/deviating from a standard. “Sin (hatta) means “miss (mark),” “fall short,” “a disqualifying error,” {M. Saebo, TLOT, 1:406-8, s.v. ht’}, a disqualifying offense “against someone with whom one stands in an institutionalized community relationship.” {K. Koch, TDOT, 4:311}. Since one’s relationships to God and to his community are inseparable (cf. Prov. 3:27-35), sin is ultimately against God and his word. Picture it as jumping up to reach a bar and being disqualified for failing short of it.
…He {David} matches the triad of terms for sins with a triad of (p.468) terms for grace (cf. Exod. 34:6) “Be gracious to me” (honneni, “bestow a favor that cannot be claimed,” see Ps. 4:1[2]), “according to your loving kindness” (kehasdeka, “help for the helpless,” see Ps. 23:6), “according to your abundant mercy” (kerob rahameyka). “Mercy” denotes the tender yearnings, affections, and love by a superior for a helpless inferior rooted in a “natural” bond by God’s common grace, as a mother for her child, or special grace, as the Father for the child he begat through the Holy Spirit….—ibid. pp. 468-69
945 – “Not Qualified”
I am not qualified
To come near to you
There is no chance
For me to get comfort
I don’t know what
My conceit heart is doing
Oh my God, I don’t know
The way to overcome it
It seeks
Only evil
I rejoice
Only in doing evil
Truthfulness has
Gone from my life
Only emptiness
Remains
Selfishness alone
Becomes my ideology
I only trust
My ego for that
I never think of the
Welfare of others
I completely give up
Common good for all
Even my tongue feels shy
To count all my
Evil nature
What can I do more
I cannot find means
To be emancipated
By removing the
This my burden
Though you redeemed me
By removing my sin
What is the means
To remove this burden
Give some answer
To this sinner
Who is afraid
To come near to you
Give me back
The broken heart
And penitent spirit
Again to me
By keeping your Spirit
Within me
Prevent me from
Doing any more mistakes
Mathigiri, 21-8-2018, 11:45 PM
My Translation in Tanglish edited by Chatgpt
BT Song 941: Language of Silence
You called me to live in silence,
Only for that, you gave me solitude.
You added your grace along with it,
You made me praise you by thinking of that.
Your will is very strange,
Neither the world nor the mind can understand it.
When I come and bow at your feet,
You make me understand it by remaining within me.
All the uproar should calm down,
The ego also perishes along with it.
Even the buddhi should bow down,
Your grace should be along with it.
Till you come and talk,
There should be peace in the heart.
That peace fills the mind,
I should listen to your voice in it.
Forgetting the world for some time,
Mingling with you in my inner feeling,
Adding my five senses along with it,
My heart will know to dwell in your peace.
When I drown in that peace,
Both my mind and heart won’t experience it.
When I come out of it,
Not any language but silence alone can communicate it.
Mathigiri, 14-8-2018, 11:30 PM
BT Song 942: Try to Think
Oh my heart,
Try to think
Of all the blessings
That the Lord has done for you.
Praise Him for some time,
Then you will understand
The sweetness in it.
Read his Veda,
You will get guidance
To live a noble life.
Worship Him each day,
You will receive His abode at His feet.
Tell His name each day,
When you see that,
Your body and mind will melt.
Call Him each day,
Then you will realize His compassion.
Sing to Him with bhakti,
Immediately you will receive mukti.
Mathigiri, 15-8-2018, 11:45 PM
BT Song 943: I Want to Praise You
A kind of fullness in my heart
Is calling me to sing your praises.
Seeing the greatness of your nobleness,
It makes me cling to your feet.
You lead everyday life beautifully,
You show your grace in it.
Thinking of the needs of both the body and mind,
You provide everything, not missing anyone.
Though many troubles come in between,
And my heart stumbles in them,
Knowing what my requirement is,
You fulfill them properly.
Though everyday life goes one way,
And the next day’s worries come on their own,
Though I am anxious about the future too,
You show that all of them are in you.
Like this, I clearly see that
The limits of all my life are within you.
I long only to sing your praises,
Only thinking about it.
Mathigiri, 17-8-2018, 11:00 PM
BT Song 944: No Religion
You came seeking me
And redeemed me knowing me.
You became God
In my unclear mind.
I never came with a clear understanding,
I never worshipped you after understanding.
You became my guru whom I was seeking,
Therefore I walked after you.
As I came like a crawling baby,
You brought me like a mother with care.
As I came begging,
Longing to learn,
Becoming my teacher,
You taught me with compassion.
Becoming my guru,
You brought me like a mother.
Becoming my teacher,
You taught me everything.
You never had any expectation from me,
You never asked for any honorarium from me.
Therefore I never left your feet,
I became a slave and never went elsewhere.
Doing small errands,
By living in the shadow of your feet,
I will reach you.
You never came within the boundary of religion,
You never forsook the temple of the heart.
As you live in the temple of my heart,
There is no place for religious ritual there.
Mathigiri, 18-08-2018, 2:50 PM
BT Song 945: Not Qualified
I am not qualified
To come near you.
There is no chance
For me to get comfort.
I don’t know what
My conceited heart is doing.
Oh my God, I don’t know
The way to overcome it.
It seeks only evil,
I rejoice only in doing evil.
Truthfulness has
Gone from my life,
Only emptiness remains.
Selfishness alone
Became my ideology.
I only trusted my ego for that.
I never think of the
Welfare of others.
I completely give up
The common good for all.
Even my tongue feels shy
To count all my evil nature.
What more can I do?
I cannot find means
To be emancipated
By removing this burden.
Though you redeemed me
By removing my sin,
What is the means
To remove this burden?
Give some answer
To this sinner
Who is afraid
To come near you.
Give me back
The broken heart
And penitent spirit
Again to me.
By keeping your Spirit
Within me,
Prevent me from
Doing any more mistakes.
Mathigiri, 21-8-2018, 11:45 PM
BT Song 941 மவுன மொழி
அமைதியாய் வாழ அடியனை அழைத்தாய்
அதற்கெனவே தான் தனிமையைக் கொடுத்தாய்
அத்துடன் உனது கிருபையைச் சேர்த்தாய்
அதையெண்ணி உன்னைத் துதித்திட வைத்தாய்
உனது சித்தம் விசித்திரமானது
உலகோ மனமோ அதைப் புரியாது
உன்னடி வந்து பணிந்திடும் போது
உணர்ந்திட வைப்பாய் உள்ளே இருந்து
ஆரவாரமெல்லாம் அடங்க வேண்டும்
அகந்தையும் அத்துடன் ஒய வேண்டும்
அறிவும் கூடப் பணிய வேண்டும்
அத்துடன் உனது கிருபையும் வேண்டும்
நீயே வந்து பேசிடும் வரையில்
நெஞ்சில் அமைதி நிலவ வேண்டும்
அந்த அமைதி சிந்தையில் நிறைய
அதிலே உன்குரல் கேட்க வேண்டும்
உலகம் தன்னைச் சற்றே மறக்க
உள்ளுணர்வோடு உன்னில் கலக்க
ஐம்புலன் தன்னை அத்துடன் இணைக்க
அறியும் மனதுன் அமைதியில் நிலைக்க
அந்த அமைதியில் மூழ்கிடும் போது
அறிவும் மனதும் அதை உணராது
மீண்டும் வெளியே வந்திடும் போது
மவுனமே அன்றி மொழி உரைக்காது
மத்திகிரி, 14-8-2018, இரவு, 11.30
BT Song 942 நினைத்துப் பாரு
நினைத்துப் பாரு
நெஞ்சமே நீயும்
நிமலன் உனக்குச்
செய்த நன்மையை
துதித்துப் பாரு
கொஞ்சமே நீயும்
துதிப்பதில் உள்ள
இனிமையும் புரியும்
படித்துப் பாரு
அவனது வேதம்
பண்புடன் வாழ
வழியதில் கிடைக்கும்
பணிந்து பாரு
மனதினில் நாளும்
பரமபதம் அவன்
பாதத்தில் கிடைக்கும்
கூறித்தான் பாரு
அவனது நாமம்
கூறிடும் போதே
ஊனுடல் உருகும்
அழைத்துப் பாரு
அனுதினம் நீயும்
அதன்பின் புரியும்
அவனது இரக்கம்
பாடிப் பாரு
பக்தியால் நாளும்
பரமகதி கிடைக்கும்
அக்கணம் உனக்கும்
மத்திகிரி, 15-8-2018, இரவு, 11.45
BT Song 943 துதிக்க விழைகிறேன்
ஒருவித நிறைவு நெஞ்சினில் இருந்து
உன்புகழ் பாட என்னையும் அழைக்குது
உன்னதமான உன் உயர்வினைக் கண்டு
உன்னிரு தாளைப் பற்றச் செய்யுது
அனுதின வாழ்வை அழகுடன் நடத்துறாய்
அதனிடை உனது கிருபைக் காட்டுறாய்
உடல் உயிர் மனதின் தேவையை நினைந்து
ஒன்றிலும் குறைவின்றி நீயே தருகிறாய்
இடையிடை பல இடர்கள் வந்தாலும்
என்னுள்ளம் அதனாலே தடுமாறி நின்றாலும்
என்தேவை எதுவென உணர்ந்த நீயும்
ஏற்ற வழியிலே நிறைவேற்றி வைக்கிறாய்
அன்றாட வாழ்வு ஒருவாறு போனாலும்
அடுத்த நாள் கவலை தன்போல் வந்தாலும்
எதிர்காலம் என்னாகும் என்று நினைத்தாலும்
எல்லாமே உனக்குள்ளே இருப்பதைக் காட்டுறாய்
இவ்வாறு என்வாழ்வின் எல்லைகள் யாவும்
உன்னுள் தெளிவாக இருப்பதை அறிந்தேன்
அதனை எண்ணியே அனுதினம் உன்னையே
துதித்துப் பாடிட மட்டுமே விழைகிறேன்
மத்திகிரி, 17-8-2018, இரவு, 11.00
BT Song 944 மதம் இல்லை
தேடி வந்தாயே
தெரிதென்னை மீட்டாயே
தெளிவற்ற மனதில்
தெய்வமாய் நின்றாயே
புரிந்ததால் வரவில்லை
புரிந்தபின் தொழவில்லை
தேடிய குருவானாய்
நடந்தேன் பின்னாலே
தவழ்ந்திடும் குழவியாய்
நானுமே வந்ததால்
தாயாகிச் சீராட்டி
வளர்த்தாய் என்னை
கற்றிடும் ஆசையால்
கரமேந்தி வந்ததால்
கனிவுடன் ஆசானாய்
சொல்லியேதந்தாய்
குருவாக வந்த நீ
தாயாகி வளர்த்தாய்
ஆசானாய் மாறி நீ
அனைத்தும் போதித்தாய்
எவ்வித எதிர்பார்ப்பும்
என்னிடம் உனக்கில்லை
எவ்விதக் காணிக்கை
நீயுமே கேட்கலை
அதனாலே அடியேனும்
உன்னடி நீங்கலை
அடிமையாய் மாறினேன்
வேறெங்கும் போகலை
இறுதி வரையில்
குற்றேவல் செய்து
உன்னடி நிழல்வாழ்ந்து
உன்னிடம் சேருவேன்
மதமெனும் எல்லைக்குள்
நீயுமே வரவில்லை
மனமெனும் கோயிலை
நீயுமே புறக்கலை
என்மனக் கோயிலில்
என்றும் நீவாழ
மதமென்னும் சடங்குக்கு
அங்கே இடமில்லை
மத்திகிரி, 18-08-2018, மதியம், 2.50
BT Song 945 அருகதை யற்றவன்
அருகினில் வந்திட
அருகதை இல்லை
ஆறுதல் பெற்றிட
வாய்ப்புமே இல்லை
திறுக்குள்ள இதயம்
செய்வதை அறியேன்
தெய்வமே வென்றிட
வழியைக் காணேன்
தீயதை மட்டுமே
தேடியே செல்லுது
தீமையில் மட்டுமே
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உன்னிடம் வரஅஞ்சித்
தூரமே நின்றிடும்
பாவிக்ககு ஏற்ற
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மத்திகிரி, 21-8-2018, இரவு, 11.45
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