BT Song 1031 to 1035

BT Song 1231

Again, the question ‘what is silence’ came to me when I read any thought about it. Though every philosophical and theological tradition tries to separate the human psyche into various parts with various terms, ultimately, for me, we are an undivided whole or indivisible whole. The best and only answer to understand and explain silence is to remain silent.

BT Song 1231: What is Silence?

 Simple English Version

However I stay

Quiet with my mouth closed

Silence still

Hasn’t come inside me

When my mind

Is talking to me

I can’t understand

What silence is

With the help of intellect

Control the mind

Those who mastered the mind

Told me this

Not knowing what is mind

And what is intellect

I went and

Asked them about it

Unable to understand

All their explanations

I stay quiet

Silently again

Not knowing

What is body, what is mind,

What is intellect, and what is soul

I am confused

Without body, no soul/breath

Without soul/breath, no body

There is no name

For the feeling inside

We use many names

To call them

But there’s no way to say

This is ‘intellect’ and this is ‘mind’

Once I clearly

Understood myself

There was no need

To search more

So whatever

Silence might be

There’s no use

Talking about it

Mathigiri, 27-08-2020, 11:00 p.m.

BT Song 1231: What is Silence?

 Classical English Version

However I remain

Quiet by sealing my lips

Still the silence

Has not come within me

When my mind

Converse with me

I cannot fathom

What silence is

With the aid of reason

Control the mind

Those who conquer the mind

Spoke thus to me

Not discerning which is mind

And which is reason

I sought and

Asked of them

Unable to grasp

All their explanations

I remain silent

Once more

Not knowing

Which is body, which is mind,

Which is reason, and which is soul

I am bewildered

Without the body, there is no soul/breath

Without the soul/breath, there is no body

No name exists

For the sense that moves within

How many names

We use to call them

There is no way to say

This is ‘reason’ and this is ‘mind’

Once I clearly

Comprehended myself

There was no need

To search further

So whatever

Silence might be

There is no use

In discoursing on it

Mathigiri, 27-08-2020, 11:00 p.m.

BT Song 1232

All the writing about the body, mind, soul, and spirit (atman) seems very artificial to me. When various words are used to define and explain them, ultimately, who am I? Who is even asking this question? Is it my atman, mind, buddhi, or ego? Which language will define these faculties clearly and correctly and provide a proper answer? Finally, I conclude that no one can give a clear answer in any language for this question. The best solution is to stop asking such questions and try to live in silence—transcending even words.

BT Song 1232 Should Keep Silence

Stanza 1:

My mind is telling

Something to me

My heart is

Listening to it carefully

The buddhi is then

Analyzing it

My atman is

Watching all this thamasa

Stanza 2:

Once all these words

Have defined me

Finally not knowing

Who am I?

Searching for an answer

For this

I wandered everywhere

Not finding a proper answer

Stanza 3:

As proper words are

Not available in Tamil

Definitely there will be

An answer in other languages

As I searched

For those words

In other languages

I was disappointed

Stanza 4:

Finally, I came

To one conclusion

Then I found

A proper answer for that

Why should I ask

Even this question

Then in vain

Search for the answer

Stanza 5:

I should stop

Asking questions

I should know first

Who is the one asking this question?

Definitely not the buddhi

This I should know for sure

Once it is known that

It is not mind or heart

Or even atman

Stanza 6:

Knowing that

As no one asked

Such a question and

However anyone tries

In whichever way

As they cannot give

Any kind of answer

I should live in silence

Mathigiri, 30-08-2020, 10.45 p.m.

BT Song 1232: Should Keep Silence

English style

Stanza 1:

My mind doth whisper secrets unto me,

While heart doth hearken with a tender ear.

And intellect doth scrutinize each plea,

As soul, amused, doth all in silence cheer.

Stanza 2:

When words have shaped and forged my very core,

I find, at last, I know not who I be.

I search for answers, wander evermore,

Yet proper truths evade my questing plea.

Stanza 3:

No words in Tamil can such meaning bear,

Yet other tongues might hold the sought reply.

Through foreign speech, I searched with utmost care,

But disappointment met my every try.

Stanza 4:

At last, a single thought within me grew,

The answer clear, no more my mind doth ask.

Why pose the question? Why the query’s cue?

To search in vain becomes a fruitless task.

Stanza 5:

No longer shall I questions entertain,

I first must learn who asks this, seeking true.

‘Tis not the mind nor heart that speaks in vain,

Nor atman’s voice that queries what to do.

Stanza 6:

For none may answer such a silent call,

No effort yields the truth that lies in wait.

In quietude, I find my peace in all,

And thus in silence live, accept my fate.

Mathigiri, 30-08-2020, 10.45 p.m.

BT Song 1233

Though I don’t get clear answers to some issues in life, I always trust that the Lord is there to guide and lead me. What does the future, particularly old age (I am already old), hold for me? I don’t know. But however it ends, it is the end only for the body and not for my atman, which will abide in Him always, as it does now.

 BT Song 1233: You Are Enough

 Simple English Version

Finally, I came

To tell you my situation

Where else can

This poor one go?

Once I came to you

As my last hope

Is there any way

For me to be troubled?

Though I

Don’t have a clear answer

You are there

To show the way

However the journey ends

That has already begun

I will definitely

Reach you in the end

This body of clay

Will pass away one day

It will surely

Mix with the elements

The life/soul alone

Will live on forever

It will attain

An eternal state

Only thinking

About it every day

And preparing myself

Only for that

I will pass

Each day

And I will sing your praises

With much gratitude

Mathigiri, 1-09-2020, 11:00 p.m.

BT Song 1233: You Are Enough

 Classical English Version

Finally I came

To reveal my plight

Where else can

This poor soul go?

Once I came to thee

As my final refuge

Is there any means

For me to be distressed?

Though I

Lack a clear answer

Thou art there

To show the path

However the pilgrim’s journey ends

That has already commenced

Surely I shall

Reach thee in the end

This body of clay

Shall pass away one day

Surely it will

Mingle with the elements

The life/soul alone

Shall live eternally

It shall attain

An imperishable state

Only contemplating

It daily

And preparing myself

Solely for that

I shall pass

Each day

And sing thy praises

With much thanksgiving

Mathigiri, 1-09-2020, 11:00 p.m.

BT Song 1234

Several times in my life, all that I imagined or planned never materialized. Though God has arranged my life according to His plan, He still prepares me for it well before implementing it. Though I confess that I have surrendered my life to His will, the deceitful heart often deceives. But my only consolation is that, in spite of my deceitful heart, somehow in my spirit, I have surrendered my will to the will of God. And as He knows my thoughts well, though my heart deceives me, He always stands with me to forgive and restore me. I find solace when I take refuge at His feet.

 BT Song 1234: Where Else to Go?

 Simple English Version

You will accomplish

What is unpredictable

You will do it

As you planned it

You will prepare me

Well for that

You will arrange my life

Accordingly

When I depend

On you completely

Do I have any

Separate personal desire?

Whatever you do

Is acceptable to me

What’s the use of

Asking me about it?

These are not just

Mere words of formality

There is no place

For empty praise

Before my thoughts

Come to you

You know well in advance

There is no hiding from you

But there is no

Hope in me

The reason for that

Is not unknown to me

Though I come to you

As an innocent person

My deceitfulness

Has not completely gone

Though I make mistakes

You are there to rescue me

Oh my God

What else can I say to you?

The one who knows

My inner thoughts

I surrender completely to you

Where else can I go?

Mathigiri, 2-9-2020, 11:30 p.m.

BT Song 1234: Where Else to Go?

 Classical English Version

Thou shalt accomplish

That which is unpredictable

Thou shalt do it

As thou hast planned

Thou shalt prepare me

Well for that

Thou shalt arrange my life

Accordingly

When I depend

Upon thee completely

Wherefore should I have

Any separate personal desire?

Whatsoever thou doest

Is acceptable to me

What is the use of

Asking me thereof?

These words come not

As mere formality

There is no place

For empty praise

Before my thoughts

Reach thee

Thou knowest well in advance

There is no hiding from thee

Yet there is no

Hope within me

The reason for that

Is not unknown to me

Though I come to thee

As an innocent one

My deceitfulness

Hath not fully gone

Though I err

Thou art there to rescue me

Oh my God

What else can I say to thee?

Thou who knowest

My innermost thoughts

I surrender completely to thee

Where else can I go?

Mathigiri, 2-9-2020, 11:30 p.m.

BT Song 1235

For me, God provides every need in life, including the needs of our body. I cannot separate the needs of the body from the needs of the mind and atman. What God provides to the body complements the needs of my mind and atman, and vice versa. Tirumular rightly says, “As I took care of my body, I took care of my atman” (உடம்பை வளர்த்தேன் உயிர் வளர்த்தேனே). So, when God provides for them all, I thank Him, and when He refuses to give to either one, I accept His right to do so. But the secret of bhakti is to understand both and live in Him each day.

 BT Song 1235: Your Right

 Simple English Version

When you give

I will rejoice

If you refuse

I will accept it too

Giving or refusing

Is your right

Understanding this

Is my duty

The needs of the body

Are different

The needs of the heart

Are completely different

But my heart

Refuses to

Accept them

In different ways

All that is given

For the body’s needs

Will indeed

Help my heart

When the heart’s needs

Are fulfilled

The body will also

Rejoice in it

Creating body and heart

Joining together

As you provide

Their needs accordingly

As I live

Knowing you

I understand the

Meaning of this life

Therefore not

Despising the body

When I live

Taking care of it

As I join you

Who takes care of my heart

I will understand

The secret of life

Therefore knowing

All my needs

To take care

Of both of them

Understanding when

You give or refuse

I will live

Rejoicing in you

Mathigiri, 3-9-2020, 11:15 p.m.

BT Song 1235: Your Right

 Classical English Version

When thou givest

I shall rejoice

If thou refusest

I shall accept it too

Giving or refusing

Is thy prerogative

Understanding this

Is my duty

The needs of the body

Are different

The needs of the heart

Are completely different

But my heart

Refuseth to

Accept them

In different ways

All that is given

For the body’s needs

Shall indeed

Help my heart

When the heart’s needs

Are fulfilled

The body shall also

Rejoice in it

Creating body and heart

Joined together

As thou providest

Their needs accordingly

As I live

Knowing thee

I understand the

Meaning of this life

Therefore not

Despising the body

As I live

Taking care of it

As I join thee

Who takest care of my heart

I shall understand

The secret of life

Therefore knowing

All my needs

To take care

Of both of them

Understanding when

Thou givest or refusest

I shall live

Rejoicing in thee

Mathigiri, 3-9-2020, 11:15 p.m.

 BT Song 1231 எது மவுனம்

என்னதான் வாய்மூடி 

நானுமே இருந்தாலும் 

என்னுளே மவுனம் 

வந்திட வில்லை       1

என்மனம் என்னுடன் 

பேசிடும் போது 

மவுனம் எதுவெனப் 

புரியவும் இல்லை      2

அறிவைக் கொண்டு 

மனதினை அடக்கு 

என்று என்னிடம் 

வென்றவர் சொன்னார்      3

அறிவெது மனமெது 

என்பது புரியாமல் 

அவரிடம் சென்று 

அதனையும் கேட்டேன்      4

அவர்கூறும் விளக்கம் 

ஏதுமே புரியாமல் 

அமைதியாய் நானும் 

வாய்மூடிக் கொண்டேன்         5

உடலெது மனமெது 

அறிவெது உயிரெது 

என்பது தெரியாமல் 

குழம்பியே தவிக்க     6

உடலின்றி உயிரில்லை 

உயிரின்றி உடலில்லை 

உள்ளாக இயங்கிடும் 

உணர்வுக்குப் பெயரில்லை       7

எத்தனை பெயரிட்டு 

நாமுமே அழைத்தாலும் 

அறிவென்று மனமென்று 

கூறிட வழியில்லை        8

இத்தனை தெளிவாக 

என்னையே புரிந்தபின் 

இதற்குமேல் ஆராயத் 

தேவை எனக்கில்லை       9

ஆகவே மவுனம் 

எதுவாக இருந்தாலும் 

அதைப்பற்றிச் சொல்வதால் 

பயனேதும் இல்லை        10

மத்திகிரி, 27-08-2020, இரவு, 11.00

 BT Song 1232 மவுனம் காக்கணும்

என்மனம் என்னிடம் 

எதையேனும் சொல்லுது 

எனுள்ளம் அதையுமே 

கவனமாய்க் கேட்குது 

அறிவுமோ அதையுமே 

ஆராய்ச்சி செய்யுது 

இதையெல்லாம் ஆன்மா 

வேடிக்கை பார்க்குது        1

இத்தனை வார்த்தைகள் 

என்னையே வகுத்தபின் 

இறுதியில் நான் 

யாரெனத் தெரியாது 

இதற்கொரு சரியான 

விடைதேடி நானுமே 

எங்கெங்கோ அலைந்தேன் 

பதிலுமே கிடைக்காமல்     2

தமிழுக்குத் தெரியாத 

விடையொன்று நிச்சயம் 

பிறமொழியில் இருக்கும் 

என்றுமே எண்ணியே 

அவற்றில் இதற்கான 

விடைதேடிப் பார்த்துமே 

அங்கேயும் காணாமல் 

ஏமாற்றம் அடைந்தேன்     3

இறுதியில் நானொரு 

முடிவுக்கு வந்தேன் 

அதன்பின் அதற்கான 

பதிலையும் கண்டேன் 

எதற்காக இந்தக் 

கேள்வியைக் கேட்கணும் 

அதன்பின் விடைதேடி 

வீணாக அலையணும்       4

கேள்விகள் கேட்பதை 

முதலிலே நிறுத்தணும் 

கேட்பது யாரென 

நிச்சயம் அறியணும் 

அறிவல்ல உயிரல்ல 

மனமல்ல உளமல்ல 

என்பது நிச்சயம் 

என்றுமே ஆனபின்     5

யாருமே கேட்காத 

இந்தயென் கேள்விக்கு 

எப்படி முயன்றாலும் 

எங்குமே எவருமே 

விடைதர இயலாது 

என்பதை உணர்ந்து 

வாய்மூடி நானும் 

மவுனமாய் வாழணும்      6

மத்திகிரி, 30-08-2020, இரவு, 10.45

 BT Song 1233 நீபோதும்

இறுதியில் வந்தேன் 

என்நிலை சொல்ல 

ஏழைநான் இனிமேல் 

வேறெங்கு செல்ல     1

கதியென உன்னிடம் 

வந்த பினாலே 

கலங்கியே நின்றிட 

வழியுண்டோ இனிமேலே        2

தெளிவான விடையும் 

தெரியாத போதும் 

தெளிவாக வழிகாட்ட 

நீயுளாய் போதும்       3

தொடங்கிய பயணம் 

எவ்விதம் முடியினும் 

உன்னிடம் வருவேன் 

அதுமட்டும் நிச்சயம்        4

மண்ணுடல் ஒருநாள் 

மடிந்துதான் போகும் 

மண்ணோடு மண்ணாகக் 

கலந்துதான் தீரும்     5

உள்ளான உயிர்மட்டும் 

நிலைத்துமே வாழும் 

ஒருக்காலும் அழிவற்ற 

பேற்றினை அடையும்       6

அதைமட்டும் மனதில் 

அனுதினம் எண்ணி 

அதற்காக என்னை 

ஆயத்தம் பண்ணி      7

நாள்தோறும் நாளை 

நகர்ந்திடு வேனே 

நன்றிபல கூறித் 

துதித்திடு வேனே      8

மத்திகிரி, 1-09-2020, இரவு 11.00

 BT Song 1234 வேறெங்கு செல்ல

நினைக்காத ஒன்றை 

நீயுமே நடத்துவாய் 

நினையாத படியே 

நடத்தியே காட்டுவாய் 

அதற்காக என்னையும் 

ஆயத்தம் செய்குவாய் 

அதன்படி வாழ்வையும் 

அமைத்துமே கொடுப்பாய்        1

முழுமையாய் உன்னையே 

சார்ந்திடும் போது 

எனக்கெனத் தனியான 

விருப்பமும் ஏது 

எதைநீ செய்யினும் 

சம்மதம் என்றபின் 

என்னிடம் கேட்டுப் 

பயனேது கூறு         2

உபச்சார வார்த்தையாய் 

இதுவுமே வரவில்லை 

வீணான புகழ்ச்சிக்கு 

உன்னிடம் வழியில்லை 

உள்ளத்தில் எண்ணமும் 

வந்திடும் முன்னமே 

உணர்ந்த உன்னிடம் 

மறைத்திட இடமில்லை         3

ஆயினும் என்மீது 

நம்பிக்கை எனக்கில்லை 

அதற்கான காரணம் 

புரியாமல் எனக்கில்லை 

வெளந்தியாக நான் 

உன்னிடம் வந்தாலும் 

கள்ளத்தனம் மட்டும் 

முற்றாக நீங்கலை     4

பிழைக்க நின்றாலும் 

பேணியே காக்கின்ற 

பெம்மான் உன்னிடம் 

வேறென்ன சொல்ல 

நெஞ்சின் நினைவினை 

அறிந்த உன்னிடம் 

தஞ்சம் அடைந்தேன் 

வேறெங்கு நான்செல்ல     5

மத்திகிரி, 2-9-2020, இரவு, 11.30

 BT Song 1235 உனக்குள்ள உரிமை

தரும்போது ஏற்று 

மனதார மகிழ்வேன் 

தராது மறுத்தால் 

அதனையும் ஏற்பேன் 

தருவதும் மறுப்பதும் 

உனக்குள்ள உரிமை 

அதனைப் புரிவது 

எனக்குள்ள கடமை         1

உடலின் தேவை 

ஒருவிதம் இருக்கும் 

மனதின் தேவை 

மறுவிதம் இருக்கும் 

ஆயினும் அவற்றைத் 

தனித் தனியாகக் 

கூறிட என்மனம் 

ஏனோ மறுக்கும்       2

உடலின் தேவைக்கு 

தந்திடும் யாவும் 

உள்ளத்தின் தேவைக்கு 

உறுதுணை செய்யும் 

உள்ளத்தின் தேவை 

நிறைவேறும் போது 

உடலும் அதனை 

உணர்ந்து மகிழும்      3

உடலையும் மனதையும் 

இணைத்தே படைத்து 

அவற்றின் தேவையை 

அறிந்தே கொடுக்கும் 

உன்னை அறிந்து 

வாழ்ந்திடும் எனக்கு 

வாழ்வின் அர்த்தம் 

நன்குமே புரியும்       4

ஆகவே உடலை 

அசட்டை செய்யாது 

அதனைப் பேணி 

வாழும் போது 

உள்ளத்தைப் பேணும் 

உன்னுடன் இணைய 

உலக வாழ்வின் 

இரகசியம் புரியும்      5

ஆகவே எனது 

தேவையை அறிந்து 

அகம் புறம் 

இரண்டையும் நன்கு 

பேணிட வென்று 

தருவதை மறுப்பதை 

புரிந்து கொண்டு 

அனுதினம் வாழ்வேன் 

உன்னில் மகிழ்ந்து     6

மத்திகிரி, 3-9-2020, இரவு, 11.15

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