BT Song 1066
One of the themes in Viraha-bhakti is that relatives and people in the village speak ill of the girl’s love and make every attempt to prevent it. However, she overcomes all obstacles and disregards the rumors to reach her lover. Disappointed to not find him at their usual meeting place, she communicates through her mind that whether she lives or dies, she alone will gain, as her love will remain eternal.
BT Song 1066: I Realized the Blessing
Verse 1:
In midst of small hurdles
They come one by one,
My heart troubled deeply,
With worries begun.
As I overcome each,
And you’re not in sight,
Oh tell me, my dear,
Where vanished, your light?
Verse 2:
In the village, they whisper,
And talk all around,
About our connection,
Faults in us they’ve found.
Neighbors and kin,
They try to deter,
Striving with efforts
To make me forget her.
Verse 3:
Fools, can they fathom
My heart’s deep emotion?
Born for you alone,
Do they grasp this devotion?
Can they comprehend
Love’s highest degree?
With words of dismay,
Can they conquer me?
Verse 4:
Did I love you only
To be torn apart?
Did I give my whole being
Just to mend my heart?
Life and body, my soul,
To you they belong,
Even in death’s hold,
My love remains strong.
Verse 5:
Surmounting all barriers,
I came to you near,
To tell you my state,
My heart’s plea sincere.
Where have you wandered?
Why did you depart?
The pain you inflicted,
I can’t comprehend, heart.
Verse 6:
On one side, devotion,
Its bliss I do seek,
On the other, separation,
Presses me weak.
Grant me your vision,
And I shall survive,
Delay and I perish,
Keep my soul alive.
Verse 7:
If that is your will,
To this I consent,
This poor heart shall bear it,
With no discontent.
Be it life or death,
The blessing is known,
For the true gift of grace,
In you alone.
Mathigiri, 14-2-2019, 10:10 p.m.
BT Song 1066 I realized the blessing
Small hurdles
Are coming in between
My heart became
Troubled by them
When I came overcoming
The hurdles
Where you have gone
Only tell that to me 1
People in the village
Talked many things in many ways
They found shortcomings
In my relationship with you
Neighbours and relatives
Try to stop me
They made all kinds of efforts
For me to give up my relationship with you 2
Fools would they
Understand my heart
Would they realize that?
I was born only for you
Would they understand?
The greatness of my love
Can they win?
By merely talking ill of me 3
Did I love you?
Only to be separated from you
Did I give my heart?
Only to forget you
Along with my body
My life belongs to you
Even if I die
I won’t lose you 4
Overcoming all these hurdles
I came to you
I came searching for you
To tell about my condition
I don’t know
Where you have gone?
I don’t know
Why you have done like this 5
On the one side
Is the bliss of bhakti?
On the other side
Separation put pressure
I will be emancipated
If you give your darshan
If you further delay
I will die 6
If that is your wish
I am ready for that
This poor one will
Give consent to that
But I know the
Real blessing
Whether it is
Life or death 7
Mathigiri, 14-2-2019, 10.10 p.m
BT Song 1067
Again, confusion prevails in my mind. I cannot trace its cause and cannot dismiss it as part of my nature. Yet, I see no point in sharing this confusion with others when I am unclear about it myself. My only option is to turn to the Lord. However, one challenge remains: I must accept any action He decides to take, even though I may not be ready for it. Therefore, I ask Him to decide, understanding my hesitation. I know He will act to redeem me and make me His disciple, but he too will bear the consequences of His actions.
BT Song 1067: Tolerate One More Time
Verse 1:
I come unto thee,
Having realized clearly,
I cry unto thee,
To assist me.
Verse 2:
Is it right on thy part
To leave me alone?
Why dost thou delay?
What kind of indifference is this?
Verse 3:
There’s naught more
For me to say,
As I have no
Need for that.
Verse 4:
Some pressure
Is within me,
Confusion reigns
As I cannot fathom.
Verse 5:
Though I deemed it
Unnecessary imagination,
Without any answer,
I am frustrated.
Verse 6:
I cannot think this
To be my nature,
Nor understand
Why it arises.
Verse 7:
There’s no use
In sharing with others,
Nor is it good
To keep within.
Verse 8:
Thus, I come
Unto thee as always,
Beseeching thee
To act.
Verse 9:
I consent
To whatever thou doest,
Yet within me,
I hesitate.
Verse 10:
Only thou knowest
The reason for this hesitation,
Kindly bear with me
Once more.
Mathigiri, 16-2-2019, 10:45 p.m.
BT Song 1067 Tolerate one more time
I come unto you
After realizing clearly
I cry unto you
To help me 1
Is it good on your part?
To leave me alone
Why are you delaying?
What kind of indifference is this? 2
There is nothing
For me to tell further
Because there is no
Need for that to me 3
Some kind of pressure
Is within me
There is confusion
As I unable to understand it 4
Though I thought that
It is unnecessary imagination
As I cannot get any answer
I am frustrated 5
I cannot think that
This is my nature
I cannot understand
Why it is coming 6
There is no use
In sharing with others
It is not good
To keep within me 7
Therefore I come
Unto you as usual
I beg you
To do something 8
I gave my consent
Whatever you do
But I hesitate
Within me 9
You alone know
The reason for this hesitation
Kindly bear me
One more time 10
Mathigiri, 16-2-2019, 10.45 p.m.
BT Song 1068
The challenge in my devotion to the Lord is that while His grace sustains me in my shortcomings, His justice (dharma) always points out my mistakes, accepting no excuses that I attempt to give.
BT Song 1068: My Fault
Verse 1:
When all the mistakes
Are mine,
I won’t blame
Anyone for aught.
Verse 2:
When my heart
Finds fault with me,
How shall I
Answer it?
Verse 3:
When I upheld
Only my dharma,
How shall I accept
Thine?
Verse 4:
When my spirit
Grows weary within me,
How shall I find
Solace?
Verse 5:
When such struggles
Plague me,
How shall I
Turn to thee in bhakti?
Verse 6:
When I seek thee,
Seeking answers,
If thou dost reject me,
Where else shall I go?
Verse 7:
When pressure
Burdens me within,
Unless thou dost remove it,
How shall I be redeemed?
Verse 8:
If I live
Such a life,
How shall I
Reach thee in the end?
Verse 9:
I fall at thy feet,
Clinging to them,
With tears,
Enough, no more.
Verse 10:
Hereafter, I shall live,
Anchored solely by thy grace,
Which never shall
forsake me.
Mathigiri, 16-2-2019, 11:20 p.m.
BT Song 1068 My fault
When all the mistakes
Are mine
I won’t blame
Anyone for anything 1
When my heart
Finds fault with me
How am I going to
Answer it 2
When I upheld
Only my dharma
How am I going to accept
Your dharma 3
When my spirit
Becomes tired within me
How am I going
To comfort it 4
When this kind of
Struggle is within me
How can I do
Bhakti unto you 5
When I come to you
Seeking an answer for this
If you too reject me
Where else can I go? 6
When some kind of
Pressure is pressing me within
Unless you remove it
How am I going to be redeemed 7
If I live a
Life like this
How am I going
To reach you at the end 8
I fall at your feet
Cling to them
By crying
Not more, it is enough 9
I will live hereafter
Only making your grace
As the anchor
Which never rejects me 10
Mathigiri, 16-2-2019, 11.20 p.m.
BT Song 1069
In Indian family dynamics, elders traditionally offer advice based on their experience to younger family members throughout their lives. However, they often struggle to understand the changing times, which puts pressure on them. Similarly, the younger generation begins to instruct elders on how to adapt to modern life and old age, which most elders resist. Yet, the advantage for elders lies in having experienced phases of life similar to those faced by the younger generation, albeit with different pressures. Conversely, younger generations struggle to comprehend the challenges of old age without experiencing it themselves. As a devotee of the Lord, listening to His advice is more important to me than guidance from the younger generation about navigating old age. After all, He is around 2000 years old and understands our situations better than any elderly person.
BT Song 1069: You Should Tell
Stanza 1
What’s the use of things around changing,
When my heart remains unchanging?
What’s the point of others talking,
Unless it’s you who’s speaking to me?
Stanza 2
Inner change must come through you,
With your grace, I’ll see it through.
Only your touch can make it true,
Your blessings are the key.
Stanza 3
As the years keep on increasing,
The body changes with the time,
The heart too adjusts in kind,
But stubborn it might be.
Stanza 4
Yet the heart remains so stubborn,
While the body won’t comply,
Acceptance seems so hard to try,
This conflict must be free.
Stanza 5
Knowing nature’s constant changes,
The heart must also shift,
In harmony, it finds a lift,
To align with life’s decree.
Stanza 6
Those who do not understand us,
Will say many things untrue,
Only we can feel the pain through,
The experiences we see.
Stanza 7
So before others come to chatter,
Oh my Lord, understand my plight,
Recognize what’s wrong or right,
And realize my plea.
Stanza 8
Knowing what is best for me,
Guide me down the proper path,
Show the way with gentle craft,
In your wisdom, let me be.
Stanza 9
Knowing your unchanging will,
I shall spend my remaining days,
In your grace and in your ways,
Forever close to thee.
Mathigiri, 19-2-2019, 11.10 p.m.
What is the use of other things changing?
When my heart is not changed
What is the use of others talking
Unless you come and talk to me 1
Inner change should come
Because of you
You should provide
Your grace for that 2
As the age is increasing
The body will change
The heart also will
Adjust accordingly 3
However, the heart
Remains adamant
The body won’t
Accept it 4
Knowing the change
In nature
The heart also should
Cooperate with it 5
Those who do not understand
Will say many things to us
We alone know the pain
As we experience it 6
Therefore before
Others come and talk
Oh my Lord
Realize my condition 7
Understanding which one is
Proper for me
You should show
The path to me 8
Therefore knowing
Your unchanging will
I should spend
The rest of my life 9
Mathigiri, 19-2-2019, 11.10 p.m.
BT Song 1070
After writing the previous song, as I continued to meditate on the subject, I said to the Lord, “The path You draw always remains straight towards the goal. But when I try to wander in zigzag ways or follow others’ paths, I not only stumble and lose my way but also cause others to fall.” This inspired me to write this song.
BT Song 1070 The line which you draw
You showed (the path) clearly
By drawing the straight line
You showed your will
In all that happened 1
Though I draw many lines
On your line
Finally, you accomplished
Only your thought 2
Still, if I trespass
Your line
You made me
Pay a cost for that 4
Whether I trespass
Or I do it as per the advice of others
You showed the result
The same in both 5
Your line remains
Very straight
It clearly shows
The goal before the eyes 6
When I get distracted
And run zigzag
Along with the goal
The aim is also lost 7
When I run
In your straight line
There comes no
Hurdle in the middle 8
Not running in the line
Which you draw for me
As I run in the line which is for others
And as I hit them 9
Both of us
Stumble and fall down
I become the cause
Of their fall 10
I should not run
Like this anymore
You should show your grace
For me to run in my line 11
Mathigiri, 19-2-2019, 11.45 p.m.
BT Song 1070: The Line Which You Draw
Stanza 1
You clearly showed the path ahead,
By drawing a straight line,
In every deed, your will was spread,
In all that’s yours and mine.
Stanza 2
Though I might draw my own designs,
Upon the line you made,
In the end, your thoughts align,
Your plan won’t be swayed.
Stanza 3
If ever I should cross your line,
You make me pay the cost,
For stepping out of your design,
I find my way is lost.
Stanza 4
Whether I stray or heed advice,
Of others who might err,
The result is always precise,
Your verdict stands so clear.
Stanza 5
Your line remains so very straight,
It shows the goal so plain,
A beacon guiding to the gate,
Beyond the doubt and pain.
Stanza 6
When I get distracted, run astray,
In zigzag paths, I roam,
Along with goals, my aims betray,
I find no steady home.
Stanza 7
When running in your straight, clear line,
No hurdle stands in place,
I reach the goal in your design,
With no fall from grace.
Stanza 8
If I ignore the line you draw,
And follow paths not mine,
I hit the bounds, begin to fall,
In chaos, I entwine.
Stanza 9
Both of us then stumble down,
I cause the fall, it’s true,
I become the reason found,
For their stumbling too.
Stanza 10
No more shall I run this way,
In paths that lead to woe,
Grant your grace, your light display,
So in my line, I go.
Stanza 11
I should not run
Like this anymore
You should show your grace
For me to run in my line
Mathigiri, 19-2-2019, 11.45 p.m.
BT Song 1066 நன்மையை அறிந்தேன்
இடையினில் சிறுசிறு
தடைகளும் வருது
என்மனம் அதனால்
சஞ்சலம் கொள்ளுது
தடைகளைத் தாண்டி
வந்திடும் போது
எங்குநீ சென்றாய்
அதைமட்டும் கூறு 1
ஊரில் பலரும்
பலவிதம் பேசினார்
என்னுறவைப் பற்றி
குறைபல சொன்னார்
உற்றமும் சுற்றமும்
தடுத்திட முயன்றார்
உன்னுறவினைத் துறந்திட
பலவிதம் முனைந்தார் 2
பேதை அவரென்
மனம் மறிவாரோ
பிறந்தது உனக்கென
அவர் உணர்வாரோ
காதலின் உயர்வை
அவர் புரிவாரோ
கலங்கம் கூறினால்
வென்றிடுவாரோ 3
பிரிந்திட வென்றா
காதலும் கொண்டேன்
மறந்திட வென்றா
மனதினைத் தந்தேன்
உயிரொடு உடலும்
உனதென அறிவேன்
உயிர் பிரிந்தாலும்
உன்னை இழக்கேன் 4
இத்தனை தடைகள்
தாண்டியே வந்தேன்
என்நிலை சொல்ல
தேடியே வந்தேன்
எங்குநீ சென்றாய்
என்பதை அறியேன்
ஏனிதைச் செய்தாய்
எனவும் புரியேன் 5
பக்தியின் பரவசம்
ஒருபுறம் இருக்க
பிரிவின் துயரம்
மறுபக்கம் நெருக்க
தரிசனம் தந்தால்
உய்ந்திடுவேனே
தாமதம் செய்ய
மரித்திடுவேனே 6
அதுதான் உனது
விருப்பம் என்றால்
அபலை அதற்கும்
சம்மதம் சொல்வேன்
வாழ்வோ சாவோ
இரண்டிலும் உள்ள
நன்மையை மட்டும்
நானே அறிவேன் 7
மத்திகிரி, 14-2-2019, இரவு10.10
BT Song 1067 மீண்டும் பொறுப்பாய்
உணர்ந்து தான் வருகிறேன்
உன்னிடம் நானும்
உதவிடு என்றுதான்
கதறினேன் நாளும் 1
தனித்து விடுவதும்
தகுமோ உனக்கு
தாமதம் செய்வதோ
இதென்ன பிணக்கு 2
இனிநான் சொல்ல
ஏதுமே இல்லை
ஏனென்றால் எனக்கது
தேவையே இல்லை 3
ஏதோ நெருக்கடி
என்னுள்ளே இருக்கு
அது புரியாமல்
குழப்பமாய் இருக்கு 4
வீணான கற்பனை
எனநான் எண்ணியும்
விடையேதும் கிடைக்காது
தவிப்பாய் இருக்கு 5
இதுயென் குணமென
எண்ணவும் முடியலை
எதனால் வருது
என்பதும் புரியலை 6
பிறரிடம் சொல்லியும்
பயனேதும் இல்லை
என்னுள்ளே வைப்பது
இனி சரியில்லை 7
எனவே வழக்கம்போல்
உன்னிடம் வந்தேன்
ஏதேனும் செய்யென
இறைஞ்சியே நின்றேன் 8
எதை நீ செய்யினும்
சம்மதம் என்றேன்
ஆயினும் மனதினுள்
தயக்கமும் கொண்டேன் 9
தயக்கத்தின் காரணம்
நீ மட்டும் அறிவாய்
தயவுடன் மீண்டும்
என்னை நீ பொறுப்பாய் 10
மத்திகிரி, 16-2-2019, இரவு, 10.45
BT Song 1068 என் தவறு
எல்லாத் தவறும்
எனதாய் இருக்கையில்
எவர்மீதும் நான்
பழிஒன்றும் கூறேன் 1
என்னுள்ளம் என்னிடம்
குற்றம் காண்கையில்
எவ்விதம் அதற்கு
பதில்நான் சொல்வேன் 2
என்நீதி ஒன்றையே
தூக்கிப் பிடிக்கையில்
உன்நீதி அதனையும்
எவ்விதம் ஏற்பேன் 3
இதையெண்ணி என்னாவி
சோர்ந்து போகையில்
எதன்மூலம் அதனை
மீண்டுமே தேற்றுவேன் 4
இதுபோன்ற போராட்டம்
என்னுள் இருக்கையில்
எவ்விதம் உன்னிடம்
பக்தி செய்யுவேன் 5
இதற்கான விடை தேடி
உன்னிடம் வருகையில்
நீயும் தள்ளினால்
நானெங்கு போவேன் 6
உள்ளாக ஒருபாரம்
என்னை அழுத்தையில்
நீ வந்து நீக்காமல்
நானெங்கு உய்வேன் 7
இதுபோல ஒருவாழ்வு
நானுமே வாழ்ந்தால்
எவ்விதம் உன்னிடம்
வந்து சேர்வேன் 8
போதும் வேண்டாம்
என்றே கெஞ்சி
இருதாளும் பற்றி
உன்னடி வீழ்ந்தேன் 9
புறக்காத உன்னருள்
ஒன்றை மட்டுமே
நங்கூரம் ஆக்கியே
நானினி வாழ்வேன் 10
மத்திகிரி, 16-2-2019, இரவு 11.20
BT Song 1069 நீ சொல்லணும்
எதுமாறிப் பயனென்ன
என்னுள்ளம் மாறாமல்
எவர்கூறிப் பயனென்ன
நீ வந்து பேசாமல் 1
உள்ளான மாற்றம்
உன்னாலே வரணும்
உன்னருள் அதற்கு
நீயுமே தரணும் 2
வயதாக வயதாக
உடல் மாறிப்போகும்
மனதும் அதற்கேற்ப
வளைந்து கொடுக்கும் 3
என்னதான் பிடிவாதம்
மனது பிடித்தாலும்
ஏற்றிட உடல்மட்டும்
எப்போதும் மறுக்கும் 4
இயற்கையின் இந்த
மாற்றத்தை உணர்ந்து
உடலோடு மனதும்
ஒத்துமே போகணும் 5
புரியாத பிறர்வந்து
சொல்லுவார் பலவும்
புரிந்த நமக்குத்தான்
புரியும் வலியும் 6
ஆகவே பிறர்வந்து
பேசிடும் முன்னே
ஐயனே நீ வந்து
என்நிலை புரிந்து 7
எனக்கு ஏற்றது
எதுவென உணர்ந்து
எடுத்துச் சொல்லி
வழியும் காட்டணும் 8
அதனாலே மாறாத
உன்சித்தம் அறிந்து
அடியனும் எஞ்சிய
வாழ்வை நடத்தணும் 9
மத்திகிரி, 19-2-2019, இரவு, 11.10
BT Song 1070 நீ போட்ட கோடு
நேர்கோடு நீபோட்டு
தெளிவாகக் காட்டினாய்
நடப்பவை அனைத்திலும்
உன்சித்தம் காட்டினாய் 1
அதன்மீது பலகோடு
நானுமே போட்டாலும்
இறுதியில் உன்எண்ணம்
நடத்தியே காட்டினாய் 2
ஆயினும் உன்கோட்டை
நானுமே தாண்டினால்
அதற்கான விலை ஒன்றை
தந்திட நீ வைத்தாய் 3
நான்தாண்டிச் சென்றாலும்
பிறர்சொல்லித் தாண்டினும்
விளைவை இரண்டிலும்
ஒன்றாகக் காட்டினாய் 4
நீ போட்ட கோடு
நேராக இருக்குது
நிலையான குறிக்கோளை
கண்முன்னே காட்டுது 5
இடையினில் தடுமாறி
வளைந்து நான்போக
இலக்கோடு குறிக்கோளும்
நெளிந்தே போகுது 6
தெளிவாக உன்கோட்டில்
நானுமே ஓட
இடையில் தடைகள்
இல்லாமல் போகுது 7
எனக்காக நீ போட்ட
கோட்டினில் ஓடாமல்
பிறர்கோட்டில் நானோட
அவர்மீது நான்மோத 8
இருவரும் தடுமாறி
வீழ்ந்து போகிறோம்
அவர்வீழக் காரணம்
நானும் ஆகிறேன் 9
இனியும் இதுபோல
ஓடாமல் இருக்கணும்
என்கோட்டில் ஓட
உன்னருள் காட்டணும் 10
மத்திகிரி, 19-2-2019, இரவு, 11.45
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