BT Song 1111
In the recent past, I was reading books related to sociology, anthropology, biography, history, etc. When I got another book on bhakti, my spirit was stirred by the very concept of bhakti. As I was reading the book: William J. Jackson’s “Songs of Three Great South Indian Saints,” New Delhi, Oxford University Press (1998), Paperbacks 2002, I began to meditate upon bhakti and wrote this song after reading a few more pages.
BT Song 1111: Devotion is the Only Way
Understanding the greatness of devotion,
Taking pride in being a devout one,
Filling oneself with pure devotion,
Living humbly as a devoted one.
Nothing surpasses the essence of devotion,
Living as a devout one carries no burden,
For liberation, there is no better path,
No other way is fully known.
Vedas and scriptures, all of them,
Do not show this simple way,
Those who have done needless research,
Have not attained the desired state.
With simple devotion, open your heart,
Invite the divine to enter within,
Give your body and mind to Him,
Blend and unite with Him.
Making love the key, knowing Him,
Living with Him inside and out,
Forgetting separation entirely,
Living on earth, bowing at His feet.
Only one thing is needed for this,
Realize that it is devotion,
Seek nothing else apart from this,
Attain this by thinking of Him alone.
Mathigiri, 22-07-2019, Night, 10:45 PM
BT Song 1111 Devotion is the Only Way
Understanding the greatness of devotion
Taking pride in being a devotee
Filling oneself with devotion
One should live humbly as a devotee
There is nothing greater than devotion
There is no burden in living as a devotee
There is no path better than this for liberation
There is no other way fully known
The Vedas, Agamas, and scriptures
Do not show the simple way
Those who do unnecessary research
Do not attain the desired state
With simple devotion, open the heart
Invite God to come inside
Give your mind along with your body to Him
Unite and blend with Him
Make love the tool and know Him
Live with Him both inside and outside
Completely forget separation
Live on earth bowing at His feet
For this, only one thing is needed
That is to understand devotion
Do not seek anything other than this
Achieve this by thinking of Him alone
Mathigiri, 22-07-2019, Night, 10.45
BT Song 1112
Serving others by knowing their needs is one thing, but serving them by understanding their weaknesses is much greater. This is what God has done in our Lord for us. When we are weak, He steps in to give His shoulders. When we can manage on our own, He stands by. It is true that God helps those who help themselves, but He serves those who cannot help themselves. This is His will for all His bhaktas as well.
BT Song 1112: Your Will
Without a word,
You stayed with me,
Knowing what I need,
Before I could see,
Prepared everything,
Before I could ask,
Timed it right,
Completed the task.
Until I came,
And started to speak,
You stood by,
In silence so meek,
Before my mouth,
Could open to say,
You understood,
From my eyes’ sway.
Understanding my burden,
Knowing my weakness,
When needed, you offered,
Your shoulder with kindness,
When I was strong,
You stood aside,
But always close,
Never to hide.
No one has understood,
Me like you do,
No one knows my heart,
And sees me through,
Is this why you came,
Seeking me out?
Though divine, you served,
Without a doubt.
I’ve never met anyone,
Quite like you,
I don’t understand,
Why you do what you do,
But knowing the reason,
Matters not at all,
Even if known,
It wouldn’t stall.
You served the servants,
Lived helping those in need,
Seeking the needy,
In every good deed,
And knowing this wasn’t,
Enough for our plight,
You came to save us,
Shining your light.
Though sought by all,
As the divine,
You came to us,
Seeking to align,
Through this you made,
Yourself understood,
And made it our will,
To follow the good.
Accepting this truth,
I came as your slave,
To serve humbly,
And others to save,
Seeking the needy,
And helping in strife,
Serving and bowing,
To you all my life.
Mathigiri, 22-07-2019, 11:15 PM
BT Song 1112 Your Will
Verse 1
Without saying a word,
You stayed with me,
Knowing my needs,
Preparing before I asked,
At the right time,
You brought what I needed.
Verse 2
Until I came to speak,
You stood quietly,
Understanding my thoughts,
Even before I opened my mouth,
You understood from a glance.
Verse 3
Understanding all my burdens,
Knowing my weaknesses,
You offered your shoulder,
When I needed support,
And stepped back,
When I gained strength.
Verse 4
No one else understands me like you,
No one else knows my heart like you,
Is this why you came to me?
Even as God, you served me.
Verse 5
I have never seen anyone like you,
I don’t understand the reason for this,
But it doesn’t matter,
Even if I knew,
It wouldn’t change anything.
Verse 6
You served the servants,
Sought out those in need,
And realizing this wasn’t enough,
You gave yourself to save us.
Verse 7
Though you are the God everyone seeks,
Why did you come seeking us?
Through this, you made us understand you,
And made it our will too.
Verse 8
Accepting this,
I came to serve,
Stood ready to work,
Sought out those in need,
Served and bowed at your feet.
Mathigiri, 22-07-2019, 11.15 p.m.
BT Song 1113
See: https://dayanandbharati.in/oh-my-god-part-two/
BT Song 1113 Stands Beyond Limits
Buddhi not understanding,
Heart not experiencing,
Anybody can say in words,
Thousands of things.
How am I to convey,
About God,
Who came and
Dwells in my heart?
Though we comprehend,
Through the Veda,
Yet we haven’t discovered
The way to express about Him.
However we articulate,
Using words,
There’s no outlet
For the inner experience.
As I lived,
Unaware,
What exactly
Is my need.
He came willingly,
And resides quietly,
In my heart,
Without even divulging it.
He who transcends
All religions,
Yet accepted willingly
My limited heart.
When I asked who came within me,
‘Who are you?’
‘I am the Lord of mukti,
Whom you sought,’ he replied.
Though people
Speak thousands of names,
For God,
Who has no name?
He became Muktesan,
For me, granting
The liberation
I was seeking.
God who is
Without name or form,
Accepted that name
For my sake.
Though I worship Him,
By uttering that name,
Yet He remains
Beyond my intellect and heart.
Hence, unable to
Share more about it,
I will worship Him
Only in my spirit.
Mathigiri, 24-07-2019, 11:10 p.m.
BT Song 1113 Stands Beyond Limits
Buddhi not understanding
Heart not experiencing
Anybody can say in words
Thousands of things
How am I going to share
About God
Who came and
Dwells in my heart
Though we understood
Through the Veda
Still we didn’t find
The way to express about Him
However we share
By forming words
There is no let-out
For the inner experience
When I lived
Not even knowing
What actually
Is my requirement
He came voluntarily
And dwells silently
In my heart
Not even sharing about it
The one who
Transcends all religion
Still voluntarily accepted
My limited heart
When I asked who came within me
‘Who are you’?
‘I am the Lord of mukti
Which you sought’ he responded
Though people
Utter thousands of names
For God
Who does not have any name?
He became Muktesan
For me as he gave
The deliverance
Which I was seeking
God who is
Without any name and form
Accepted that name
For my sake
Though I worship him
By uttering that name
Still he stands
Beyond my buddhi and heart
Therefore unable to
Share much about it further
I will worship him
Only in my spirit
Mathigiri, 24-07-2019, 11:10 p.m.
BT Song 1114
Last night, due to a severe headache, I got up around 2:00 am. I could not sleep. I didn’t have the strength to get up from bed to do any work. After tossing and turning without sleep until 4:00 am, I got up with a murmur and made a cup of hot water to drink. Then I retired to bed and continued to toss without sleep until 5:30 am. I managed to sleep for 45 minutes and got up by 6:15 am to do my routine work. During the day, I couldn’t take proper rest. The whole day was almost wasted, unable to do my regular work. I couldn’t do my regular exercise, reading, walking, etc. Finally, at night, when I became irritated, before reading Muktiveda, I spoke to the Lord the first line in Tamil. To vent my anger, I first wrote this song except for the final stanza. After my regular readings, I went to bed after 12:00 am. But again, I got up at 2:00 am. Once I get up in the middle of the night, it takes me a few days to catch up on my regular sleep. Unable to sleep and unable to get up, I began to argue and fight with the Lord. Finally, I told Him that though He came as a human, He somehow forgot some basic needs for our life as He resumed His duty as God. Then I wrote the final stanza in my mind and completed the song this morning.
There is no reason for either God or me to blame my mind for this. I know it is the problem of my brain, which constantly thinks on various topics when I wake up in the middle of the night, refusing to let me catch my sleep again. In the past, I used to get up from bed and sit and type my thoughts to stop the disturbance of my brain. But these days, I cannot do it as I don’t have much strength left after doing every task in the house. The result is not only sleeplessness but also irritation and anger against God. Finally, He too owes some responsibility for a bhakta and is answerable to her. This kind of song is called ‘ninda stuti’—praising through blaming.
BT Song 1114: You Won’t Understand
When you don’t know my state,
Who can I complain to, where can I relate?
When you don’t reveal what I need to know,
Why should I waste my time, asking you though?
Have I ever asked for a miraculous sign?
Have I ever demanded what’s not mine?
For everyone, you provide naturally,
Why deny only me, tell me honestly.
Don’t say it’s all my fault, please,
Don’t stir up anger and unease.
Blaming the heart I can’t control,
Don’t push your responsibility onto my soul.
After giving everything for you to hold,
Don’t try to make me responsible, so bold.
Remember, I’m just a servant to your call,
Don’t ever forget this, not at all.
We can live without food or water for a while,
But without this, no one can survive a mile.
This natural law, so well defined,
I can’t explain it further to your mind.
Fine, you don’t understand my situation here,
You don’t even feel the need to care.
To the one who watches without a blink,
The value of sleep, you’ll never think.
Though you’re divine, yet human you became,
Forgetting human needs, isn’t it a shame?
Every day without rest or sleep,
Coming to you, my sorrow to keep.
Mathigiri, 28-07-2019, Night, 10:30 PM
BT Song 1114 You Won’t Understand
When you too don’t understand my condition,
To whom shall I go and complain?
When you refuse to give, knowing my need,
Why should I ask you unnecessarily?
Did I ever ask you to perform any miracle or wonder?
Did I ever ask for any unnecessary tasks?
As you bestow to everyone, which is part of nature,
Why do you deny only me? Better tell me that.
Don’t say that I am responsible for this.
Don’t unnecessarily provoke my irritation and anger
By blaming the mind which is not under my control.
Don’t shirk your responsibility.
Once I gave everything to you,
Don’t try to make me responsible for everything.
Never forget, even for a day,
That I am merely a slave who runs your errands.
We can manage to live for a few days without food and water,
But it is impossible for anyone to live without them.
I cannot say more about this to you,
Who has made this a part of nature.
It is true that you cannot understand this situation,
There is no need for that from you.
The one who protects us without blinking an eye,
You cannot understand the greatness of SLEEP.
Though you were a god and came as human,
Why did you forget this human need?
Is it mere waste for this slave to come and lament
Every day without sleep to you?
Mathigiri, 28-07-2019, 10:30 p.m.
BT Song 1115
As I was reading the following song by Purandaradasa, I wrote this song inspired by it:
Pamanavadare (PDS@ Vol. 1, no, 49, p. 161)
For him who takes God’s holy name
humiliation is most welcome
To one who takes God’s holy name
to be insulted is not to be shunned
Ego is built on respect others give you
your tapas is lost when you’re given respect
egoistic Duryodhana was ruined
but there’s no doubt about one who can take
respect and humiliation with equanimity
for one who says God’s holy name humiliation is welcome
Through humiliation one’s sadhana flourishes
One’s good deeds become fruitful when you’re humbled
because of trying tribulations and humiliations
Lord Vishnu came to save the child Dhurva
for him who takes the holy name humiliation is welcome
Where will I go, and what will I do?
As long as you are there O Vithala, Lord
of forest-dwelling yogis, protector of the poor
I don’t want for anything—except humiliation
–with humiliation I’m able to get you
so for him who takes God’s holy name
humiliation is most welcome.—p.82
@S.K. Ramachandra Rao, ed., Purandara Sahitya Darshna, Four Volumes, Bangalore, The Directorate of Kannada and Culture, Government of Karnataka, 1985
While in the bhakti tradition, humiliation is welcomed because of bhakti; in some sannyasa traditions, it is earned by deliberately acting in strange and violent ways so that others might humiliate and despise them, which will remove their past karmas and increase merit. See Thomas McEvilley, “Shape of Ancient Thought: Comparative Studies in Greek and Indian Philosophies,” Delhi, Motilal Banarsidass Publishers (2002), First Indian Edition, 2008, pp. 231-232 for ‘The tradition of the asceticism of dishonor’ (p. 231).
Though we need human relationships to live as humans, sometimes we need to seek the company of the Lord to have a personal relationship with Him, temporarily forgetting others to return with new strength to serve them. The same is the case with humiliation, which helps us to introspect and correct our faults.
BT Song 1115: I Came to Speak
Honor and disgrace,
Respect given face to face,
All from humans it seems,
Understanding these dreams.
Whatever may come my way,
Knowing it’s all the same each day,
In devotion’s warm embrace,
Finding your grace.
No place, no name,
No ties, no one to claim,
In this worldly race,
Thinking of your grace.
A life lived just for you,
Knowing this truth so pure and true,
Renouncing deeds that are wrong,
In my heart, you belong.
All actions left behind,
Thinking of you in my mind,
Holy one, I remember,
In my heart, you’re tender.
In solitude, I came alone,
Bowing at your throne,
Sitting by your side,
In your presence, I confide.
Wishing for moments like these,
For you to come and please,
Bonding with you this way,
Hoping you would stay.
Opening my heart to speak,
Joy within, I seek,
Filling my soul with delight,
With you, everything’s right.
Mathikiri, 2-8-2019, Night, 10:45 PM
BT Song 1111 பக்தி ஒன்றே வழி
பக்தியின் மேன்மையைப் புரிந்து கொண்டு
பக்தனாய் இருப்பதில் பெருமையும் கொண்டு
பக்தியால் தன்னையே நிறைத்து கொண்டு
பக்தனாய் வாழணும் தாழ்மையும் கொண்டு
பக்திக்கு மிஞ்சிய சாரமும் இல்லை
பக்தனாய் வாழ்வதில் பாரமும் இல்லை
முக்திக்கு இதைவிட பாதையும் இல்லை
முழுதாக அறிந்திட மார்க்கமும் இல்லை
வேத ஆகம சாத்திர மெல்லாம்
எளிய வழியினைக் காண்பிக்க வில்லை
வேண்டாத ஆய்வுகள் செய்தவர் எவரும்
விரும்பிய பதத்தை அடைவதும் இல்லை
எளிய பக்தியால் இதயத்தைத் திறந்து
இறைவனை உள்ளே வரும்படி அழைத்து
உடலோடு மனதை அவனுக்குத் தந்து
ஒன்றாக கலக்கணும் அவனுடன் இணைந்து
அன்பை கருவாக்கி அவனையும் அறிந்து
அகத்திலும் புறத்திலும் அவனுடன் வாழ்ந்து
பிரிவென ஒன்றை முற்றிலும் மறந்து
புவியினில் வாழணும் அவனடி பணிந்து
இதற்குத் தேவை ஒன்றே ஒன்றுதான்
அதுதான் பக்தி என்பதை உணர்ந்து
இதையன்றி வேறொன்றை நாடாதிருந்து
இதை அடையணும் அவனையே நினந்து
மத்திகிரி, 22-07-2019, இரவு, 10.45
BT Song 1112 உன் சித்தம்
ஏதும் பேசாமல்
என்னுடன் இருந்து
என் தேவைகள் எதுவென
என்பதும் தெரிந்து
கேட்கும் முன்பாக
ஆயத்தம் செய்து
நேரம் பார்த்து
கொண்டு சேர்த்தாய்
நானாக வந்து
பேசும் வரையில்
நீ ஏதும் பேசாமல்
அரைக்கட்டி நின்றாய்
சொல்ல வாயைத்
திறந்திடும் முன்னே
கண்ஜாடை அசைவிலே
கருத்தினைப் புரிந்தாய்
எனக்குள்ள பாரம்
அனைத்தையும் புரிந்து
என் பலவீனம்
அதனையும் தெரிந்து
தேவைப் போது
தோளும் தந்தாய்
தெம்புள்ள போது
விலகியும் நின்றாய்
இதுபோல என்னைப்
புரிந்தவர் இல்லை
என்னுள்ளம் அறிந்து
நடப்பவர் இல்லை
இதற்குத்தானோ
எனைத்தேடி வந்தாய்
இறைவனாய் இருந்தும்
பணிசெய்து நின்றாய்
இதுபோல எவரையும்
நான் கண்டதில்லை
இதற்கான காரணம்
புரியவும் இல்லை
ஆயினும் அதற்கு
அவசியம் இல்லை
அறிந்தாலும் அதனால்
பயனேதும் இல்லை
தொண்டர்க்குத் தொண்டு
செய்து வாழ்ந்தாய்
தேவை உள்ளோரை
நாடி சென்றாய்
இவைகள் மட்டும்
போதாது என்று
எம்மை மீட்க
உன்னை தந்தாய்
எல்லோரும் தேடும்
இறைவனாய் இருந்தும்
ஏனோ எம்மை
தேடியே வந்தாய்
இதன்மூலம் உன்னைப்
புரிய வைத்தாய்
இதையே எமக்கும்
சித்தமாய் வைத்தாய்
அதனை ஏற்று
அடிமையும் வந்தேன்
அரைகட்டி தொண்டு
செய்யவே நின்றேன்
தேவை உள்ளோரை
நாடி சென்றேன்
தொண்டு செய்து
உன்னடி பணிந்தேன்
மத்திகிரி, 22-07-2019, 11.15 p.m.
BT Song 1113 எல்லை கடந்தவன்
அறிவும் புரியாது
மனதும் உணராது
ஆயிரம் கூறலாம்
வார்த்தையில் யாவரும்
என்னுள்ளே வந்து
குடிகொண்ட இறைவனை
எவ்விதம் கூறுவேன்
வார்த்தையில் நானும்
வேதத்தின் மூலம்
விளங்கிய போதிலும்
வெளிச்சொல்லும் வழியோ
இதுவரை அறியோம்
எண்ணத்தை எழுத்தாக்கி
எப்படிக் கூறினும்
உள்ளூரும் உணர்வுக்கு
வடிகாலும் காணோம்
என்தேவை எதுவென
எனக்குத் தெரியாது
எதையோ தேடி
நான் வாழ்ந்த போது
அவனாக முன்வந்து
அதைக்கூடச் சொல்லாமல்
அமைதியாய் உள்வந்து
குடியும் கொண்டான்
மதங்களின் எல்லைகள்
கடந்து நின்றவன்
மனதின் எல்லையுள்
விரும்பி வந்தான்
வந்த நீ யாரென்று
நான் கேட்ட போதிலே
நீ தேடும் முக்தியின்
ஈசன் நான் என்றான்
ஆயிரம் நாமங்கள்
அவனியோர் கூறினும்
ஒருவித நாமமும்
இல்லாத இறைவனை
தேடிய விடுதலை
நாடி தந்ததால்
முக்தியின் ஈசன்
எனக்கு ஆனான்
பெயரின்றி உருவின்றி
விளங்கும் இறைவனும்
எனக்காக அப்பெயர்
ஏற்றுக்கொண்டான்
அதைக்கூறி நானும்
அவனை தொழுதாலும்
அறிவுக்கும் மனதுக்கும்
அப்பாலே உள்ளான்
ஆகவே இனிமேலே
அதைக்கூற இயலாது
ஆவியில் மட்டுமே
நான் தொழுவேன்
மத்திகிரி, 24-07-2019, இரவு, 11.10
BT Song 1114: உனக்குப் புரியாது
என்னிலை நீயே அறியாத போது
எவரிடம் சென்று முறையீடு செய்வது
எந்தேவை அறிந்து தராத போது
எதற்காக வீணாக உன்னிடம் கேட்பது
அற்புதம் அடையாளம் ஏதேனும் கேட்டேனா
அவசியம் இல்லாத காரியம் சொன்னேனா
எல்லோர்க்கும் இயற்கையாய் நீதரும் ஒன்றை
எனக்கு மட்டுமே மறுப்பதேன் சொல்லு
இதற்கு காரணம் நானே ஒன்றும் சொல்லாதே
எரிச்சலை கோபத்தை வீணாகக் கிளறாதே
என் வசம் இல்லாத மனதையும் குறைசொல்லி
உன் பொறுப்பினை நீ தட்டி கழிக்காதே
எல்லாமே உனக்கெனத் தந்ததின் பின்னாலே
என்னையே பொறுப்பாக்க நீயும் முயலாதே
ஏவலைச் செய்திடும் சேவகன் என்பதை
எந்நாளும் நீயும் எப்போதும் மறக்காதே
உணவின்றி நீரின்றி சிலகாலம் வாழலாம்
அதுவின்றி வாழ எவருக்குமே இயலாது
இயற்கையில் இந்த நியதியை வைத்த
உனக்கினிச் சொல்ல என்னாலே முடியாது
அதுசரி உனக்கிந்த நிலையும் புரியாது
அதற்கான தேவை உனக்கும் கிடையாது
கண்ணிமைக்காது காக்கின்ற உனக்கு
தூக்கத்தின் அருமை ஒருநாளும் புரியாது
தெய்வமாய் இருந்தும் மனிதனாய் வந்தும்
மனிதனின் தேவையை மறந்ததும் ஏனோ
அடிமையும் அனுதினம் தூக்கமும் இன்றி
உன்னிடம் வந்து புலம்புதல் வீணோ
மத்திக்கிரி, 28-07-2019, இரவு, 10.30
BT Song 1115: பேச வந்தேன்
மானம் அவமானம்
மரியாதை எல்லாம்
மனிதர் தருவது
என்பதை உணர்ந்து
எதுவந்த போதும்
எல்லாமே ஒன்று
என்பதை அறிந்து
பக்தியில் திளைத்து
ஊரின்றி பேரின்றி
உறவின்றி துணையின்றி
உலக வாழ்வில்
உன்னருள் நினைந்து
உனக்காக வாழும்
வாழ்க்கை ஒன்றுதான்
உன்னதம் ஆனது
என்பதைப் புரிந்து
புறம்பான செயல்கள்
அனைத்தையும் துறந்து
புனிதனே உன்னை
மனதிலே நினைந்து
தனிமையில் நானும்
உன்னிடம் வந்து
தாளினைப் பணிந்து
உன்னுடன் அமர்ந்து
இதுபோன்ற தருணம்
எப்போதும் வேண்டி
என்னோடு நீ வந்து
உறவாட வேண்டி
இதயம் திறந்து
பேச வந்தேன்
என்னுள் ஆனந்தம்
நிறைத்திட வந்தேன்
மத்திக்கிரி, 2-8-2019, இரவு, 10.45
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