BT Song 1206
Though we seek the presence and blessings of God, until He takes the initiative to come and fill our thoughts and minds, we cannot truly feel His presence and blessings, no matter how hard we try through various means and sadhana. I often realize that before I think about Him, He has already come and filled my thoughts, helping me enjoy His presence in my life. The way He pervades every part and activity of our life is remarkable. For me, there is no difference between mundane and spiritual life. As God pervades every part of life, He arranges for every need—physical, mental, moral, social, and spiritual. It’s essential to realize that He takes the initiative by dwelling in our thoughts and minds before we make any move.
BT Song 1206 BT Song 12BT Song 12You Fill My ThoughtsBT Song 12BT Song 12
Simple English Version
Coming on your own,
Filling my thoughts,
You give the bliss
That I seek.
You join me
In everything I do
In my
Everyday life.
Without any difference
Between inside and out,
You alone guide me
In all that I do.
To care for my body,
Providing food
And also rest,
You protect me.
Knowing the needs
Of heart and mind,
You arrange all activities
Accordingly.
To understand
The importance of human life,
You provide
Various relationships.
Additionally,
To know spiritual life,
You bestow your grace
By becoming a relative.
To rejoice
In that relationship,
You come on your own
And dwell in my thoughts.
Mathigiri, 31-5-2020, 11.45 p.m.
BT Song 1206 Thou Fillest My Thoughts
Classical English Version
Thou comest on thy own,
Filling my thoughts,
Thou givest the bliss
Which I seek.
Thou join’st me
In all I do
In the
Everyday life.
Without any difference
‘Twixt in and out,
Thou alone dost rule
All that I do.
To tend my body,
Providing sustenance
And also rest,
Thou dost protect me.
Knowing the needs
Of heart and intellect,
Thou arrangest all deeds
Accordingly.
To comprehend
The worth of human life,
Thou alone dost bestow
Various bonds.
Moreover,
To know the spiritual life,
Thou grantest thy grace
By becoming a kin.
To rejoice
In that bond,
Thou comest on thy own
And dwell’st in my thoughts.
Mathigiri, 31-5-2020, 11.45 p.m.
BT Song 1207
The problem with God is that when I demand certain things, He becomes very miserly and gives them sparingly. But when I don’t ask for certain things, He gives in abundance, thereby spoiling me. Today, I had a fight with the Lord, asking Him not to spoil me by giving too much of what I never asked for. But if He wants to be generous, there is one area where He needs to show His generosity—controlling my mind. It would be better for Him to consider this and give His grace in abundance without me asking. Hello God, are you listening to this?
BT Song 1207 Give Without Asking
Simple English Version
When I come and beg,
You give miserly.
When I don’t ask,
You give in abundance.
Should I beg?
Or should I keep quiet?
Not knowing this,
You make me confused.
Do I not know
What I need?
Is there anything wrong
With asking accordingly?
If you give on your own,
Won’t it become excess?
Won’t it create
More desire in me?
Don’t spoil me
By giving more than I require,
Then don’t blame me
Unnecessarily.
Don’t try me
By pampering me,
Then don’t get
More trouble because of that.
All that I need
For everyday life,
If you provide them,
That is enough for me.
If you want to show
Excess of your love,
There is a need for that
In one area.
To control the
Uncontrollable mind,
Giving your extra grace
Is good for me.
But what is the use
Of asking for that?
You become miserly
Only in that area alone.
How many times
Do I have to repeat the same?
Therefore it is better
If you give me without asking for it.
Mathigiri, 2-6-2020, 10.30 p.m.
BT Song 1207 Give Without Asking
When I come and plead,
Thou givest sparingly.
When I ask not,
Thou givest abundantly.
Should I entreat?
Or should I stay silent?
Uncertain of this,
Thou makest me perplexed.
Know I not
What my need be?
Is there aught wrong
In asking duly?
If thou giv’st unbidden,
Would it not be excess?
Would it not foster
Greater desire in me?
Spoil me not
By giving more than my need,
Then blame me not
Unjustly.
Try me not
With overindulgence,
Then bring not
More trouble thereby.
All I require
For daily life,
If thou providest,
That sufficeth for me.
If thou wouldst show
Excess of thy love,
There is need for that
In one realm.
To master the
Unruly mind,
Granting thy extra grace
Is well for me.
But what profit
In asking for that?
Thou art miserly
In that alone.
How many times
Must I repeat this plea?
Therefore, ’tis better
If thou giv’st unasked.
Mathigiri, 2-6-2020, 10.30 p.m.
BT Song 1208
Generally, most of my writings address questions I raise to myself. While revising another chapter in “Living Dialogue” (on Canon), I was overwhelmed as many new questions began to challenge my reason. For me, my simple bhakti in the Lord, trusting Him, is more than enough compared to wrestling with numerous theological issues. Of course, we cannot avoid theology, and we need it. But without the help of theologians, a layperson like me cannot understand it. At the same time, the way theologians present so many alternative views often confuses me rather than providing clear guidance. So, after completing my revision and feeling overwhelmed by new questions, I thought it best not to share this chapter or any further chapters, particularly those related to theology, with anyone. I am not confident about what I wrote, and since so many questions remain unanswered, I decided it was better to give up reflecting on such topics and recording them.
During my evening walk, while reflecting on this subject, I began to talk to the Lord. At that moment, the first line of this song came as inspiration. I immediately recorded the first two stanzas of this song on my mobile, and later that night, during my meditation time, I completed the song.
BT Song 1208 Bhakti is Enough
Simple English Version
Though I have sight,
I become a blind person.
Though the path is visible,
I refuse to walk on it.
Though you spoke
Very clearly,
I asked so many
Unnecessary questions.
Keeping the butter
On the crane’s head,
When the sun rises,
The melting butter blinds its eyes.
I tried to
Catch it,
To redeem me,
You spoke
In simple language.
But ignoring your words,
I tried to
Analyze with my intellect,
Doing simple bhakti,
Worshipping you always.
Ignoring those
Who serve others,
Keeping others’ welfare
In their minds,
Reading
So many books,
Doing research
Diligently on them,
Many tried
To make us understand,
By using so many
Magical words.
Running after
Their intellect,
Though I tried
To understand them,
As my intellect
Refused to grasp,
I understood
My limitations.
Then my
Inner eyes opened,
And I saw you
Who dwells within me.
Following you,
Who asked me
To come after you,
I am redeemed.
Simple bhakti
Is enough
To understand your grace.
As my eyes of wisdom opened,
I learned to
Walk in your way.
Mathigiri, 4-6-2020, 11.30 p.m.
BT Song 1208 Bhakti Sufficeth
Classical English Version
Though I have sight,
Yet I am blind.
Though the path is clear,
I refuse to tread it.
Though thou spakest
Most plainly,
I posed so many
Needless questions.
Placing the butter
On the crane’s head,
When the sun ariseth,
The melting butter blinds its eyes.
I sought to
Grasp it,
To redeem me,
Thou spakest
In simple tongue.
But ignoring thy words,
I sought to
Analyze with my intellect,
Practicing simple bhakti,
Worshiping thee always.
Ignoring those
Who serve others,
Mindful of others’ welfare,
Reading many books,
Delving into research
Diligently,
Many sought
To make us understand,
Employing words
Full of magic.
Chasing after
Their intellect,
Though I strove
To comprehend,
My intellect failed,
And I saw my limits.
Then mine
Inner eyes opened,
Beholding thee
Who dwelleth within me.
Following thee,
Who called me
To follow,
I am redeemed.
Simple bhakti
Sufficeth
To grasp thy grace.
As mine eyes of wisdom opened,
I learned to
Walk in thy way.
Mathigiri, 4-6-2020, 11.30 p.m.
BT Song 1209
One reason I pray to the Lord is to unload my burdens upon Him. Of course, He knows even before I ask or tell Him. But more than that, I need to pray so that I can share all my thoughts with Him. I don’t know about others, but for me, constant communication and sharing every thought and frustration help a lot to unload my heart’s burden. Though I can share some of my thoughts with others, it’s my communication with the Lord, even if it’s just babbling, that is a blessing for me.
BT Song 1209 I Need to Share
Simple English Version
Is there any relationship
Without having rights?
Is there any heart
Without sensibility?
I came seeking your relationship
Because of my rights,
Overcome by my senses,
I opened my heart.
There are thousands of messages
For me to share with you.
My heart is longing
To share with you,
But my heart hesitates,
Thinking that
Won’t you know
Before I share?
But I need to share
Even if you already know.
My burden will go
Only when I share.
Though you give
Without me asking,
I will be satisfied
Only when I receive after asking.
There is no use
In sharing with others.
They don’t have the
Ability to understand me.
As you have the capacity
To understand me,
I come to share;
There is no other alternative.
Mathigiri, 10-6-2020, 11.00 p.m.
BT Song 1209 I Need to Share
Classical English Version
Is there any bond
Without having rights?
Is there any heart
Without sensibility?
I sought thy bond
Because of my rights,
Overcome by my senses,
I opened my heart.
There are myriad messages
For me to share with thee.
My heart doth long
To share with thee,
But my heart doth hesitate,
Thinking thus:
Dost thou not know
Before I share?
But I must share
Even if thou knowest already.
My burden shall lift
Only when I share.
Though thou givest
Unasked,
I shall be content
Only when I receive after asking.
There is no use
In sharing with others.
They lack the
Capacity to understand me.
As thou hast the power
To understand me,
I come to share;
There is no other course.
Mathigiri, 10-6-2020, 11.00 p.m.
BT Song 12010
The unstable mind is my constant problem. Whenever I try to meditate, all kinds of thoughts come and disturb me. Though I try my best to overcome it, I often fail. But like dvesha bhakti (bhakti of hate), where the person who hates God always thinks about Him, this unstable mind is also a blessing in disguise for me. As I get frustrated by this chanchal (restless) mind, I often disturb the Lord, asking for His help to overcome it. In a way, it becomes the pretext for me to think of the Lord often. So, as the Lord alone gives thoughts and becomes the subject of those thoughts, even this chanchal mind is a thought from Him for me to think about Him frequently.
BT Song 1210 Frustration/Chanchal is Good
Simple English Version
You become my thought,
The object of my thought.
When I worship your feet,
You fill my heart.
When I come seeking you,
When I worship you,
Then thousands of thoughts
Come like waves.
As my mind gets tossed
Like dust on the waves,
You overcome the waves
And give me peace.
But with a
Restless heart,
I often lose
The peace you give.
Thus I lead
A life of struggle,
With a heart
That never stays steady.
But there is no
Remedy within my grasp.
Unless you come and redeem me,
There is no salvation for me.
You come and redeem me
Again and again,
This becomes
A pattern in my life.
Yet considering
The benefit in this,
I will not be
Greatly disturbed by it.
As you always
Watch over me,
I would say
Even this restlessness is good.
Using it
As an excuse,
I will often come to you
To complain about it.
Because of this,
As I think only of you,
I will only
Always think of you.
Mathigiri, 17-6-2020, 11.00 p.m.
BT Song 1210 Frustration/Chanchal is Good
Classical English Version
Thou art my thought,
The object of my thought.
When I worship thy feet,
Thou dost fill my heart.
When I seek thee,
When I worship thee,
Then myriad thoughts
Come as waves.
As my mind is tossed
Like dust upon the waves,
Thou dost conquer the waves
And bring peace to me.
But with a
Restless heart,
I oft lose
The peace thou givest.
Thus I live
A life of strife,
With a heart
That ne’er stays still.
Yet there is no
Remedy within my grasp.
Unless thou come and redeem me,
There is no salvation for me.
Thou dost come and redeem me
Time and again,
This doth become
A cycle in my life.
Yet considering
The benefit therein,
I shall not be
Unduly troubled by it.
As thou dost ever
Keep watch over me,
I would say
Even this restlessness is good.
Making it
An excuse,
I shall often come to thee
To lament about it.
For this reason,
As I think only of thee,
I shall think
Only of thee always.
Mathigiri, 17-6-2020, 11.00 p.m.
BT Song 1206 நினைவில் நிறைகிறாய்
நீயாக வந்து
நினைவெல்லாம் நிறைந்து
நான்தேடும் ஆனந்தம்
அனுதினம் தருகிறாய் 1
அனுதின வாழ்வில்
செய்திடும் செயல்கள்
அனைத்திலும் என்னுடன்
இணைந்து கொள்கிறாய் 2
அகம் புறமென்ற
பேதமில்லாமல்
அனைத்திலும் நீயே
ஆளுகை செய்கிறாய் 3
உடல்நலம் பேண
உண்டு உறங்க
ஓய்வும் தந்து
என்னைக் காக்கிறாய் 4
மனத்துடன் அறிவின்
தேவையை அறிந்து
அதற்கேற்ற செயல்கள்
அமைத்தும் தருகிறாய் 5
மனித வாழ்வின்
அவசியம் புரிய
பலவித உறவுகள்
நீயே தருகிறாய் 6
அத்துடன் ஆன்மா
வழியை அறிய
நீயே உறவாகி
வந்து அருள்கிறாய் 7
அந்த உறவிலே
அனுதினம் மகிழ
நீயாக வந்து
நினைவில் நிறைகிறாய் 8
மத்திகிரி, 31-5-2020, இரவு, 11.45
BT Song 1207 கேட்காமல் தா
கையேந்தி வந்தால்
கிள்ளி தருகிறாய்
கேட்காமல் இருந்தால்
அள்ளி தருகிறாய் 1
கையேந்தி வருவதா
கேட்காமல் இருப்பதா
என்று புரியாமல்
குழம்ப வைக்கிறாய் 2
என்தேவை எதுவென
எனக்குத் தெரியாதா
அதன்படி கேட்பதில்
தவறேதும் உள்ளதா 3
நீயாகத் தரும்போது
மிதமிஞ்சிப் போகாதா
அதனாலே என்னுள்ளே
பேராசை வாராதா 4
தேவைக்கு மிஞ்சி
தந்து கெடுக்காதே
அதன்பின் என்மீது
வீண்குறை சொல்லாதே 5
செல்லம் தந்தென்னைச்
சோதனை செய்யாதே
அதன்பின்னே வீணாக
வேதனைப் படாதே 6
அன்றாட வாழ்வுக்கு
எவையெல்லாம் வேண்டும்
அவைமட்டும் அளந்து
நீதந்தால் போதும் 7
அதிகமாய் அன்பினைக்
காட்ட விழைந்தால்
அதற்கான அவசியம்
ஒன்றிலே உள்ளது 8
அடங்காத மனதை
அடக்கி வைக்க
அதிகமாய் உன்னருள்
தருவதும் நல்லது 9
ஆனால் அதைநான்
கேட்டென்ன செய்வது
அதில்மட்டும் உன்கை
குறுகியேன் போகுது 10
எத்தனை முறைதான்
இதைநான் சொல்வது
கேட்காமல் இனிநீ
தந்தால் நல்லது 11
மத்திகிரி, 2-6-2020, இரவு, 10.30
BT Song 1208 பக்தி போதும்
பார்வை இருந்தும்
குருடன் ஆனேன்
பாதை தெரிந்தும்
நடக்க மறுத்தேன்
தெளிவாய் நீயும்
சொன்ன பின்னும்
தேவை இலாக்
கேள்வி கேட்டேன் 1
கொக்கின் தலைமேல்
வெண்ணை வைத்து
வெய்யில் ஏறி
உருக்கும் போது
கண்ணின் பார்வை
மறைந்து போக
தாவிப் பாய்ந்து
பிடிக்கப் பார்த்தேன் 2
என்னை மீட்க
எண்ணம் கொண்டு
எளிய மொழியில்
எடுத்துச் சொன்ன
உனது வார்த்தை
அதனை விடுத்து
அறிவு கொண்டு
ஆய்ந்து பார்த்தேன் 3
எளிய பக்தி
செய்து கொண்டு
என்றும் உன்னைப்
பணிந்து கொண்டு
பிறரின் நலத்தை
மனதில் கொண்டு
சேவை செய்வோர்
தன்னை விடுத்து 4
நூல்கள் பலவும்
படித்துப் பார்த்து
நுட்பமாகப் பின்
ஆய்ந்து வைத்து
வார்த்தை தன்னில்
வித்தை காட்டி
விளங்க வைக்க
முயற்சி செய்தார் 5
அவரின் அறிவின்
பின்னே ஓடி
அறிந்து கொள்ள
முயன்று பார்க்க
எனது அறிவு
புரிய மறுக்க
புரிந்து கொண்டேன்
எனது எல்லை 6
அதன்பின் எனது
கண்கள் திறக்க
அகத்தில் இருந்த
உன்னைக் கண்டு
என்பின் வா
என்று சொன்ன
உன்பின் வந்து
உய்வும் அடைந்தேன் 7
எளிய பக்தி
ஒன்றும் போதும்
உனது அருளை
விளங்கிக் கொள்ள
அதன்பின் ஞானக்
கண்கள் திறக்க
அறிந்து கொண்டேன்
உன்வழியில் நடக்க 8
மத்திகிரி, 4-6-2020, இரவு, 11.30
BT Song 1209 சொல்லத்தான் வேண்டும்
உரிமை இல்லாத
உறஒன்று உண்டோ
உணர்வு இல்லாத
மனமொன்று உண்டோ
உறவினை நாடி
உரிமையில் வந்தேன்
உணர்வு பொங்க
மனதைத் திறந்தேன் 1
சொல்ல ஆயிரம்
சேதி உள்ளது
உன்னிடம் சொல்ல
மனது தவிக்குது
ஆயினும் உனக்குத்
தெரியாத ஒன்றா
என்று எண்ண
என்மனம் தயங்குது 2
தெரிந்தாலும் உனக்குச்
சொல்லத்தான் வேண்டும்
சொன்னால்தான் என்மனப்
பாரம் நீங்கும்
கேட்காமல் நீயும்
தருகின்ற போதும்
கேட்டுப் பெற்றால்தான்
என்மனம் ஆறும் 3
பிறரிடம் சொல்லிப்
பயனும் இல்லை
புரிந்திடும் திராணி
அவருக்கு இல்லை
புரிந்திடும் தகுதி
உனக்கு உள்ளதால்
சொல்ல வருகிறேன்
வழிவேறு இல்லை 4
மத்திகிரி, 10-6-2020, இரவு, 11.00
BT Song 12010 சஞ்சலம் நல்லது
நெஞ்சினில் நினைவானாய்
நினைவுக்குக் கருவானாய்
திருவடி தொழும்போது
மனதினில் நீநிறைந்தாய் 1
உனைத்தேடி வரும்போது
உன்னடி தொழும்போது
ஆயிரம் எண்ணங்கள்
அலையென வரும்போது 2
அலைமீது துரும்பென
சிந்தையும் அலைமோத
அலைதனை அடக்கியே
அமைதியும் தருகிறாய் 3
ஆயினும் சஞ்சலம்
குணமது கொண்டுமே
நீதரும் அமைதியை
அடிக்கடி இழந்தேனே 4
அதனால் நானுமே
நிலையில்லா மனதோடு
போராடி வாழும்
வாழ்க்கையைக் கொண்டேனே 5
இதற்கான விடிவுமோ
என்வசம் இல்லையே
நீயாக மீட்காமல்
மீட்பெனக் கில்லையே 6
நீவந்து மீட்பதும்
நான்மீண்டும் வீழ்வதும்
வாடிக்கை நிகழ்வாகப்
போனது இங்குமே 7
ஆயினும் இதனாலே
வந்திடும் பயனாலே
அடிக்கடி வீழினும்
நானுமே கலங்கேனே 8
எப்போதும் என்மீது
உன்கண் இருப்பதால்
சஞ்சலம் ஒருவிதம்
நல்லதே என்பேனே 9
அதையொரு சாக்காக்கி
அடிக்கடி உன்னிடம்
முறையீடு செய்திட
நானுமே வருவேனே 10
அதனால் எப்போதும்
உன்னையே எண்ணிட
எப்போதும் உன்னையே
நானுமே நினைப்பேனே 11
மத்திகிரி, 17-6-2020, இரவு, 11.00
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