BT Song 1311
As I was reading again about the complicated topic of atman—relating to essence, mind, etc., I realized one thing. No matter how scholarly the authors might be and how much they try to help us understand this complex subject, the true nature of the inner being still evades everyone’s comprehension. As Sir Francis Younghusband, K.C.I.E., K.C.S.I., C.I.E., says in his foreword to the book A Search in Secret India by Dr. Paul Brunton (p. 7, B.I. Publications Pvt Ltd, New Delhi, 1934; Reprint, 1989), “The sure instinct of the human soul is to keep them withdrawn in the inmost recesses, accessible to few—perhaps to none.”—p. 7
BT Song1311 Inner Heart – Simple English Version
1.
No matter how philosophy
Clearly tells us the truth,
And no matter how much
Science gives explanations,
2.
Understanding the
Nature of the inner heart
Won’t be that easy
For everyone.
3.
When intelligence says one thing,
The mind will reject it,
Seeing this struggle,
The heart will be troubled.
4.
In between,
The soul for its part,
Will add to the confusion
By sharing many philosophies.
5.
Who knows which one is the heart?
And which one is the mind?
However explained,
Who can understand it?
6.
However hard we try
With various illustrations,
In the end,
The heart will remain confused.
7.
Transcending both
Philosophy and Science,
Seeking a state
Where ignorance can’t reach,
8.
Like a child
Without any confusion,
Giving up all
Kinds of philosophies,
9.
Once we reach the state
Of being like a baby,
The inner heart will become
Very clear for everyone.
Gurukulam, 3-12-2021, 11.45 p.m.
BT Song1311 Inner Heart – Classical English Version
1.
Though philosophy may clearly tell,
And science explanations impart,
Understanding the inner heart well,
Is not an easy art.
2.
To grasp the heart’s nature,
Is a challenge profound,
Not easily achieved
By all men around.
3.
When wisdom speaks truth,
And mind casts it away,
The heart, troubled in youth,
Finds itself in dismay.
4.
Between them, the soul,
With its own voice of lore,
Adds further confusion,
With philosophies more.
5.
Who truly discerns
The heart from the mind?
Though explanations abound,
Who comprehension can find?
6.
Though we try to explain,
With diverse illustration,
The heart, in the end,
Finds only confusion.
7.
Beyond science and thought,
We seek a state pure,
Where ignorance reaches not,
And wisdom is sure.
8.
Like a child unconfused,
Abandoning all strife,
Casting aside all doctrines,
Embracing simple life.
9.
When this state is attained,
To remain like the youth,
The inner heart’s clarity,
Shall reveal the pure truth.
Gurukulam, 3-12-2021, 11.45 p.m.
BT Song 1312
As an infant does not know anything else in this world other than its mother, there is no need for it to know how to ask its mother for its needs. Of course, when the need arises, it will cry, which the mother will recognize. But once it is completely immersed in the world of its mother, it lives in that bliss without knowing anything else. The same is the case with a bhakta. As a fish lives naturally in the water, she lives in the care of her Bhagavan. So once she becomes like an infant, she will only enjoy the bliss of bhakti in her life, not even knowing how to ask for the grace of God to continue that bliss in her life.
BT Song1312 Forgot to Ask – Simple English Version
1.
I have nothing more
To say further,
There is no need
For me to say anything.
2.
When you lead me,
Knowing all my needs,
I don’t need to ask
For anything specifically.
3.
I become like an infant
That doesn’t know its needs,
With you, my mother, there,
I am unaware of it.
4.
When I find joy
In living like this,
I don’t know how to
Think separately.
5.
To the infant
That knows only its mother,
There exists
No separate world.
6.
It never finds
Separate joy,
As it has a relationship
Full of affection with its mother.
7.
Once I attained
That kind of experience,
What else should I seek?
I cannot understand.
8.
But I need
Your grace
To not miss that experience,
That’s all I know.
9.
You should bestow
That abundantly,
I came to you
Only to ask for that.
10.
When you are there
To give before I ask,
I even forgot
To ask for it.
Gurukulam, 13-12-2021, 10.15 p.m.
BT Song1312 Forgot to Ask – Classical English Version
1.
I have no more
Words to convey,
There is no need
For me to say.
2.
When you lead me,
Knowing my every need,
I need not ask
For anything indeed.
3.
Like an infant
Unaware of its plight,
With you, my mother,
All is right.
4.
When joy I find
In this simple living,
I do not know
To think with misgiving.
5.
To the infant
Knowing only its mother,
There exists
No world another.
6.
Separate joy
It never perceives,
For with its mother
Affection achieves.
7.
When such an experience
I attain,
What else to seek
I cannot explain.
8.
Yet I need
Your grace to stay,
To not lose this joy,
In any way.
9.
Grant this grace
In abundant measure,
I came to you
For this treasure.
10.
When you bestow
Before I implore,
I even forgot
To ask for more.
Gurukulam, 13-12-2021, 10.15 p.m.
BT Song 1313
In the End, Only Experience
BT Song1313 Questions Without Answer – Simple English Version
1.
In this world
Where we search for answers,
You made me live
Without needing any answer.
2.
You changed all
The answers I received
Back into
Questions for me.
3.
In this game,
Which seems like a riddle,
I never found
A final answer.
4.
Once you came
As the answer in my life,
The questions
Never became less.
5.
I don’t have
Proper answers
For all the
Questions you ask.
6.
Though I found
Answers to my questions,
The confusion
Has not yet left my heart.
7.
But this is indeed
True in life,
I clearly
Understood this.
8.
Whether I am confused or
Get a clear answer,
As long as you remain,
I will live accepting you as my answer.
Gurukulam, 15-12-2021, 11.15 p.m.
BT Song1313 Questions Without Answer – Classical English Version
1.
In this world
Where answers are sought,
You have made me live
Without the need for thought.
2.
You transformed
The answers I did receive
Back into questions,
Hard to conceive.
3.
In this riddle,
This puzzling game,
A final answer
I never did claim.
4.
When you appeared
As the answer to my strife,
The questions remained,
No end to this life.
5.
Proper answers
I do not possess
For all the questions
You seem to address.
6.
Though answers I found
To my own queries,
Confusion persists,
The heart still wearies.
7.
Yet this is the truth,
The reality of life,
I have come to understand
Despite all the strife.
8.
Whether clarity I gain
Or confusion I endure,
As long as you stay,
I accept you as the answer, sure.
Gurukulam, 15-12-2021, 11.15 p.m.
BT Song 1314
I had a long talk with my nephew, Krupa, about shifting my mother to Chennai, close to his house, so that my sister and he can take care of her. I gave him various options. He agreed that she needs to be shifted to Chennai, either to live with them or near them. He also ruled out the option of sending her to any old age home. I asked him to discuss this with his parents and wife.
That night, as I was thinking about it, I realized that, as my sister and many others have said, I tend to rush things and never have patience. This is true. But when my patience is running out due to tiredness in both body and mind, I sometimes rush and make quick decisions. In the past, I have done several such things. But before and after making the decision, I pray to the Lord to do only His will, even though I remain impatient in my decision. As I was contemplating my impatience and the present scenario of taking care of my mother alone with my back pain, I felt I had no other option but to do this. But as usual, I can complain about it to the Lord, and I have done it again through this song. If He has His own plan, there is no use in lamenting further. But because of this, I cannot let Him go that easily and will continue to pester Him by continuously lamenting.
BT Song1314 Become Tired – Simple English Version
1.
Tell me that
Which is your will,
Set aside all
My other noises.
2.
Please listen
With much patience
To all that this poor
Fool laments.
3.
Whatever might be
My efforts,
The end result
Should be yours.
4.
Whichever my
Heart seeks,
I need your
Consent in that.
5.
Though I have
Written this much easily,
That is not possible for me,
That I know very well.
6.
As you know
My nature well,
If you do accordingly,
I will find peace.
7.
But there is also
A time for that,
And that time
Is with you.
8.
Though you have
Uttered this many times,
Now I plead with you
To bestow it quickly.
9.
I don’t have
The patience that you have,
I don’t need to give
A reason for that.
10.
Even I don’t have
The energy to tell that,
I have become
Very tired.
11.
There is no use
In telling further
If you don’t have
Mercy upon me.
12.
But if this becomes
Your will for me,
There is no use
In lamenting further.
13.
But can I let you go
That easily because of that?
I will continue to do the same,
As there is no other option left for me.
Gurukulam, 17-12-2021, 11.30 p.m.
BT Song1314 Become Tired – Classical English Version
1.
Tell me that
Which is your will,
Set aside all
My clamorous thrill.
2.
With patience, please listen
To this poor fool’s plight,
Lamentations that echo
In the quiet of night.
3.
Whatever the efforts
My hands might deploy,
The end should be yours,
The source of my joy.
4.
Whatever my heart
Desires to obtain,
Your consent in all
I must surely gain.
5.
Though these words
I write with such ease,
To achieve them myself,
I know is a tease.
6.
Knowing my nature
As well as you do,
If you act in accord,
Peace will ensue.
7.
But timing for this
Is within your command,
And that time lies solely
Within your hand.
8.
Though you’ve spoken this truth
Many times in the past,
I plead you to grant
My wish at last.
9.
I lack the patience
You so calmly possess,
A reason for this
I need not express.
10.
I am so weary,
I cannot explain,
Tiredness grips me,
It is my refrain.
11.
There’s no use in speaking
If your mercy is withheld,
My pleas would be empty,
My heart would be felled.
12.
If this is your will,
My lament is in vain,
I’ll cease my complaints,
Though they cause me such pain.
13.
Yet can I let go
And easily depart?
No, I’ll persist,
For it’s my only art.
Gurukulam, 17-12-2021, 11.30 p.m.
BT Song 1315
Again, I faced some kind of wrestle with my mind about several issues. Even though I try to rationalize my thoughts and actions, I still realize that I don’t have control over my mind, which goes its own way. So, I have to go and wrestle with the Lord, as He alone created me with this nature.
BT Song 1315 Many-Sided Struggle – Simple English Version
1.
I laughed
Within me,
Thinking about
The nature of my mind.
2.
But as this
Became habitual,
I also
Accepted it as normal.
3.
I let
It go
In its
Own way.
4.
I thought that
It would come to rest
Once it became tired
After wandering too much.
5.
But it seems that
It is not going
To stop wandering
On its own.
6.
Therefore, taking
Pity on it,
I decided to give
Some rest to it.
7.
I talked to it
With much affection
And tried to control it
By rebuking it.
8.
However I tried,
I could not tame it.
I don’t think that
It will rest on its own.
9.
Therefore I came
As usual unto you,
As you were the
Reason even for this.
10.
Creating me
With this nature,
What benefit
Do you receive?
11.
If you give
Deliverance from this,
What are you going to lose?
Better tell me that.
12.
I struggle each day
With my mind,
And I argue with you
For the same.
13.
Thinking that
What kind of life this is,
I found only
This alone as the result.
14.
As I am used to
Many-sided struggle,
I have even accepted
This calmly.
Gurukulam, 18-12-2021, 10.15 p.m.
BT Song 1315 Many-Sided Struggle – Classical English Version
1.
I laughed within
As thoughts did twine,
Pondering deep
This mind of mine.
2.
Yet as it became
A habitual plight,
I embraced its nature
As normal, quite.
3.
I let it wander
In its own way,
Hoping it might
Find rest one day.
4.
I thought it would rest
When tired at last,
After its wandering
Had fully passed.
5.
But it appears
Its roaming won’t cease,
It won’t find
Its own release.
6.
Therefore, pitying
Its endless quest,
I sought to grant it
Some needed rest.
7.
I spoke to it
With tender care,
Attempting to tame it
With loving flair.
8.
Yet all my efforts
Were in vain,
I saw that rest
It would not gain.
9.
Thus, I turned to you
As I always do,
For even this turmoil
Is caused by you.
10.
Creating me
With such a mind,
What gain in this
Do you find?
11.
If deliverance from this
You grant to me,
What loss, then,
Would there be?
12.
Each day I wrestle
With my thought,
And with you,
My pleas are fraught.
13.
Pondering life’s
Puzzling art,
I find this struggle
Is my part.
14.
Accustomed now
To struggle’s face,
I accept it calmly,
In your grace.
Gurukulam, 18-12-2021, 10.15 p.m.
BT Song 1311 – உள்மனம்
மெய்ஞானம் எத்தனை
தெளிவாகச் சொன்னாலும்
விஞ்ஞானம் எத்தனை
விளக்கங்கள் தந்தாலும்
உள்மன ஓட்டத்தை
உள்ளபடி அறிவது
அத்தனை எளிதாக
அனைவர்க்கும் வாராது
அறிவொன்று சொல்ல
மனம் அதை மறுக்கும்
இதைக் கண்டு இதயம்
கலங்கித் தவிக்கும்
இடையினில் ஆன்மா
தனது பங்காக
தத்துவம் பல கூறி
திகைக்க வைக்கும்
அறிவெது மனமெது
அறிந்தவர் யாரு
எப்படிச் சொன்னாலும்
புரிபவர் யாரு
உவமைகள் பல கூறிப்
புரிய வைத்தாலும்
இறுதியில் இதயம்
குழம்பிடும் பாரு
மெய்ஞானம் விஞ்ஞானம்
அனைத்தையும் தாண்டி
அஞ்ஞானம் அண்டாத
நிலைதனை வேண்டி
குழந்தைபோல் மனதில்
குழப்பங்கள் இன்றி
தத்துவம் அனைத்தையும்
முற்றாக நீக்கி
சேய்போல் இருக்கும்
நிலைதனை அடைந்தால்
உள்மனம் விளங்கிடும்
அனைவர்க்கும் தன்னால்
குருகுலம், 3-12-2021, இரவு, 11.45
BT Song 1312 – கேட்க மறந்தேன்
இனி சொல்ல என்னிடம்
ஏதுமே இல்லை
எதையும் சொல்லத்
தேவையும் இல்லை
என் தேவை அறிந்து
நீயும் நடத்தையில்
தனியாகக் கேட்கத்
தேவையே இல்லை
தன் தேவையை அறியாத
மழலை போல் ஆனேன்
தாய்நீ இருக்கையில்
அதைப்பற்றி அறியேன்
இதுபோல் வாழ்வதில்
சுகம் கண்ட பின்பு
தனியாகச் சிந்திக்க
நானுமே அறியேன்
தன் தாயை மட்டுமே
அறிந்த சேய்க்கு
உலகென்று தனியாக
இருப்பது இல்லை
தாயோடு சீராட்டி
அவளோடு உறவாட
தனியொரு ஆனந்தம்
அது காண்பது இல்லை
அதுபோன்ற அனுபவம்
அடைந்த பின்னாலே
வேறெதைத் தேட
புரியவும் இல்லை
ஆயினும் அதனை
இழக்காமல் இருக்க
அருளும் தேவை
அதை மட்டும் அறிவேன்
அதையே நீயும்
குறைவின்றித் தரணும்
அதையே கேட்க
நானும் வந்தேன்
கேட்கும் முன்பாகத்
தரநீ இருக்கையில்
அதைக் கூட நானும்
கேட்க மறந்தேன்
குருகுலம், 13-12-2021, இரவு, 10.15
BT Song 1313 – விடையில்லா கேள்விகள்
விடை தேடி அலைகின்ற
உலக வாழ்வில்
விடை தேவை இன்றி
வாழ வைத்தாய்
பதிலாகக் கண்ட
விடைகள் அனைத்தையும்
கேள்வியாய் மீண்டும்
மாற்றி தந்தாய்
புதிரான இந்த
விளையாட்டில் மட்டும்
முடிவான விடையொன்றை
நான்காணவில்லை
விடையாக என்வாழ்வில்
நீ வந்த பின்னும்
கேள்விகள் மட்டும்
குறைந்திடவில்லை
நீ கேட்கும் அனைத்து
கேள்விகள் தனக்குச்
சரியான விடையொன்றும்
என்னிடம் இல்லை
நான் கேட்ட கேள்விக்கு
விடைகண்ட போதும்
குழப்பம் மனதில்
நீங்கவும் இல்லை
ஆனாலும் இதுதான்
வாழ்வில் உண்மை
என்பதை மட்டும்
தெளிவாக அறிந்தேன்
தெளிந்தாலும் மருண்டாலும்
நீ உள்ள மட்டும்
உன்னை விடையாக
ஏற்று வாழ்வேன்
குருகுலம், 15-12-2021, இரவு, 11.15
BT Song 1314 – களைத்தேன்
உன் சித்தம் எதுவோ
அதை மட்டும் சொல்லு
என் சத்தம் எதுவோ
அதையும் நீ தள்ளு
புரியாத பேதை
புலம்பிடும் அனைத்தையும்
பொறுமையாய் நீயும்
ஏற்று கொள்ளு
முயற்சிகள் எத்தனை
நான் செய்தாலும்
முடிவு உனதாய்
இருந்திட வேண்டும்
மனம் எதனை
நாடிய போதும்
அதிலும் உனது
சம்மதம் வேண்டும்
எளிதாக இதனை
எழுதிய போதும்
என்னாலே இயலாது
என்பதை அறிவேன்
எனது இயல்பை
அறிந்த நீயும்
அதன்படி செய்தால்
அமைதியும் காண்பேன்
ஆயினும் அதற்கும்
நேரம் ஒன்று
உன்னிடம் மட்டும்
இருக்கு என்று
தெளிவாகப் பலமுறை
நீ சொன்ன போதும்
விரைவாக நீ தர
வேண்டும் என்றேன்
உனக்குள்ள பொறுமை
எனக்கு இல்லை
காரணம் சொல்லத்
தேவையும் இல்லை
களைத்தேன் என்று
சொல்லக் கூடத்
தெம்பு என்னிடம்
முற்றாக இல்லை
இன்னும் இரக்கம்
வராது போனால்
இனியும் சொல்லிப்
பயனேதும் இல்லை
இதுவே உன் சித்தம்
என்று ஆனால்
இனி புலம்பி
பயனும் இல்லை
அதற்காக உன்னை
விட்டிட முடியுமா
அதையே செய்வேன்
வழி வேறு இல்லை
குருகுலம், 17-12-2021, இரவு, 11.30
BT Song 1315 – பலமுனைப் போராட்டம்
என் மன ஓட்டத்தின்
போக்கினை எண்ணி
எனக்குள் நானே
நகைத்து கொண்டேன்
ஆயினும் இதுவும்
இயல்பாகிப் போனதால்
அதனை நானும்
ஏற்று கொண்டேன்
அதன் போக்கில் அதுவும்
போகட்டும் என்று
அப்படியே அதை
நானும் விட்டேன்
அலைந்து திரிந்து
அலுத்து சலித்து
அதுவாக ஓயட்டும்
என்று நினைத்தேன்
ஆயினும் அதுவோ
ஓய்ந்திட வில்லை
தன் போல் ஓய்வதாய்
தெரியவும் இல்லை
ஆகவே அதன்மீது
பரிதாபம் கொண்டு
சற்றே ஓய்வு
தரவேண்டும் என்று
அன்பாக அதனுடன்
பேசியும் பார்த்தேன்
அதட்டி உருட்டி
அடக்கவும் நினைத்தேன்
எப்படி முயன்றும்
வசப்பட வில்லை
தன் போல் ஓய்வதாய்
தெரியவும் இல்லை
எனவே வழக்கம்போல்
உன்னிடம் வந்தேன்
இதற்கும் காரணம்
நீயும் என்பதால்
இந்த இயல்புடன்
என்னையும் படைத்து
என்ன நன்மையை
நீயும் கண்டாய்
இதற்கொரு விடுதலை
நீ தந்தால்
உனக்கென்ன நட்டம்
அதையே சொல்வாய்
அனுதினம் மனத்துடன்
நானும் போராட
அதற்காக உன்னுடன்
வந்து நான் வாதாட
இதுயென்ன பிழைப்பு
என்று எண்ணி
நொந்து கொள்வதே
பலனாகக் கண்டேன்
பலமுனைப் போராட்டம்
பழகியே போக
அமைதியாய் அதையும்
ஏற்றுக் கொண்டேன்
18-12-2021, இரவு, 10.15
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