BT Song 1326
When I moved from Gurukulam to Mathigiri, I often longed to return to enjoy the calm and quietness there, which helped me enjoy my solitude. However, after moving back with my mother in September 2021, I found myself too tired both in body and mind to fully enjoy the solitude. One night, after helping my mother at 2:30 AM, I made a cup of tea and sat quietly to enjoy the calm and cool night. I began to question the Lord, wondering why He allows me to suffer beyond my capacity, even though He knows how much I long for peace. Though trials are part of bhakti, I felt that the Lord should also share in my pain. Not wanting to cause Him further pain, I asked Him to stop the trials. Inspired by these thoughts, I wrote this song in the viraha bhakti genre (love in separation).
BT Song 1326 Don’t Continue
Simple English Version
1.
How many days
I have longed
I am here alone
Longing for you
2.
Thinking about you
I became very thin
Where have you gone
Leaving me alone
3.
Remembering your words
That you won’t
Leave me
Even for a second
4.
I become frustrated
Thinking about you
As even a second
Feels like a yuga
5.
Separation is
Not new to me
Better you
Think that in your heart
6.
But you forget that
As I am used to this
I will continue
To tolerate this
7.
How much devotion
I might have
However you
Tested my devotion
8.
Can you bear any more
If you see my pain
Of separation
Better you tell me
9.
Don’t think that
This trial is only for me
And never forget
Your share in this
10.
As pain becomes
Common for both of us
Don’t continue
To test me further
11.
For what purpose
Did you redeem me; think that
Also understanding that
You died for me
12.
Removing this longing
And removing this separation
You come and
Stay with me permanently
Gurukulam, 17-1-2022, 3.00 a.m.
BT Song 1326 Cease Thy Trials
Classical English Version
1.
How many days, alas, have I longed,
Here, I dwell alone,
With yearning deep for thee,
My heart, a captive, ever forlorn.
2.
Reflecting upon thee,
I withered, became frail,
Where hast thou ventured,
Leaving me in this solitary vale?
3.
Recalling thy promise,
That thou wouldst never part,
Even for a fleeting second,
From my yearning heart.
4.
Frustration envelops me,
As I dwell on thoughts of thee,
For even a mere second,
Stretches into eternity.
5.
Separation is not novel,
For me, it bears no surprise,
Ponder this within thy heart,
Let wisdom in thee arise.
6.
Yet thou forgettest,
That I am accustomed to this pain,
I shall endure,
In sorrow and in strain.
7.
No matter my devotion’s depth,
However much I possess,
Thy trials and tests,
Have left me in distress.
8.
Can thy heart bear,
The sight of my suffering so keen?
Better to reveal to me,
Thy thoughts serene.
9.
Do not presume,
These trials are solely mine,
Recall always,
Thy share in this design.
10.
As our pain becomes shared,
Between thee and me,
Do not prolong these tests,
I implore, set me free.
11.
Reflect upon thy purpose,
For redeeming my soul,
Remember thy sacrifice,
To make me whole.
12.
Dispelling this longing,
And banishing separation’s woe,
Come, dwell with me eternally,
And let our love eternally flow.
Gurukulam, 17-1-2022, 3.00 a.m.
BT Song 1327
I recently watched a good debate in Tamil (Pattimandram Sankara TV, January 15, 2022), where three speakers discussed which is more important: simplicity, intellect, or wealth. The judge concluded that simplicity is the greatest because it lacks the pride associated with intellect and wealth. However, I believe that even simplicity can bring subtle pride. Sometimes, maintaining simplicity can be costly, as Sarojini Naidu famously said about Gandhi: to keep Gandhiji simple, Congress had to spend a lot. For me, humility is the greatest virtue, as it acknowledges that even simplicity in life, thought, and behavior is a gift from God.
BT Song 1327 The Greatness of Humility
Simple English Version
1.
Humility and simplicity
Are enough in life
The world will
Become our own
2.
Though we might have
Thousands of talents
How much comfort
Might come in life
3.
Humility will bestow
More patience
Simplicity will
Give more strength
4.
When wealth accumulates
Pride will come automatically
More intellect will
Help it to grow further
5.
As pride
Blinds our sight
One day they
Will defeat us
6.
The accumulated
Wealth might leave us
Similarly, our intellect
Also might fail us
7.
But both simplicity
And humility will give
A life
Without knowing defeat
8.
Considering oneself
Humble to others
Once we serve others
With simplicity
9.
Where is there
Any place for pride in it?
Opportunity won’t come
For us to fall
10.
At the same time
These simple virtues
Won’t come to us
On their own
11.
Without the grace of God
And long patience
They won’t
Be within our reach
Gurukulam, 17-1-2022, 4.30 a.m.
BT Song 1327 The Greatness of Humility
Classical English Version
1.
Humility and simplicity,
Suffice in life alone,
The world shall be,
Our very own.
2.
Though we may possess,
A thousand talents fair,
And comforts in abundance,
May come from everywhere.
3.
Humility bestows,
A patience deep and vast,
Simplicity grants,
A strength that will last.
4.
When wealth accumulates,
Pride follows close behind,
Greater intellect then,
Will enhance both in kind.
5.
For pride will blind,
Our sight and reason,
One day they will,
Bring us down in due season.
6.
The wealth amassed,
May leave our side,
And intellect too,
May no longer abide.
7.
Yet simplicity and humility,
Bestow a life so sweet,
One that knows no,
Defeat or retreat.
8.
By seeing oneself,
As humble among peers,
And serving others simply,
We conquer our fears.
9.
In such service,
Where is pride’s domain?
No chance shall arise,
For us to fall again.
10.
Yet these simple virtues,
Will not come unbidden,
On their own
11.
Without God’s grace,
And patience enduring long,
These virtues will not,
To us belong.
Gurukulam, 17-1-2022, 4.30 a.m.
BT Song 1328
On another calm and peaceful night, after reading my regular portion of Muktiveda, I sat quietly. I decided to drown within myself to find my true nature. I realized that, as a bhakta of the Lord, my true nature is my identity as His devotee. Thus, for me, the answer to the Indian philosophical question “Who am I?” is that I am a bhakta of the Lord. Inspired by this meditation, I wrote this song.
BT Song 1328 I Found Me
Simple English Version
1.
Though I searched within,
Diving deep inside,
Until the end,
I couldn’t find myself.
2.
Though I came to you,
Seeking your presence,
Until now,
I couldn’t see you.
3.
If I search for something
That I never lost,
No matter where,
I won’t find it again.
4.
There’s no use living
Like a fool searching
For the towel
Already on his shoulder.
5.
I understood myself
Only within you,
And I found you
Within me too.
6.
Once we mingled,
There’s no need
To search for each other
Separately anymore.
7.
Let others search
Where they lost things,
Let them continue
Until they find them.
8.
But for me, there’s no need
To search for myself,
Who is completely
Lost in you.
9.
Even the thought
That I am lost
Never came
To my mind.
10.
Therefore, there’s no use
In searching within me,
Trying to find myself
By diving deep inside.
11.
Once I seek you
Within me,
I will find both of us,
Unchanged.
Gurukulam, 22-1-20222, 10.45 p.m.
BT Song 1328 I Found Myself
Classical English Version
1.
Though I delved within,
In depths profound,
Until the end,
Myself I could not find.
2.
Though unto you I came,
Your presence sought,
Till now,
Your visage eludes me.
3.
If I seek that
Which was never lost,
Nowhere on earth,
Shall it be found anew.
4.
No use in living
As a fool does,
Searching for the towel
Resting on his shoulder.
5.
Within you alone,
Myself I understood,
And within my depths,
You I did find.
6.
Once we are merged,
Separate searches cease,
No longer need
To seek each other.
7.
Let others search
Where their losses lie,
Let them persist
Till they recover them.
8.
But I need not search
For myself, now lost,
In you entirely,
My essence found.
9.
The thought
Of being lost,
Never did
Enter my mind.
10.
Thus, no purpose
In delving within,
Attempting to find
Myself once more.
11.
When I seek you,
Within my soul,
There we both reside,
Unchanged, eternal.
Gurukulam, 22-1-20222, 10.45 p.m.
BT Song 1329
After reading my regular portion of Muktiveda, I was not in the mood to read anything further. I sat quietly, contemplating whether to meditate on a subject, but decided against it. Instead, I chose to immerse myself in the peace and presence of the Lord, without seeking any special experience. Passing time has never been a problem for me, as I have a constant inner communication with the Lord. Sitting quietly and calmly, abiding in Him beyond reason, feeling, emotion, or experience, has become part of my sadhana, especially when living a solitary life. Inspired by this inner communication, I wrote this song.
BT Song 1329 You Became Everything
Simple English Version
1.
Whether I come with feelings
Or stand before you without any,
I never forget you,
Who lives within me.
2.
As you remain like hidden fire
Within my thoughts,
I even give up
The thought of thinking of you.
3.
Unable to contemplate,
Unwilling to act,
I followed you
As my mind led me.
4.
Once you became
Everything in my life,
I no longer knew
What to do for you separately.
5.
Whether I sit, stand,
Or lie down,
All these acts
Are only for you.
6.
Whether time passes
Or stands still,
It always
Feels the same to me.
7.
In this life
That is always changing,
I received you,
Who never changes.
8.
Then whatever happens
Is nothing
But your own act,
Nothing else.
9.
Therefore, not experiencing you
Only through feelings,
I bowed at your feet
Even without any feelings.
Gurukulam, 24-1-2022, 11.00 p.m.
BT Song 1329 You Became Everything
Classical English Version
1.
Whether I come with feeling
Or stand before you void,
I never forget thee,
Who dwells within me.
2.
As thou art a hidden fire
Within my thoughts,
I even forsake
The thought of thee.
3.
Unable to contemplate,
Unwilling to act,
I followed thee
As my mind led me.
4.
Once thou becamest
All in my life,
No longer knew I
What to do for thee alone.
5.
Whether I sit, stand,
Or lie down,
All acts
Are for thee alone.
6.
Whether time doth pass
Or stand still,
It ever remains
The same for me.
7.
In this life
That ever changes,
I received thee,
Who changest not.
8.
Then whatever occurs
Is naught but
Thy own act,
Nothing else.
9.
Thus, not experiencing thee
Only through my feelings,
I bowed at thy feet
Even devoid of feeling.
Gurukulam, 24-1-2022, 11.00 p.m.
BT Song 1330
One morning, I woke up very early around 4:00 AM (not disturbed by my mother). Unable to sleep, I lay calmly on my bed, not wanting to get up. Around 5:30 AM, the first line of this song echoed in my mind. After having a cup of tea, I sat quietly and, inspired by the thought, wrote this song about living each day with the Lord together.
BT Song 1330 Let Us Live Together
Simple English Version
1.
Today, which
Is given to me to live,
Once I live it
And complete it in you,
Thinking of your duty,
Which you have specifically,
You should bestow
Your grace on me.
2.
Whatever the struggle
In the world might be,
However heavy
The responsibilities become,
To overcome them
Easily,
You should come as my companion;
What else is there for me to say?
3.
Though I longed
To live alone,
Though I donned the saffron robe,
Calling myself a sannyasi,
I don’t want solitude
Without you;
I don’t want saffron
Without responsibility.
4.
No one can understand
Our privacy;
There is no place
For others in it.
Whoever might be
Living around us,
No hurdle will come
To the sweetness of our privacy.
5.
When we both are
Together alone,
Even the sense of
Separation between us won’t come.
Once we both
Live together,
Nothing can
Separate us.
6.
Therefore, in this day
Assigned to us,
Let us live
Together in it,
Immersed in its
Sweetness.
Let us live like this
Forever and ever.
Gurukulam, 25-1-2022, 5.45 a.m.
BT Song 1330 Let Us Live Together
Classical English Version
1.
Today, which
Is allotted for me to live,
Once I live it
And complete it in thee,
Thinking of thy duty,
Which thou hast specially,
Thou shouldst bestow
Thy grace upon me.
2.
Whatever the struggle
In the world may be,
However heavy
The burdens become,
To overcome them
Easily,
Thou shouldst come as my companion;
What more can I say to thee?
3.
Though I yearned
To live alone,
Though I donned the saffron robe,
Calling myself a sannyasi,
I desire not solitude
Without thee;
I desire not saffron
Without duty.
4.
None can comprehend
Our privacy;
There is no place
For others therein.
Whoever may dwell
Around us,
No obstacle shall impede
The sweetness of our privacy.
5.
When we are
Together alone,
Even the sense of
Separation between us shall not arise.
Once we both
Live together,
Naught can
Tear us asunder.
6.
Therefore, on this day
Allotted to us,
Let us live
Together therein,
Immersed in its
Sweetness.
Let us live thus
Forever and ever.
Gurukulam, 25-1-2022, 5.45 a.m.
BT Song 1326 சோதனை தொடராதே
ஏங்கிய நாட்கள்
எத்தனை உண்டு
ஏங்கியே கிடந்தேன்
தனிமையில் இங்கு 1
நானுனை நினைந்து
நூலென இளைத்தேன்
நீ எங்கு சென்றாய்
தனிமையில் விட்டு 2
ஒரு நொடியேனும்
உனைப் பிரியேனே
என நீ சொன்ன
சொல்லினை நினைந்து 3
நொடியும் போவது
யுகமென ஆயிட
வாடி தவித்தேன்
உன்னை நினைந்து 4
பிரிவும் எனக்கும்
புதியது அல்ல
அதையே நீயும்
மனதில் எண்ணு 5
பழகி போனதால்
பொறுத்து கொள்வேன்
என்பதை மட்டும்
நீயும் மறந்திடு 6
என்னதான் பக்தி
எனக்கிருந்தாலும்
எத்தனை சோதனை
நீ செய்தாலும் 7
நான் படும் வேதனை
நீயும் கண்டால்
தாங்குமோ உன் மனம்
எனக்கதைச் சொல்லு 8
எனக்குத்தான் சோதனை
என் எண்ணாதே
உனக்குள்ள பங்கை
மறந்து விடாதே 9
வேதனை நமக்குப்
பொதுவென ஆனபின்
சோதனை செய்வதை
நீ தொடராதே 10
எதற்காய் மீட்டாய்
என்பதை எண்ணு
எனக்காய் மரித்தாய்
என்பதை உணர்ந்து 11
ஏக்கத்தைப் போக்கிப்
பிரிவினை நீக்கி
நிரந்தரமாக நீ
என்னுடன் தங்கு 12
குருகுலம், 17-1-2022, அதிகாலை 3.00
BT Song 1327 தாழ்மையின் ஏற்றம்
தாழ்மை எளிமை
இரண்டும் போதும்
தரணியும் நமது
கைவசம் ஆகும் 1
ஆயிரம் திறமைகள்
நமக்கிருந்தாலும்
வசதி வாய்ப்புகள்
எது வந்தாலும் 2
தாழ்மை தந்திடும்
அதிகம் பொறுமை
எளிமை தந்திடும்
இன்னும் வலிமை 3
செல்வம் சேர
செருக்கும் சேரும்
அதிக அறிவும்
அதனை வளர்க்கும் 4
வளர்ந்த செருக்கு
கண்ணை மறைக்க
அவையும் ஒருநாள்
நம்மை வீழ்த்தும் 5
சேர்த்த செல்வம்
சென்றிடக் கூடும்
அறிவு அதுபோல்
கைவிடக் கூடும் 6
வீழ்ச்சியே அறியா
வாழ்வு ஒன்றை
தாழ்மை எளிமை
நிச்சயம் தந்திடும் 7
பிறரினும் தன்னைத்
தாழ்மையாய் எண்ணி
எளிமையாய்ப் பிறர்க்கு
சேவகம் பண்ண 8
செருக்குக்கு அங்கே
இடமும் ஏது
வீழ்ந்திடும் வாய்ப்பும்
வந்து விடாது 9
ஆயினும் இந்த
எளிய பண்புகள்
எளிதில் நம்மிடம்
அண்டி வராது 10
இறைவனின் அருளும்
நீடித்த பொறுமையும்
இன்றி அவைநம்
வசம் அண்டாது 11
குருகுலம், 17-1-2022, அதிகாலை 4.30
BT Song 1328 கண்டேன் என்னை
என்னையே தேடி
என்னில் மூழ்கியும்
இறுதி வரையில்
என்னையும் காணோம் 1
உன்னை தேடி
உன்னிடம் வந்தும்
இதுவரை கண்ணிலே
உன்னையும் காணோம் 2
இழக்காத ஒன்றைத்
தேடியே சென்றால்
எங்கு தேடினினும்
கிடைப்பதும் இல்லை 3
தோளில் போட்ட
துண்டைத் தேடிய
மூடனாய் வாழ்வதில்
பயனும் இல்லை 4
என்னை உன்னில்
அறிந்து கொண்டேன்
உன்னையும் என்னில்
கண்டு கொண்டேன் 5
ஒருவரில் ஒருவர்
கலந்த பின்னாலே
தனியாய்த் தேட
அவசியம் இல்லை 6
தொலைத்தவர் தேடட்டும்
தொலைத்த இடத்தில்
தொடர்ந்து தேடட்டும்
கிடைக்கின்ற வரையில் 7
உனில் தொலைந்த
என்னையும் தேடும்
அவசிய ஏதும்
எனக்கு இல்லை 8
தொலைந்தேன் என்ற
உணர்வும் கூட
இதுவரை எனக்கு
வந்திட வில்லை 9
ஆகவே மூழ்கி
என்னில் தேடி
எவ்விதப் பயனும்
எனக்கு இல்லை 10
என்னில் உள்ள
உன்னை நாட
நம்மையும் காண்பேன்
மாற்றமே இல்லை 11
குருகுலம், 22-1-2022, இரவு, 10.45
BT Song 1329 எல்லாம் ஆனாய்
உணர்வோடு வந்தாலும்
உணர்வின்றி நின்றாலும்
உள்ளுள் உன்னை
ஒருக்காலும் மறவேன் 1
நீர்பூத்த நெருப்பாய்
நினைவினுள் இருக்க
நினைத்திடும் நினைப்பே
உன்னில் துறந்தேன் 2
சிந்திக்க இயலாமல்
செயல்செய விரும்பாமல்
சிந்தையின் போக்கில்
உன்னை தொடர்ந்தேன் 3
வாழ்வில் எல்லாம்
நீயான பின்னாலே
உனக்கெனத் தனியான
செயலொன்றை அறியேன் 4
நின்றாலும் கிடந்தாலும்
இருந்தாலும் நடந்தாலும்
எல்லாம் உனக்கான
செயலென உணர்ந்தேன் 5
நேரம் கடந்தாலும்
நிலையாக நின்றாலும்
எனக்கது எப்போதும்
ஒன்றெனப் புரிந்தேன் 6
எப்போதும் ஒருபோல
இருக்கா வாழ்வில்
ஒருபோதும் மாறா
உன்னை அடைந்தேன் 7
அதன்பின் நடப்பது
எதுவாக இருந்தாலும்
அது உன் செயலென
நானும் ஏற்றேன் 8
அதனாலே உணர்வாலே
மட்டுமே உணராது
உணர்வின்றி உணர்ந்து
உன்னடி பணிந்தேன் 9
குருகுலம், 24-1-2022, இரவு, 11.00
BT Song 1330 இருவரும் வாழ்வோம்
எனக்கென வாய்த்த
இந்நாளின் வாழ்வை
உனக்குள்ளே நானும்
வாழ்ந்து முடிக்க
உனக்கென உள்ள
கடமையை நினைந்து
வழக்கமாய்த் தந்திடும்
அருளை தரணும் 1
வாழ்வின் போராட்டம்
எதுவான போதிலும்
பொறுப்புகள் எத்தனை
பளுவாக இருந்தாலும்
எளிதாக அவற்றை
மேற்கொண்டு செல்ல
வரவேண்டும் துணையாக
வேறென்ன சொல்ல 2
தனியாக வாழ்ந்திட
நானும் விழைந்தாலும்
துறவி எனச்சொல்லிக்
காவியில் புகுந்தாலும்
நீயற்ற தனிமை
எனக்கு வேண்டாம்
பொறுப்பற்ற காவியை
அணியவும் வேண்டாம் 3
நாம் காணும் தனிமை
எவருக்கும் புரியாது
பிறருக்கு அதிலே
இடமும் கிடையாது
எவர்நம்மைச் சூழ்ந்து
வாழ்ந்த போதும், நம்
தனிமையின் இனிமைக்குப்
பங்கமும் வாராது 4
இருவரும் தனிமையில்
இருந்திடும் போது
இருவர் என்கின்ற
உணர்வும் வராது
இருவரும் ஒருவாராய்
இணந்து வாழ
ஏதும் நம்மைப்
பிரித்திட முடியாது 5
ஆகவே நமக்கென
வாய்த்த இந்நாளின்
வாழ்வினை இருவரும்
சேர்ந்து வாழ்வோம்
அதிலுள்ள இனிமையில்
இருவரும் திளைத்து
இதுபோல் எந்நாளும்
நீடித்து வாழ்வோம் 6
குருகுலம், 25-1-2022, காலை 5.45
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