BT Song 1351
Taking refuse at the feet of the Lord is the only philosophy/theology that bhakti knows. Though it never rejects other kinds of approaches to understand faith, for it total surrender without any reservation is the only theology that it knows.
BT Song 1351 I Surrendered
Simple English Version
By giving mercy,
You protected me.
By giving grace,
You redeemed me.
You keep on
Blessing me,
And you want to
Do even more.
I learned devotion,
And I gained salvation.
I worshipped daily,
At your holy feet.
I think only
About your will.
By giving myself to you,
I completely lost myself.
I give the rest
Of my life to you.
I agreed to
Whatever you do.
Because you care
Only about my good,
You will fulfill
All my needs.
As your eyes
Watch over me,
As your hands
Embrace me,
I won’t look
For protection elsewhere.
I will live
A carefree life every day.
Whatever the world
Might say,
Whatever my body
And mind do,
I know what
You are doing,
So I live
Without any worry.
I don’t seek any wisdom
Beyond devotion.
I won’t look for company
Beyond your holy feet.
I don’t know how to act
Outside your will.
I will never leave
Your holy feet.
Gurukulam, 24-3-2022, 11.00 p.m.
BT Song 1351 I Surrendered
Classical English Version
By granting mercy,
Thou hast protected me.
By bestowing grace,
Thou hast redeemed me.
Thou continuest to
Bless me greatly,
And thou desirest to
Do even more.
I learned devotion,
And gained salvation.
I worshipped daily,
At thy sacred feet.
I ponder solely
Upon thy will.
By giving myself to thee,
I completely lost myself.
I offer the rest
Of my life to thee.
I consented to
All that thou doest.
For thou considerest
Only my welfare,
Thou shalt fulfill
All my needs.
As thine eyes
Gaze upon me,
As thine hands
Embrace me,
I shan’t seek
Protection elsewhere.
I shall live
A carefree life each day.
Whatever the world
May say,
Whatever my body
And mind do,
I know what
Thou art doing,
Thus I live
Without any distress.
I seek no wisdom
Beyond devotion.
I seek no company
Beyond thy sacred feet.
I know not how to act
Outside thy will.
I shall never leave
Thy sacred feet.
Gurukulam, 24-3-2022, 11.00 p.m.
BT Song 1352
Bhakti never accepts defeat. Though there will be many lost wars, still the final victory will be only ours as we are already conquerors in Him. As advancing in age the body refuses to cooperate. Though others understand still they expect more than what we do. Several times our own mind [heart] won’t cooperate with us. But bhakti never accepts defeat.
BT Song 1352 I Will Overcome in You
Simple English Version
I have fallen,
Not knowing I fell.
I live not knowing
That I am living.
But I know one thing,
That is coming to you.
That is what
I am doing now.
My body is
Completely broken.
The deceiving heart
Has become frozen.
The soul also
Becomes depressed.
The senses too
Slowly become stagnant.
The body made of dust
Tortures on one side.
People press me,
Standing around.
I live like
A dead person.
I came to you
To protect me.
You should give
Long endurance.
You should give
Courage to my heart.
There is no history
Of defeat in my life.
There is no place
For defeat in you.
Though I am hurried
And do things in haste,
There is no place
For haste in you.
However I act
With much haste,
There is no use
In going beyond your will.
I will stand up
With the same speed as I fell.
I will complete my race
By living in you.
Whatever trials and troubles
Might come,
Removing the depression,
I will overcome in you.
Gurukulam, 30-3-2022, 4.00 a.m.
BT Song 1352 I Will Overcome in You
Classical English Version
I have fallen,
Not knowing I fell.
I live, unaware
That I am living.
But I know one thing,
That is coming to thee.
That is what
I do now.
My body is
Utterly broken.
The deceitful heart
Hath become frozen.
The soul itself
Is deeply depressed.
The senses, too,
Become stagnant, slowly.
The body of dust
Tortures on one side.
And people press me,
Standing around.
I live like
A dead man.
I come to thee
For protection.
Thou must give
Long endurance.
Thou must grant
Courage to my heart.
There is no history
Of defeat in my life.
There is no place
For defeat in thee.
Though I hurry
And act with haste,
There is no place
For haste in thee.
However I act
With such haste,
There is no use
In going beyond thy will.
I will rise
As swiftly as I fell.
I will finish my race
By living in thee.
Whatever trials
And troubles arise,
Removing the depression,
I will overcome in thee.
Gurukulam, 30-3-2022, 4.00 a.m.
BT Song 1353
Nothing can separate us from the Love of God. As He saved He knows how to protect us in spite of our failings and weakness and take us to the Further Shore safely.
BT Song 1353 You Will Take Care
Simple English Version
When you came
Voluntarily to my door
With a right
And knocked it,
Opening the door
And welcoming you,
I fell at your feet
And praised you.
I went to a
Lukewarm status,
I realized that
I had gone away from you.
I realized the way
You rushed to save me,
Not rejecting me
By vomiting me.
I realized that
I went away from your protection,
As time had
Tossed me in several ways.
Understanding my condition,
You rushed to come,
And stretching your hand,
You saved me.
Thinking that
They would protect me,
I set up so many
Forts around me.
As they all fell
Even in a gentle wind,
Then I realized
Their true strength.
All that I accumulated
Became mere waste,
And all those whom I depended on
Went away from me.
Losing my strength,
Unable to withstand,
I fell at your feet
For you to protect me.
Once I became
Your own,
Would you like
To lose me?
Will you give
Your consent
For me to
Go away from you?
You came on your own
And redeemed me,
And taking me to the further shore,
You will keep me with you.
You will safeguard me,
Having your right over me,
Till the end,
You will take care of me.
Gurukulam, 31-3-2022, 4.30 a.m.
BT Song 1353 You Will Take Care
Classical English Version
When thou didst come
Voluntarily to my door,
With right divine,
And knock thereon,
Opening the door
And welcoming thee,
I fell at thy feet
And praised thee.
I became lukewarm,
I realized that
I had strayed
Far from thee.
I realized how
Thou didst rush to save me,
Not rejecting me,
Nor casting me away.
I knew then
I had left thy protection,
As time had tossed me
In various ways.
Understanding my plight,
Thou didst hasten to come,
And stretching forth thy hand,
Thou didst save me.
Thinking that
They would protect me,
I erected many
Forts around me.
As they all fell
Even in a gentle wind,
Then I realized
Their true strength.
All that I amassed
Became mere waste,
And all whom I relied on
Departed from me.
Bereft of strength,
Unable to stand,
I fell at thy feet
For thy protection.
Once I became
Thine own,
Wouldst thou wish
To lose me?
Wilt thou give
Thy consent
For me to
Depart from thee?
Thou camest of thine own will
And redeemed me,
And taking me to the further shore,
Thou wilt keep me with thee.
Thou wilt safeguard me,
Having thy right over me,
Till the end,
Thou wilt care for me.
Gurukulam, 31-3-2022, 4.30 a.m.
BT Song 1354
A bhakta realizes that unless God calls her to come unto Him, she cannot perform any kind of seva (service) to Him. As the Lord has complete authority over us, total surrender without any reservation is the only way to abide in Him.
BT Song 1354 You Gave Your Consent
Simple English Version
I came into your presence
Because you gave me consent.
You accepted me,
So I worshipped at your holy feet.
I wrote poems
Only to praise you.
I had some merit
To do all these activities.
I knew you
Because you called me.
You gave permission,
So I followed you.
I understood you
Because you taught me.
You commanded me,
So I serve you.
I realized that
I had lived in vain so far.
I became the water
Used to irrigate weeds.
All of them disappeared
Like a mirage,
Because I did them
On my own initiative.
But I found
Even one benefit in it.
I understood
My own limitations.
I realized the
Deceitful nature of my heart,
And I understood that
I need redemption.
Whatever might be
Human efforts,
Whatever might be
The results of them,
Unless you look
With your graceful eyes,
No benefit will
Come in life.
As you remain
The first and final,
As the beginning and end
Belong to you,
All that comes
In our life in between
Always remains
Only your own acts.
Realizing this,
I got the freedom.
I gave myself
As the clay in your hand.
I gave my consent
For you to
Shape me
In whichever form you like.
Gurukulam, 31-03-2022, 11.00 p.m.
BT Song 1354 Thou Gavest Thy Consent
Classical English Version
I came unto thy presence,
As thou gavest thy consent to me.
As thou hast accepted me,
I worshipped at thy holy feet.
I wrote poems
Solely to praise thee.
I had some merit
To perform these deeds.
I knew thee
As thou hast called me.
As thou gavest permission,
I followed thee.
I understood thee
As thou hast taught me.
As thou hast commanded me,
I render my service to thee.
I realized that
I had lived in vain till now.
I became the water
That irrigated the weeds.
All of them vanished
Like a mirage,
For I had done them
Of mine own accord.
But I found
One benefit therein.
I understood
Mine own limitations.
I realized the
Deceitful nature of my heart,
And I understood that
I need redemption.
Whatever might be
Human endeavors,
Whichever might be
The fruits thereof,
Unless thou dost gaze
With thine eyes of grace,
No blessing will
Come to life.
As thou remainest
The first and the final,
As the beginning and end
Belong to thee,
All that cometh
In our lives between,
Ever remain
Only thine acts.
Realizing this,
I gained my freedom.
I gave myself
As clay in thy hand.
I gave my consent
For thee to
Shape me
In whatsoever form thou wilt.
Gurukulam, 31-03-2022, 11.00 p.m.
BT Song 1355
The one fearful scenario in life is the fear of missing something which you like much. Both me and my mother are caught in the fear these days. First my mother hesitated to move back to the ashram. In a way I tricked her by telling that we are coming here only for two weeks but slowly helped her to understand my plan and needs. Now she is adjusted to this life and now prefers to live only here particularly with me alone. Because along with my siblings we have planned to shift her to Chennai to stay with my sister and my mother began to lament about it and complain to everyone who visits the ashram. Her one question to me and to others is: when I am ready to live here why again tossing me from place to place. I understand her plight. Old people never like to move from a place in which they managed to adjust their life. The same is my case. What if I am forced to again move from the ashram due to any reason—particularly related health or the needs of my mother. Because my one principle is: people first. So I told my friend Kannan that in case my mother needs my presence with her to spend the rest of her life relatively peacefully I won’t mind going anywhere to stay with her. At the same time the mere thought of going back to any noisy place with lots of pollution again brings a shrilling fear within me. So I was pleading with the Lord to create such a scenario where I can continue to stay a few more years in the ashram. Because when I shifted back to the ashram on 5th September 2021 I was not sure that I would stay this long here. Even I shifted back with lots of hesitation and questions in mind keeping the needs of my mother. So this blessing of coming back to the ashram is again a gift from the Lord and unless He helps me to keep that blessing I cannot do it.
BT Song 1355 My Need
Simple English Version
I need both
Solitude and peace.
You should protect me
By giving them.
Both simplicity and
Patience should come.
You should
Fill them within me.
Giving a proper
Place for that,
Providing a
Calm atmosphere,
Remembering only you
And renouncing myself,
I need a life
To live in you.
Whatever hurdle
That might come,
I should overcome
And walk.
You should protect me,
Not losing it again
By avoiding any
Kind of mistake.
I never got this boon
By asking you.
I don’t even have
The qualification to ask.
I don’t have
Even the strength
To preserve it,
Which came on its own.
As you know
My need
And gave this boon
On your own,
I should understand
The greatness of it,
And you alone should
Help me for that.
Overcoming me,
By remembering all
My shortcomings,
You should protect me
By putting a fence around me.
You should do it
Coming on your own.
As I do
My part,
With your grace
Upon me,
You should help
To remain permanently
Both the solitude and peace
Which I sought.
Gurukulam, 31-03-2022, 11.45 p.m.
BT Song 1355 My Need
Classical English Version
I need both
Solitude and peace.
Thou shouldst protect me
By giving them.
Both simplicity and
Patience should join.
Thou shouldst
Fill them within me.
Giving a proper
Place for that,
Providing a
Calm atmosphere,
Remembering only thee
And renouncing myself,
I need a life
To live in thee.
Whichever hurdle
That might come,
I should overcome
And walk.
Thou shouldst protect me,
Not losing it again
By avoiding any
Kind of mistake.
I never got this boon
By asking thee.
I don’t even have
The qualification to ask.
I don’t have
Even the strength
To preserve it,
Which came on its own.
As thou knowest
My need
And gavest this boon
On thine own,
I should understand
The greatness of it,
And thou alone shouldst
Help me for that.
Overcoming me,
By remembering all
My shortcomings,
Thou shouldst protect me
By putting a fence around me.
Thou shouldst do it
Coming on thine own.
As I do
My part,
With thy grace
Upon me,
Thou shouldst help
To remain permanently
Both the solitude and peace
Which I sought.
Gurukulam, 31-03-2022, 11.45 p.m.
BT Song 1351 உன்னிலே இழந்தேன்
இரக்கத்தைத் தந்து
காத்து கொண்டாய்
அருளினைத் தந்து
மீட்டு கொண்டாய்
இன்னும் நன்மைகள்
தொடர்ந்து செய்கிறாய்
இதனினும் அதிகம்
செய்ய விழைகிறாய்
பக்தியை அறிந்தேன்
முக்தியும் அடைந்தேன்
பதமலர் சூடி
அனுதினம் பணிந்தேன்
உனது சித்தம்
ஒன்றை எண்ணுறேன்
என்னை தந்து
உன்னில் இழந்தேன்
எஞ்சிய வாழ்வை
உன்னிடம் தந்தேன்
எதுநீ செய்தாலும்
சம்மதம் என்றேன்
ஏனெனில் என்நலம்
மட்டும் எண்ணுவாய்
எனது தேவை தன்னை
நிறைவேற்றி வைப்பாய்
உன்னிரு விழிகள்
பார்த்து இருக்க
உன்னிரு கரங்கள்
அணைத்து கொள்ள
காவலைத் தேடி
வேறெங்கும் போகேன்
கவலைகள் இன்றி
அனுதினம் வாழ்வேன்
ஊரும் உலகமும்
எதைச் சொன்னாலும்
உடலும் மனமும்
எதைச் செய்தாலும்
நீ என்ன செய்கிறாய்
என்பதை அறிவேன்
ஆகவே கலக்கம்
இன்றி வாழ்கிறேன்
பக்திக்குப் புறம்பான
தத்துவம் வேண்டேன்
பதமலர் அன்றி
துணை வேறு வேண்டேன்
உன்சித்தத்தை மீறிச்
செய்வதை அறியேன்
சேவடி தன்னை
என்றுமே நீங்கேன்
குருகுலம், 24-3-2022, இரவு, 11.00
BT Song 1352 உன்னில் வெல்வேன்
வீழ்வது தெரியாமல்
வீழ்ந்து கிடக்கிறேன்
வாழ்வது புரியாமல்
வாழ்ந்து இருக்கிறேன்
ஆயினும் உன்னிடம்
வந்திட அறிவேன்
அதைத்தான் இப்போது
நானும் செய்கிறேன்
உடைந்து போனது
என்னிந்த உடலும்
உறைந்து போனது
பாழும் என்மனதும்
தளர்ந்து போனது
ஆவியும் உள்ளாக
தேக்கம் அடைந்தது
உணர்வும் மெதுவாக
மண்ணான உடலும்
ஒருபுறம் வதைக்க
மானுடர் சூழ்ந்து
பலவிதம் நெருக்க
நடை பிணமாக
நாளும் வாழ்கிறேன்
நாடி வந்தேன்
என்னை நீ காக்க
நீடித்த பொறுமை
நீதர வேண்டும்
நெஞ்சில் உறுதி
நல்கிட வேண்டும்
தோற்ற சரித்திரம்
என்னிடம் இல்லை
தோல்விக்கு உன்னிடம்
வழியும் இல்லை
ஆத்திரம் அவசரம்
எனக்கிருந்தாலும்
அவற்றுக்கு உன்னிடம்
இடமும் இல்லை
எத்தனை வேகமாய்ச்
செயல் புரிந்தாலும்
உன்சித்தத்தை மீறிப்
பயனும் இல்லை
வீழ்ந்த வேகத்தில்
எழுந்து நிற்பேன்
உன்னில் வாழ்ந்து
ஓட்டத்தை முடிப்பேன்
சோதனை வேதனை
எது வந்தாலும்
சோர்வினை நீக்கி
உன்னில் வெல்வேன்
குருகுலம், 30-3-2022, காலை, 4.00
BT Song 1353 பேணிக் காப்பாய்
வலிய வந்துக்
வாசலில் நின்று
உரிமை கொண்டு
கதவை நீ தட்ட
தாளினைத் திறந்து
வாவென அழைத்து
தாளினைப் பணிந்து
உன்னை துதித்தேன்
வெது வெதுப்பான
நிலைக்குச் சென்றேன்
விலகிச் சென்றதை
நானும் உணர்ந்தேன்
உமிழ்ந்து என்னை
உதறிவிடாமல்
விரைந்து வந்து
மீட்டத்தை அறிந்தேன்
காலத்தின் ஓட்டம்
கலக்கி அடிக்கக்
காவலைத் தாண்டிச்
சென்றதைப் புரிந்தேன்
என்னிலை புரிந்து
விரைந்து வந்தாய்
உன்கரம் நீட்டிக்
காத்து கொண்டாய்
பாது காக்கும்
என்று எண்ணி
பலவித அரண்கள்
சுற்றிலும் அமைத்தேன்
மெல்லிய காற்றிலே
அவைகளும் வீழ
அவற்றின் உண்மை
வலிமை புரிந்தேன்
சேர்த்தவை எல்லாம்
சேதமாய்ப் போக
சார்ந்தவர் எல்லாம்
விலகி நிற்க
தாக்குப் பிடிக்கும்
திரணையை இழந்து
தாளினில் வீழ்ந்தேன்
நீ என்னைக் காக்க
உனதாய் நானும்
மாறிய பின்னே
என்னை இழக்க
விரும்புவாயோ
உன்னை விட்டு
விலகிச் செல்லச்
சம்மதம் தன்னை
நீ தருவாயோ
வலியத் தேடி
வந்து நீ மீட்டாய்
கரையும் சேர்ந்து
உன்னுடன் வைப்பாய்
உரிமை கொண்டு
காத்துக் கொள்வாய்
கடைசி வரையில்
பேணியும் காப்பாய்
குருகுலம், 31-3-2022, காலை, 4.30
BT Song 1354 சம்மதம் தந்தாய்
சம்மதம் தந்தாய்
சன்னிதி வந்தேன்
சேர்த்து கொண்டாய்
சேவடி பணிந்தேன்
போற்ற வென்று
பாடல்கள் புனைந்தேன்
புண்ணியம் இதற்கு
நானும் செய்தேன்
அழைத்தினாலே
அறிந்தேன் உன்னை
அனுமதி தந்ததால்
தொடர்ந்தேன் உன்னை
சொல்லித் தந்ததால்
புரிந்து கொண்டேன்
செய்யச் சொன்னதால்
சேவையும் செய்தேன்
நானாய்ச் செய்த
காரியம் யாவும்
கானல் நீராய்த்
தானாய் மறைய
வீணாய் வாழ்ந்தேன்
என்பதை உணர்ந்தேன்
விழலுக்கு இறைத்த
நீராய்ப் போனேன்
ஆயினும் அதிலொரு
நன்மையைக் கண்டேன்
எனக்கு உள்ள
எல்லையைப் புரிந்தேன்
திறுக்கு இதயத்தின்
தன்மை அறிந்தேன்
தேவை மீட்பு
என்பதை உணர்ந்தேன்
மனித எத்தனம்
எது ஆனாலும்
அதற்குள்ள பலன்கள்
எப்படி இருந்தும்
உன்னருள் பார்வை
இருந்து விடாமல்
எவ்வித நன்மையும்
வந்து விடாது
முதலும் முடிவும்
நீயாய் இருக்கத்
தொடக்கமும் முடிவும்
உனதாய் இருக்க
இடையில் வந்து
போகும் எங்கள்
தொடக்கமும் முடிவும்
உனதாய் இருக்கு
இதனை உணர்ந்து
விடுதலை அடைந்தேன்
என்னை உன்கை
மண்ணாய்த் தந்தேன்
அடித்து மிதித்து
பிசைந்து வனை(க்க)ய்ச்
சம்மதம் என்று
என்னைத் தந்தேன்
31-03-2022, இரவு, 11.00
BT Song 1355 எனது தேவை
தனிமை அமைதி
இரண்டும் வேண்டும்
அவற்றைத் தந்து
காக்க வேண்டும்
எளிமை பொறுமை
இணைய வேண்டும்
என்னுள் அவற்றை
நிரப்ப வேண்டும்
அதற்கு ஏற்ற
இடமும் தந்து
அமைதியான ஒரு
சூழல் அமைத்து
உன்னை நினைந்து
என்னைத் துறந்து
உன்னில் வாழும்
வாழ்வும் வேண்டும்
தடைகள் இதற்கு
எது வந்தாலும்
தகர்ந்து எறிந்து
நடக்க வேண்டும்
தவறு செய்து
மீண்டும் அதனை
இழந்திடாமல்
காக்க வேண்டும்
கேட்டுப் பெற்ற
வரமும் இல்லை
கேட்கும் தகுதி
என்னில் இல்லை
வலியத் தேடி
வந்த வாய்ப்பைத்
தக்க வைக்க
பெலனும் இல்லை
எனது தேவை
உணர்ந்த நீயும்
வலியத் தேடித்
தந்த வரத்தின்
உயர்வை நானும்
புரிய வேண்டும்
அதற்கு நீதான்
உதவ வேண்டும்
என்னை மீறி
என்னை ஆண்டு
எனது குறைகள்
அனைத்தும் நினைந்து
வேலி அடைத்துக்
காக்க வேண்டும்
வலிய வந்து
செய்ய வேண்டும்
எனது பங்கை
நானும் செய்ய
உனது அருளும்
கூட இருக்க
தேடும் அமைதி
நாடும் தனிமை
நிலைத்து நிற்க
உதவ வேண்டும்
குருகுலம், 31-03-2022, இரவு, 11.45
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