BT Song 1541
Though I enjoy the silence around me, I am still much disturbed by my thoughts. They never allow me to immerse myself in the silence around me. If I cannot tune into the silence around me, then there is no use in it. I want to live not only alone, surrounded by nature, but also experiencing that silence within me. I know several people have claimed to have attained that stage [of Nirvikalpa Samadhi] and returned. I neither agree with it nor deny it as it is their experience. But who is the one who brings so many thoughts without any break? As I was thinking about it, I wrote this song asking that question to God.
BT Song 1541 Who is Pinching?
Simple English
1
There are many things
To share with you
I don’t know which one to share
And which one to leave
2
Though you understand
Without me sharing
Still, I alone have the need
To share with you
3
I am not sharing this
To unload any burden
And there are no other
Reasons for this
4
I am not even sharing this
To remove my loneliness
As there is no need
For it to both of us
5
From where this many
Thoughts are coming?
Who is responsible for this
You better tell that to me
6
Is it my brain or my mind
Which one among the two
Or is it the voice
Of my atman?
7
As you alone have
Put thoughts within me
You alone should give
Answer also
8
As you have created me
In your image
Other than you
Who knows the reason?
9
As you are the final
Cause of everything
Who is responsible
Other than you
10
Did you become the
Babysitter who pinches
And then rock the cradle
At least tell that to me
11
If the mother comes
And sings lullaby again
The baby might
Again sleep
12
But I become
Like that baby
Who refuses to sleep
Even if the babysitter sings lullaby
13
Are you the one
Who is doing this even?
Did you do this
By becoming a babysitter?
14
There are similar
Other questions
If you give an answer to this
I will share the rest of them
Gurukulam, 19-12-23, 4.45 pm.
BT Song 1541 Who is Pinching?
Classical English
1
Of myriad thoughts I wish to tell,
Not knowing which to voice, which quell.
This quandary leaves me quite perplexed,
Uncertain which thought to express.
2
Though silently you comprehend,
My need to speak shall never end.
For in my heart, a longing deep,
To share with you, my soul to keep.
3
‘Tis not to lighten burden’s load,
Nor other reasons I have showed.
This need to speak, so purely felt,
From depths of heart it has been dealt.
4
Not even loneliness to abate,
For such need, we both negate.
In solitude, we’re both content,
No need for words to be spent.
5
From whence do all these musings spring?
Their origin, do tell, I cling.
Who plants such thoughts within my mind?
This answer, pray, let me find.
6
Is it my brain or heart that speaks?
Or voice of soul, where wisdom leaks?
Which of these brings forth the sound?
Do tell me where the truth is found.
7
For you have placed these thoughts in me,
You alone must hold the key.
The answers you must now impart,
For you alone reside in heart.
8
In your own image I was made,
None but you, the reason laid.
Who else but you can know the why,
Of all the thoughts that in me lie?
9
You are the cause, the primal source,
Of every thought and inner force.
None other bears this weight but thee,
The burden of this mystery.
10
Didst thou become the nurse so dear,
Who rocks the cradle, pinching near?
At least this answer give to me,
Didst thou become the nurse for thee?
11
If mother comes with lullaby,
The weeping child, once more will try,
To close its eyes and drift to sleep,
In mother’s arms, in slumber deep.
12
But I, like child who stays awake,
Though nurse’s song no slumber make.
A sleepless babe, though lullaby,
I remain awake, no dreams to buy.
13
Are you the one, who plays this part?
The nurse who soothes with tender heart?
By becoming nurse, dost thou do this?
Is this thy role, this earthly bliss?
14
There are many queries, this but one,
Answer it, and more shall be spun.
For if you reply to this I plea,
The rest of my thoughts I’ll share with thee.
Gurukulam, 19-12-23, 4.45 pm.
BT Song 1542
There are two views about competition: one is healthy and motivates people to do their best, and the other brings unnecessary tension and an obsession only with success. Personally, I think it has both these aspects, and it is up to the individual to decide where to compete and where to give priority.
When two people compete, one wins and the other loses, though some come up as runners. However, when God competes with a bhakta, only the bhakta wins, and God is happy to lose [like in a game where the parents deliberately lose to make the child win]. But when I am forced to compete with myself, then neither I win nor lose, but God alone ends up paying the cost, as He alone has to face the consequence of dragging me into that competition with myself. As He often drags me into this competition, I have to drag Him into contention between us on this matter. The result is this song.
1542: High Price
Simple English
1
If I say I won’t compete,
Leave me alone without speaking,
Don’t drag me into meaningless disputes,
Just let me be in peace.
2
If you drag me into useless quarrels,
Can you then leave and run away?
Don’t involve me in senseless conflicts,
Let me stay out of this mess.
3
I don’t know the rules,
Nor do I understand the competition,
Yet you throw me into the field,
Expecting me to play.
4
Without telling me whom to compete with,
How can you prepare me?
You need to clarify the opponent,
For me to get ready.
5
If the competition is with you,
I’ll dive in bravely,
And join the challenge immediately,
With courage and determination.
6
In the end, victory will be mine,
So there’s no need for preparation,
I am destined to win,
Without any effort.
7
If it’s with others,
I’ll give way and play gently,
Competing without intensity,
Just for fun.
8
If you want to compete with me,
Why cause unnecessary trouble?
Why create conflicts,
When there’s no need for them?
9
Without asking questions,
What else can I do?
There’s no necessity,
Even if it seems that way.
10
If I ask you the reason,
You refuse to answer,
Why deny me the explanation,
For what you’re doing?
11
Don’t you know how our past competitions,
Have always ended?
No clear victories or defeats,
Just an ongoing life.
12
I continue to live,
Without winning or losing,
Isn’t that clear to you?
This life moves on.
13
If you need to watch,
Find another way,
Don’t make me a spectacle,
In your play.
14
Don’t buy trouble,
For a high price,
Don’t engage in this act,
Just let it go.
15
If you drag me into disputes,
Watch what happens next,
The spectacle will be,
Interesting to see.
16
Even the price you’ll pay,
Will be very high,
Think about it carefully,
Before you act.
Gurukulam, 21-12-23, Night, 11.45
1542: High Price
Classical English
1
If I declare, “No contest will I engage,”
Silently leave me be, do not enrage.
Abstain from dragging me to quarrels small,
Release me from this trifling squall.
2
Should you entangle me in trivial fight,
Can you then swiftly take your flight?
Do not involve me in these petty rows,
Let me remain in peaceful vows.
3
I know not the rules, nor competition’s sway,
Yet you thrust me into the fray.
Expecting me to battle in the field,
Unaware, with no shield.
4
Without revealing whom I must oppose,
How can you prepare me, disclose?
Clarify the rival, I entreat,
For readiness I must meet.
5
If the contest be with you,
I’ll courageously pursue.
Straight into the challenge I’ll go,
With valor to bestow.
6
In the end, the victory shall be mine,
Thus, no preparation do I design.
Destined am I to win,
With no prior toil or spin.
7
If with others I must compete,
I’ll gently play, not cheat.
Engaging in a mild display,
Competing lightly, just to play.
8
If with me you wish to vie,
Why needless trouble do you try?
Creating conflicts sans necessity,
Fostering unnecessary complexity.
9
Without inquiring, what remains to do?
There’s no true need, this much is true.
No necessity compels this course,
Even if it seems the force.
10
If I ask the reason why,
You refuse my query nigh.
Why deny me explanation clear,
For actions that appear so mere?
11
Are you not aware, our past contests all,
Have never seen a decisive fall?
No clear vict’ry nor defeat defined,
Just life’s ongoing, intertwined.
12
Thus, I persist in life’s steady flow,
Without triumph, without woe.
Is this not evident to thee?
Life moves on, endlessly.
13
Should you seek amusement in my plight,
Find another path, set it right.
Do not turn me to your spectacle’s core,
In your amusement, implore.
14
Do not purchase strife at high expense,
Cease this folly, spare no pence.
Engage not in this futile act,
Simply let it lapse, in fact.
15
If you drag me to contention’s pit,
Observe the aftermath of it.
The spectacle ensuing there,
Will indeed be quite rare.
16
Even the cost you’ll have to bear,
Will be exceedingly unfair.
Ponder well before you engage,
In actions that set the stage.
Gurukulam, 21-12-23, Night, 11.45
BT Song 1543
Another struggle with my mind. There is no point in arguing with it. After venting my anger and blaming God for giving me such a mind, I have to live this struggle always with my mind—which never allows me to remain calm, always forcing me to think about everything I do—be it reading, writing, or other works in life. But my only consolation is that I can register my opposition in words through poems.
1543: No Care
Simple English
1
If you don’t want it,
Just leave it alone.
Stop doing things,
That are useless and unknown.
2
If someone says,
“This is wrong,”
You should try,
To correct it and be strong.
3
Don’t you have,
Other work to do?
Has this become,
A habit for you?
4
You can make fun,
By laughing at the town,
It might give you,
Some joy around.
5
I have a thousand,
Jobs to do,
Everyday life,
Is heavy too.
6
If you join in,
With your ways,
Who will have,
The strength these days?
7
If it’s wrong,
You get mad,
If punished,
You do it more, and it’s sad.
8
Correcting you,
Has worn me out,
What else to do,
I have no doubt.
9
Can’t exclude,
Can’t ignore,
Look at this,
Situation more.
10
Who else but the one,
Who placed you here,
Can be responsible,
For this, my dear?
11
You have no care,
No compassion to share,
Even He has,
No concern there.
12
Your alliance is,
Doing just fine,
I watch from afar,
From my line.
13
After debating,
Who’s to blame,
What more is there,
In this game?
Gurukulam, 21-12-23, Evening, 6.30 pm
1543: No Care
Classical English Translation:
1
If thou dost not desire,
Then leave it be.
Cease these acts,
Of frivolity.
2
If one declares,
“This is an error,”
Thou shouldst strive,
To amend with fervor.
3
Hast thou no other,
Task to perform?
Hath this become,
Thy usual norm?
4
Thou canst mock,
The village fair,
It may bring thee,
Some joy there.
5
A thousand tasks,
Await me still,
Daily life,
Is a heavy mill.
6
Shouldst thou join,
With thy ways,
Who possesses,
The strength these days?
7
If wrong, thou dost rage,
If punished, thou persist,
In errors new,
Such acts resist.
8
Correcting thee,
Has wearied me,
What else remains,
Tell me, to be.
9
Cannot exclude,
Cannot ignore,
Behold this state,
Forevermore.
10
Who but He,
That placed thee here,
Can bear the blame,
This is clear.
11
Thou lackest care,
Compassion too,
Even He shows,
No concern anew.
12
Thy alliance stands,
Strong and fine,
I observe from afar,
In my line.
13
After contesting,
Who is to blame,
What remains,
In this game?
Gurukulam, 21-12-23, Evening, 6.30 pm
BT Song 1544
After typing these two poems [1542, 1543], I went to have my dinner. At that time, I thought that as I often write poems always having some contention with God, I almost stopped writing poems praising Him. Then I thought, let me write a romantic poem as God also should have some kind of respite from my rebukes and contentions. This Rati bhava expresses a subtle kind of bhakti. In all other relationships, there is some kind of hierarchy between God and His bhakta. In Viraha bhakti also, there will be more rebuke and accusations with tears due to ‘love in separation’. But when it comes to Rati bhava, both God and the bhakta stand equal as they both enjoy and mingle with each other without knowing any separation. No doubt many mystics wrote such songs to express their mysticism. Then I continued to write the poem in my mind and after quickly finishing the dinner, I came and wrote this poem. And we both are very happy.
1544: Your Belonging
Simple English
1
I said enough, enough,
Stop your mischief,
I told you to end,
Your rowdy behavior.
2
If I stand there,
With shyness and blush,
You should come and,
Comfort me, I did rush.
3
Even if our bond,
Is very old,
No matter how many days,
We have spent, and hold.
4
When love comes,
You should understand,
The state of a girl,
Needs a gentle hand.
5
If you come as a mother,
I will run to you,
If you come as a lord,
I will bow to you too.
6
When you come as a lover,
I hesitate with shame,
Feeling shy,
In this love game.
7
Just because I said,
You are my lord,
Doing this,
Is really hard.
8
How much love,
How much teasing,
Crossing limits,
Is it pleasing?
9
The closeness in this,
Not found in other bonds,
How did it come,
Between us, so fond?
10
When we unite,
After a fight,
The whole world fades,
I understand it right.
11
So if you come,
Like this often,
I will give you,
Love-filled poems.
12
But if you come,
In any other bond,
There will be clashes,
I had warned.
13
Is that why,
You do like this?
Hugging me tightly,
Refusing to dismiss?
14
Whatever you do,
I will agree,
Because I belong,
To you, you see.
Gurukulam, 21-12-23, Evening, 7.45 pm
1544: Your Belonging
Classical English
1
“Enough, enough,” I said,
Cease thy mischief now,
I urged thee to end,
Thy boisterous brow.
2
Shouldst I stand there,
Blushing with shame,
Thou shouldst come to me,
And console my name.
3
Even if our bond,
Be of old yore,
No matter the days,
We have spent in store.
4
When love doth arrive,
Thou must comprehend,
The state of a maiden,
And gently attend.
5
If thou comest as a mother,
To thee I shall race,
If thou comest as a lord,
Thy feet I shall grace.
6
When thou comest as a lover,
I hesitate with shame,
Feeling shy,
In this tender game.
7
Because I proclaimed,
“Thou art my lord,”
Such actions thou takest,
Are truly untoward.
8
How much love,
How much teasing,
Crossing all bounds,
Is this appeasing?
9
This closeness found,
In no other ties,
How did it spring,
Between you and I?
10
When we unite,
After discord’s flight,
The world fades away,
I grasp its light.
11
So if thou comest,
In love’s frequent dance,
I shall gift thee,
Poems of romance.
12
But if thou comest,
In any other guise,
Clashes shall arise,
As I surmise.
13
Is it why thou dost,
Act in this manner?
Hugging me tight,
Refusing to scatter?
14
Whatever thou dost,
I shall consent,
For I too am thine,
With no dissent.
Gurukulam, 21-12-23, Evening, 7.45 pm
Bhakti Song 1545
When I read the following lines from Rumi, I was struck by one word of God ‘slapping’ the bhakta to teach her the secret of bhakti, which is always a mystic experience where all kinds of duality disappear. No theology or philosophy can explain this, and certain theologies/philosophies won’t even accept it. But like a mystic, a bhakta also transcends theology/philosophy to become one with the TRANSCENDENTAL-IMMANENT ETERNAL REALITY in her pilgrimage.
Not only Rumi but so many mystics and various bhakti saints have expressed the same view based on their experience, going beyond all kinds of human limitations. If I start to quote even some of them, that will go for several pages. And there is no need for that, as each bhakta has her own unique experience that needs no endorsement from others—even from God?! Going beyond even Rumi’s experience.
….I reached my hand
To touch you. You struck it down.
“Why are you so harsh with me?”
“for good reason. But certainly not
To keep you away! Whoever enters this place
Saying Here I am must be slapped.
This is not a pen for sheep.
There are no separating distances here.
This is love’s sanctuary.
…
— Coleman Barks, The Essential Rumi, New York, HarperCollins, 2004 [1995]Talking in the Night, Sohbet: Meetings on the Riverbank, p. 77
1545: I Disappeared in You
Simple English
1
When I stretched,
My hands to touch you,
Why did you reject it?
2
When I asked,
This question to you,
You said, “If you come with a sense of ‘I’ to me,
3
In order to help you,
You must understand,
That it is not ‘I’ who is coming,
I gave that slap.”
4
With the sense of ‘I’,
And even renouncing yourself,
You have to come to me,
Who dwells within you.
5
And to help you realize,
That the one who comes,
Unto me is also,
Not that ‘I’.”
6
When you gave that response,
I realized that you gave that,
Not to me,
But only to yourself.
7
Once I understood this,
Along with ‘I’ and ‘mine’,
Renouncing me completely,
And experiencing that,
8
I becoming You,
And You becoming me,
Both coming together,
Merging with each other.
Gurukulam, 21-12-2023, 11.30 pm
1545: I Disappeared in You
Classical English Translation:
1
When I did stretch,
My hands to touch thee,
Why didst thou reject,
This act from me?
2
When I inquired,
This question to thee,
Thou saidst, “If thou comest with a sense of ‘I’ to me,
3
To aid thy understanding,
Thou must grasp,
That it is not ‘I’ who approaches,
Hence, I gave that slap.”
4
With the sense of ‘I’,
And renouncing thyself,
Thou must come to me,
Who within thee doth dwell.
5
And to aid thy realization,
That the one who cometh,
Unto me is also,
Not that ‘I’.”
6
When thou gavest that response,
I did realize,
That thou gavest it not to me,
But only to thyself, wise.
7
Once I comprehended this,
Along with ‘I’ and ‘mine’,
Renouncing myself wholly,
And experiencing the divine,
8
I becoming Thee,
And Thou becoming me,
Both merging as one,
In perfect unity.
Gurukulam, 21-12-2023, 11.30 pm
BT Song 1541 கிள்ளியது யார்
எத்தனையோ உண்டு
உன்னிடம் சொல்ல
எதைச் சொல்ல எதை விட
என்பது தெரியலே 1
சொல்லாமல் நீயும்
புரிந்திடும் போதும்
சொல்லத் தேவை
எனக்குத்தான் உண்டு 2
மனப்பாரம் இறக்க
சொல்ல வரவில்லை
மற்ற எவ்வித
காரணம் இல்லை 3
தனிமையை போக்க
பேச வில்லை
அதற்கான அவசியம்
இருவர்க்கும் இல்லை 4
இத்தனை எண்ணம்
எப்படி வருது
அதற்குக் காரணம்
யாரெனச் சொல்லு 5
மூளையா மனமா
இரண்டிலே யாது
அல்லது ஆன்மாவின்
குரலா சொல்லு 6
எண்ணத்தை என்னுள்
வைத்த நீதான்
இதற்கான பதிலை
தந்திட வேண்டும் 7
உன்சாயல் தன்னில்
உருவாக்கி வைத்த
உனக்கின்றி வேறு
யாருக்குத் தெரியும் 8
முழுமுதற் காரணம்
நீ என்பதாலே
நியன்றி இதற்கு
வேறாரு பொறுப்பு 9
பிள்ளையை கிள்ளி
தொட்டிலை ஆட்டும்
செவிலியாய் ஆனாயோ
அதையேனும் சொல்லு 10
தாய்வந்து தாலாட்ட
அழுதிடும் குழந்தை
மீண்டும் கூட
தூங்கப் போகும் 11
செவிலி தாலாட்டு
பாடிய போதும்
தூங்காத குழவியாய்
ஆனேன் பாவம் 12
ஒருவேளை இதுகூட
செய்வது நீயோ
செவிலியாய் மாறி
கிள்ளுகிறாயோ 13
இதுபோல பல உண்டு
அவற்றில் இது ஒன்று
இதற்கு பதில்தந்தால்
மற்றதை சொல்கிறேன் 14
குருகுலம், 19-12-23, 4.45 pm
BT Song 1542 விலை அதிகம்
போட்டிக்கு வரவில்லை
என்றுமே சொன்னால்
பேசாமல் என்னை
விட்டிட வேண்டும் 1
வீணுக்கு என்னை
வம்புக்கு இழுத்தால்
விட்டு விட்டு
ஓடவா முடியும் 2
போட்டியும் தெரியாது
விதிகளும் புரியாது
களத்திலே இறக்கி
விடுகிறாய் நீயும் 3
யாருடன் போட்டி
என்பதைச் சொல்லாமல்
எப்படி என்னை
ஆயத்தப்படுத்த 4
உன்னுடன் போட்டி
என்றுமே ஆனால்
அதிலே துணிந்து
உடனே இறங்கலாம் 5
இறுதியில் வெற்றி
எனது என்பதால்
எவ்வித ஆயத்தம்
செய்யவும் வேண்டாம் 6
பிறருடன் போட்டி
என்றுமே ஆனால்
விட்டுக் கொடுத்து
விளையாடிப் பார்க்கலாம் 7
என்னுடன் போட்டி
போடச் சொல்லி
எதற்காய் வீண்
வம்பு செய்கிறாய் 8
கேள்விகள் கேட்காமல்
வேறென்ன செய்ய
அதற்கான அவசியம்
இல்லை என்றாலும் 9
அதற்கான காரணம்
உன்னிடம் கேட்டால்
அதைகூட கேட்க
நீயேன் மறுக்கிறாய் 10
இதுவரை என்னுடன்
போட்ட போட்டிகள்
எப்படி முடிந்தது
என்பது தெரியாதோ 11
வெற்றியும் இன்றி
தோல்வியும் இன்றி
வாழ்வை ஓட்டுறேன்
அதுவும் புரியாதோ 12
வேடிக்கை பார்க்க
தேவை இருந்தால்
வேறேதும் வழி
இருந்தால் பாரு 13
வீணாக வம்பை
விலைக்கு வாங்காதே
இந்த காரியம்
நீயும் செய்யாதே 14
அதைவிட்டு என்னை
வம்புக்கு இழுத்தால்
அதன்பின் நடக்கும்
வேடிக்கை பாரு 15
அதற்கும் கூட
தந்திடும் விலையும்
அதிகமாய் இருக்கும்
என்பதை எண்ணு 16
குருகுலம், 21-12-23, இரவு, 11.45
BT Song 1543 அக்கறை இல்லை
வேண்டாம் என்றால்
விட்டிட வேண்டும்
வீம்புக்கு செய்வதை
நிறுத்த வேண்டும் 1
தவறிது என்று
யார் சொன்னாலும்
அதையும் திருத்த
முயன்றிட வேண்டும் 2
உனக்கென்ன வேறு
வேலை இல்லையா
இதுவே உனக்கு
வாடிக்கை ஆனதா 3
ஊர்பார்த்து சிரிக்க
வேடிக்கை செய்யலாம்
உனக்கது சற்று
மகிழ்ச்சியை தரலாம் 4
ஆயிரம் வேலைகள்
எனக்கும் இருக்கு
அன்றாட வாழ்வே
பாரமாய் இருக்கு 5
அத்துடன் நீயும்
சேர்ந்து கொண்டாலோ
அதற்குத் தெம்பு
யாரிடம் இருக்கு 6
தப்பிது என்றால்
கோபப்படுகிறாய்
தண்டனை தந்தால்
மேலும் செய்கிறாய் 7
திருத்தி திருத்தி
அலுத்தும் போச்சு
மேற்கொண்டு என்ன
செய்யலாம் சொல்லு 8
ஒதுக்கவும் முடியாது
ஒதுங்கவும் முடியாது
இருக்கும் நிலையை
நீயே பாரு 9
உன்னை என்னுடன்
வைத்தவன் இன்றி
இதற்கும் வேறு
பொறுப்பு யாரு 10
ஈவு இரக்கம்
உனக்கு இல்லை
அதுபற்றி அவனுக்கும்
அக்கறை இல்லை 11
நன்றாய் இருக்கு
உங்கள் கூட்டணி
நானும் ஒருகை
பார்க்கிறேன் பாரினி 12
நீயா நானா
என்று ஆனபின்
மேற்கொண்டு என்ன
பேசுவது போதும் 13
குருகுலம், 21-12-23, மாலை, 6.30 pm
BT Song 1544 உன் சொந்தம்
போதும் போதும்
என்று சொன்னேன்
போக்கிரி தனத்தை
நிறுத்து என்றேன் 1
நாணம் கொண்டு
வெட்கி நின்றால்
நீ வந்து அணைக்க
வேண்டும் என்றேன் 2
என்னதான் உறவு
பழசாய் இருந்தும்
எத்தனை நாட்கள்
பழகி இருந்தும் 3
காதல் என்று
வந்திடும் போது
காரிகை நிலையை
புரிந்திட வேண்டும் 4
தாயாய் வந்தால்
ஓடியே வருவேன்
தலைவனாய் வந்தால்
தாளடி பணிவேன் 5
காதலனாய் நீ
வந்திடும் போது
நாணம் வந்திட
தயங்கி நிற்பேன் 6
நாதான் சொன்னேன்
என்பதற்காக
இப்படி செய்வது
மிகமிக மோசம் 7
எத்தனை காதல்
எத்தனை சீண்டல்
எல்லை மீறுதல்
நன்றா என்றேன் 8
மற்ற உறவில்
இல்லா நெருக்கம்
எப்படி இதிலே
நமக்குள் வந்தது 9
ஊடி கூடி
கலந்திடும் போது
உலகே மறையுது
அதுவும் புரிந்தேன் 10
ஆகவே இதுபோல்
அடிக்கடி வந்தால்
காதல் நிறைந்த
கவிதைகள் தருவேன் 11
ஆனால் மற்ற
உறவாய் வந்தால்
மோதல் இருக்கும்
என்பதை சொன்னேன் 12
அதனால் தானோ
இப்படி செய்கிறாய்
ஆரத் தழுவி
விலகிட மறுக்கிறாய் 13
எது செய்தாலும்
எனக்கும் சம்மதம்
ஏனெனில் நானும்
உனக்கே சொந்தம் 14
குருகுலம், 21-12-23, மாலை, 7.45 pm
BT Song 1545 உன்னில் மறைந்தேன்
தொட்டுன்னை பார்க்க
நீட்டிய கரத்தை
தட்டி நீ விட்டதன்
காரணம் கூறு 1
என்று நான் உன்னிடம்
கேட்கிற போது
‘“நான்” என்ற சொல்லுடன்
என்னிடம் வந்தால் 2
சட்டென அறைவிட்டு
வருவது “நான்” அல்ல
என்பதை நீயும்
புரியணும் என்றுதான் 3
“நான்” என்ற சொல்லுடன்
தன்னையும் துறந்துதான்
உன்னுள்ளே இருக்கும்
என்னிடம் வரவேண்டும் 4
வருவது நீயல்ல
என்பதை நீயும்
முதலில் அறியணும்
என்று உணர்த்த’ 5
என்று நீ எனக்கு
பதில் தரும் போது
தந்தது எனக்கல்ல
உனக்கே நீ என்பதை 6
உணர்ந்ததன் பின்னர்
“நான்” “எனது” என்ற
சொல்லுடன் என்னையே
முற்றாகத் துறந்து 7
நீயே நானாகி
நானும் நீயாகி
இருவரும் இணைந்து
ஒன்றாகக் கலந்து 8
இருவரும் இறுதியில்
ஒன்றென உணர்ந்து
இரண்டறக் கலந்து
மறைந்தோம் நம்மிலே 9
குருகுலம், 21-12-2023, இரவு 11.30
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