Chatgpt converted in English style
BT Song 911
I don’t know why some people don’t like old age. I enjoy it because we can live not with some lame excuse but with some genuine rights like not doing too much physical work, not taking on some responsibilities, etc. When any youngsters refuse to do something I ask them to do, I say to them, “This is our right at this age, and your responsibility to do it. Even the Constitution provides this right. After sixty, we can become lazy, become upset, and demand a bit of extra care and concern. If you don’t know, go and read it.” Of course, there is no such provision in the Constitution. But the privileges of old age are very comfortable, as we can afford them. For example, if we drop something and it breaks, we have the excuse of “old age.” I often keep my mobile in flight mode when I rest so as not to be disturbed by unnecessary phone calls. When I get up, I often forget to switch it back to regular mode. And when others complain about it and say that my phone is always switched off (my brother too complained to our mother), I defend it by saying, “What to do? Old age. I forgot to remove the flight mode.”
So, this night when I was praying to the Lord, I said, “It is good that now I am an old man. No more running with lots of travel and other responsibilities. Hereafter, I can manage to run only with you, and that too very slowly, and you have to go with me accordingly and oblige my demands, unlike the younger generation,” as unlike others becoming millennial kids or baby boomers, you remain youthful eternally. After this prayer, I wrote this song.
BT Song 911: Completed the Race
In some way, I finished the race,
Slowly, I reached thee.
Once I came unto thy grace,
I no longer fret my destiny.
With zeal I ran the course,
Many hurdles I did surmount.
I pressed on with no remorse,
Determined to claim my crown without doubt.
Companions who ran with me went astray,
Those who supported faded away.
What seemed steadfast vanished like day,
I found solace at thy feet to stay.
When weariness halted my pace,
Thy support was nigh.
Somehow, I finished the chase,
And thou granted me rest on high.
Henceforth, I run with thee alone,
This, and this alone, is my plea.
Let thy pace match my own,
Together, let our journey be.
The days of running now cease,
A weariness overtakes my frame.
Lead me gently towards peace,
Guide me henceforth in thy name.
Mathigiri, 24-6-2018, 11:30 p.m.
BT Song 912
Though God is a taskmaster, sometimes realizing my limitations, he decided to give me some rest. Though I was prepared in my mind to accept more responsibility, knowing my situation, taking pity on me, he took the responsibility and released me from it and provided the rest which I deserve in this old age. When I was thinking about it, I wrote this song to sing with joy.
BT Song 912: Where is the Burden Anymore?
No burdens linger
Within my heart,
For responsibility’s yoke
No longer plays its part.
Seeing my state,
Thou took it from me,
Henceforth, worry
Shall not be.
Though difficult it seemed,
I performed what I could.
What thou didst demand,
I accomplished as I should.
I gave my consent,
Even for tasks anew,
But when thou said, ‘Enough,’
I rejoiced in truth.
I thought thou’d agree,
Yet feared the whip’s sting.
I braced for chastisement,
My heart’s troubling.
But reflecting on
My deeds thus far,
Thou showed compassion,
And lifted my bar.
Releasing the burden
That I bore so long,
Thou granted me rest,
Hence, I sing this song.
Mathigiri, 24-6-2018, 11:50 p.m.
BT Song 913
Though I value separate time with the Lord, I have still developed the discipline of communicating with him in between my works. He too should be ready to have fellowship with me like this, as I cannot avoid many outside tasks.
BT Song 913: Peace Came
Many days have passed
Since I spoke with thee.
What can I do?
Time’s current flows unceasingly.
Yet within my soul,
A voice did speak,
Often to thee,
Even when I seemed weak.
Though many tasks arose,
And I was busy with care,
My spirit reached out,
In communion rare.
As long as I live
Amongst others, I find,
Such situations will
Occur in kind.
But when I thought
All is given by thee,
Peace returned,
Settling within me.
Till my life’s end,
I must accept this fate,
Remembering that thou
Shalt with me relate.
Mathigiri, 28-6-2018, 2:55 p.m.
BT Song 914
Giving a reason for the death of the Lord, one young man once said that as God alone created us, naturally, he alone has to die for us. The same is the case for him to redeem me. As he created me without any qualification, he has to redeem me, as there is no other choice for him, and become my qualification forever.
BT Song 914: Not Qualified
I am unqualified
For any task.
Once thou knew it,
Thou did not mask.
Accepting this truth
As my only merit,
Thou showed thy grace,
Which I inherit.
Each must possess
Some qualification,
Without which, life’s birth
Seems but an aberration.
More pitiable am I,
Born without worth,
It seems not my parents’
Blame, nor mirth.
Thou didst forget,
Before my creation,
Thy plans mislaid,
Now lacks explanation.
Thus, thou sought me,
Redeeming my plight,
Overloading me,
With thy righteous might.
When thou became
My sole qualification,
Thou accepted me,
Through thy grace’s mediation.
Mathigiri, 28-06-2018, 11:30 p.m.
BT Song 915
I have one advantage and also an excuse: my old age. So whenever God expects me to do more and rebukes me when I refuse, I always use this advantage to silence him. He too has no choice but to accept it. As he never becomes old, he cannot understand the plight of old people or the advantage they have to give an excuse for so many things which they do not want to do. Remaining a permanent youth, the Lord often behaves like the present Gen Z.
BT Song 915: This Alone is Possible
Thou alone knowest well,
As thou leadest me.
What can I do
But trust in thee?
Why this needless drama,
I ask thee, pray,
The role is thine,
I dance to thy lay.
The song I sing,
Was taught by thee.
Understanding this truth,
Why blame thou me?
Thou called me,
Knowing my worth,
Tasking me thus,
To play on this earth.
When I perform
The tasks thou didst ask,
Why then doth anger
Arise from my task?
Thou demandest more
Than I can give,
When I protest,
Thou bidst me to strive.
Thy expectations
High above me set,
When I fail,
Thy heart dost fret.
Now as I age,
Argue not with me,
I cannot succumb
To thy pressure, thou see.
Quietly now,
I wish to remain,
Thou shouldst agree,
And let peace reign.
Mathigiri, 29-6-2018, 10:30 p.m.
My translation in Tanglish
BT Song 911: Completed the Race
Somehow, I completed the race,
Slowly, I reached you.
Once I came to you,
I no longer worry about the rest of my life.
I ran with much enthusiasm,
I overcame so many hurdles.
I refused to turn back,
I decided to receive the crown.
Those who ran along with me went their own ways,
Those who gave support went away.
What I thought was permanent also disappeared like a shadow,
I came to your feet to take refuge.
When I stood still in the middle of the race with tiredness,
You provided proper support.
Somehow, I ran and completed my responsibility,
You gave me rest.
Hereafter, I can only run with you.
This alone is possible for me now.
You should agree to that,
And you should run a bit slowly with me.
The days of running came to an end,
A kind of tiredness came over my body.
So, you should lead me accordingly,
You should move the rest of my life with some peace.
Mathigiri, 24-6-2018, 11:30 p.m.
BT Song 912: Where is the Burden Anymore?
No more burdens
In my heart,
Because responsibility
Is not mine.
Knowing my condition,
As you took it,
Hereafter I
Need not worry about it.
Though it was not possible,
I have done what I could do.
I accomplished
What you asked me to do.
I gave my consent
Even if you decided to give more,
But when you said, ‘it is enough,’
I rejoiced within.
I thought that
You would say ‘yes,’
I was afraid as if
You would take the whip.
I was ready to
Receive the spank,
But I was troubled
In my heart.
But remembering
What I have done so far,
You had compassion
Accordingly on me.
Unloading the burden
Which I carried so far,
You provided
Rest for me.
Therefore, where is the burden anymore?
Only thinking that,
I sang this song.
Mathigiri, 24-6-2018, 11:50 p.m.
BT Song 913: Peace Came
Many days have gone
Since I came to talk with you.
What can I do?
The days are running.
But there was
A sense within me,
It often
Communicated with you.
Though many
Works have come,
And I was
Too busy with them,
As my spirit
Communicated with you,
I kept in
Touch with you.
As long as I live
With others,
This kind of situation
Will come often.
But when I thought that
All of them were given by you,
The peace
Returned to me.
Till the end of
My life,
I have to
Accept this.
Remembering that
You too
Should have fellowship
With me like this.
Mathigiri, 28-6-2018, 2:55 p.m.
BT Song 914: Not Qualified
I am not
Qualified for anything.
Once you know that,
You never denied it.
As you have
Accepted that as my qualification,
You showed your grace.
I am not denying it.
Each one should
Have some qualification.
If they don’t have, then
What is the use of taking birth?
But I am more
Pitiable,
As I was born
Without having any qualification.
There is no point in
Attributing this to my parents.
It is also
Not my mistake.
As you forgot to think
Before creating me,
You too don’t have
An answer to my question.
Is that why you
Came seeking after me?
You redeemed me
By overloading me?
Once you became
My qualification,
You accepted me
Only through it.
Mathigiri, 28-06-2018, 11:30 p.m.
BT Song 915: This Alone is Possible
You alone know well,
As you are leading me.
What can I do for that?
You know about it.
But why this
Unnecessary drama?
You better
Tell that to me.
The character is
Given by you.
I perform the dance,
But the beat (thala) is yours.
The song which I sing,
You taught.
Once you understand this,
Why blame me?
Only after knowing this,
You called me.
You asked me to do
What I know.
When I do
Only this,
From where
Did this much anger come?
You ask me to do something
Which is not possible for me?
When I say it is impossible,
You say, ‘better try.’
You have
Too much expectation.
When I cannot do it,
You become upset unnecessarily.
When I say that
I am getting old,
Unnecessarily, you
Argue with me.
I am not the person
Who succumbs to such pressure.
Why should I often
Remind this to you?
Now I can remain
Only quietly.
You also should
Agree to this.
Mathigiri, 29-6-2018, 10:30 p.m.
Here are the edited versions of the five Tamil poems:
பாடல் 911: ஓட்டத்தை முடித்தேன்
ஒருவாறு ஓட்டத்தை ஓடியே முடித்தேன்
மெதுவாக உன்னிடம் வந்துமே சேர்ந்தேன்
எஞ்சிய நாட்களப் பற்றிய கவலை
உன்னிடம் வந்தபின் எனக்குமே இல்லை
ஆர்வமுடனே நானுமே ஓடினேன்
அடுத்தடுத்துவந்த தடைகளைத் தாண்டினேன்
முன்வைத்த காலைப் பின்வைக்க மறுத்தேன்
முடியினைப் பெறவே நிச்சயம் கொண்டேன்
உடனோடி வந்தவர் தம் வழி போக
தோள்தந்து நின்றோர் விலகியே செல்ல
சதமென நினைந்தது நிழலென மறைய
திருவடி அடைந்தேன் புகலிடம் அடைய
இடையிடை சோர்ந்து நான் நின்றபோது
ஏற்ற உதவிகள் எனக்குநீ அளித்தாய்
ஒருவாறு ஓடிப் பொறுப்பினை முடிக்க
இளைப்பாறுதலை நீ தந்தாய்
இனியோடும் ஓட்டம் உன்னோடு மட்டும்
இதுதான் எனக்கு இப்போது முடியும்
சம்மதம் அதற்கு நீயுமே தரணும்
சற்றே மெதுவாக என்னுடன் ஓடணும்
ஓடிய நாட்களும் முடிஞ்சுமே போச்சு
ஒருவித தளர்ச்சி உடலில் வந்தாச்சு
அதற்கேற்ப நீயும் என்னை நடத்தணும்
அமைதியாய் எஞ்சிய வாழ்வையும் நகர்த்தணும்
மத்திகிரி, 24-6-2018, இரவு 11.30
பாடல் 912: இனியென்ன பாரம்
எவ்விதப் பாரமும்
உள்ளத்திலே இல்லை
ஏனென்றால் பொறுப்பு
எனதாக இல்லை
எந்நிலை உணர்ந்து
நீயதை ஏற்க
இனிமேலே அதுபற்றி
எனக்கில்லை கவலை
முடியாத போதும்
முடிஞ்சதைச் செய்தேன்
சொன்னதை இதுவரை
செய்துமே முடித்தேன்
மேற்கொண்டு தந்தாலும்
சம்மதம் என்றேன்
இதுபோதும் என்றதும்
உள்ளூர மகிழ்ந்தேன்
சரியெனச் சொல்வாயோ
என்றுமே நினைந்தேன்
சாட்டையை எடுப்பாயோ
என்றுமே பயந்தேன்
அடிவாங்க நானும்
ஆயத்தம் ஆனேன்
ஆனாலும் உள்ளத்தில்
கலக்கமும் கொண்டேன்
ஆனாலும் இதுவரை
செய்ததை நினைத்து
அதற்கேற்ப என்மீது
பரிவுமே கொண்டு
சுமந்த சுமையை
இறக்கியே வைத்து
தந்தாயே ஒய்வு
பாரத்தை ஏற்று
அதனாலே எனக்கு
இனியென்ன பாரம்
அதையே எண்ணி
பாடினேன் நானும்
மத்திகிரி, 24-6-2018, இரவு 11.50
பாடல் 913: அமைதி வந்தது
நாளாகிப் போச்சு
நான்வந்து பேசி
நானென்ன செய்ய
நாளோடிப் போச்சு
ஆனாலும் உள்ளே
உணர்வும் இருந்தது
அடிக்கடி உன்னுடன்
உறவாடி வந்தது
வெளிவேலை ஆயிரம்
பலவந்த போதும்
முழுவீச்சாய் நானும்
அவை செய்தபோதும்
உள்ளாக ஆவி
என்னோடு உறவாட
இருந்தேனே நானும்
உன்னோடு தொடர்பில்
ஊரோடும் உறவோடும்
நான்வாழும் வரையிலும்
இதுபோன்ற நிலையுமே
அடிக்கடி வந்திடும்
ஆயினும் அவையாவும்
நீயுமே தந்தது
எனநான் எண்ணிட
அமைதியும் வந்தது
இறுதி வரையிலே
வாழ்கின்ற வரையிலும்
இதைநானும் ஏற்று
வாழ்ந்தாக வேண்டும்
அதையெண்ணி நீயும்
அதற்கேற்ப என்னோடு
இதுபோல என்றுமே
உறவாட வேண்டும்
மத்திகிரி, 28-6-2018, மதியம் 2.55
பாடல் 914: தகுதியற்றவன்
எதற்குமே தகுதி
எனக்குமே இல்லை
அறிந்தபின் அதைநீ
மறுக்கவும் இல்லை
அதையே தகுதியாய்
நீயுமே ஏற்றபின்
அருளினை அளித்தாய்
மறுக்கவும் இல்லை
எதற்குமோர் தகுதி
எவருக்கும் வேண்டும்
இல்லாது போனால்
பிறந்தென்ன இலாபம்
எவ்விதத் தகுதியும்
இல்லாத நானும்
ஏனோ பிறந்தேன்
அதுதானே பாவம்
பெற்றோரைச் சொல்லிப்
பயனேதும் இல்லை
பிறந்த என்மீதும்
தவறேதும் இல்லை
படைக்கும்முன் சிந்திக்க
மறந்த உன்னிடம்
என்னிந்தக் கேள்விக்குப்
பதிலுமே இல்லை
அதனால் தானோ
நீதேடி வந்தாய்
ஆட்கொண்டு என்னை
உய்வித்துக் கொண்டாய்
அதன்பின் நீயே
தகுதியாய் மாற
அதன்மூலம் என்னை
ஏற்றுமே கொண்டாய்
மத்திகிரி, 28-06-2018, இரவு 11.30
பாடல் 915: இதுதான் முடியும்
நடத்துற உனக்குத்தான்
நன்றாகத் தெரியும்
நானென்ன செய்ய
உனக்கது புரியும்
ஆயினும் இடையிலே
ஏனிந்த நாடகம்
அதைமட்டும் எனக்கு
நீசொல்ல வேண்டும்
போடற வேடமோ
நீயுமே தந்தது
ஆடுறேன் நடனமும்
அடவுமோ உன்னுது
பாடிடும் பாடலோ
நீசொல்லித் தந்தது
புரிந்தபின் நீயுமே
குறையேன் சொல்வது
தெரிந்தபிந்தானே
நீயுமே அழைத்தாய்
தெரிந்ததை மட்டுமே
செய்திடச் சொன்னாய்
அதையே நானும்
செய்திடும் போது
ஆத்திரம் உனக்கு
ஏனிங்கு வந்தது
இயலாத ஒன்றைச்
செய்திடச் சொல்கிறாய்
இயலாது என்றால்
முயன்றிடு என்கிறாய்
எதிர்பார்ப்பு உனக்கு
மிகையாக உள்ளது
முடியாது போனால்
வீண்கோபம் வருகுது
வயதாகிப் போச்சு
என்றுமே சொன்னால்
வீணாக என்னோடு
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மத்திகிரி, 29-6-2018, இரவு 10.30
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